Just feel like writing something.......
Suddenly just feel like writing something but wat should i write about...... ponder.......
.....still pondering......... Well nothing actually haha!!!! Just a moment ago i was just reading some ppl's blog coz got nothing better to do haha!!!! kinda sick of seeing my books and all those craps written on it haha!!!!!!!!! than suddenly the scene of Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi that Ming Dao say the xie ying of cherry is cherish. haha suddenly just haf this weird feeling in me!!!! Just feeling funny!!!! Must all those songs that i've been addicted to recently haha!!!!!!
LIfe is just so weird and funny at times...... there are like many up and downs but some ppl are just so fortunate to be free of the 'downs' while most are unlucky!!!! Sometimes i wonder why do those ppl who dun deserve any happiness at all are having it all but those who deserve it are not having any!!!!!!!! troubles and worries seem to also be around those who deserve happiness. Is this a obstacle that they haf to go through to find real happiness till death or its all just a joke. Is it true tat only 'evil' ppl gets the best of stuff and evil do truimph over good????
This is something i always wonder...... Everything around me seems to prove that this is true. I dun ever seem to see good truimph over evil. Is there really such a thing or is just human beings trying to make themself feel gd.
Suddenly something just strike me...... Recently i'm starting to feel that i do not know who i really am already. I'm like starting not to know wat kind of person am i anymore. I dun really like to tok already. even online. I use to have alot of stuff to tok about in the past but not anymore. Even to you guys i also dun tok much already and even more so to ppl that i only know for 1yr or so. Guess these few yrs i've been keeping too much to myself that made me not want to tok anymore. I just can't open up at all. Seeing ppl around me all opening up having that kind of relax feeling is also wat i want but i just can't be that!!!!! Is there something wrong with me???? or mayb i'm just not that kind but than why do i feel that it is wat i want???? The worst part is that i use to just shout at ppl that piss me off immedietely but now it seems that i just can't seem to do that anymore??? And boy trust me its damn frustrating when u wanna say it but u can't say it out. Is there something wrong with me???????? ANSWERS I NEED ANSWERS!!!!!!! haiz feeling so sad..... Who am i ????? Wat is the real me?????? Living in this pretenious world had made me lost my idenity already.
Mayb This is the time to look for ME!!!!!!!! Its should be somewhere out there i guess!!!!!!!
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Maggie..actually we all know u dun like to open up tell us ur problems..this we all understand and respect ur decision. but sometimes if u feel like is taking too much for ur heart to take it..u can either write down in ur diary or blog it(dun publish). or u can find any of ur trustable frens that u can trust to tok den u open up a little. (not saying that you have to tell everything..you can choose not to tell all) sometimes i do that too. at least it makes u feel better. depends on how u see it. if saying out doesn't make things better for u den u can write it down.
And abt "why do those ppl who dun deserve any happiness at all are having it all but those who deserve it are not having any!!!!!!!!" all i could say is life is unfair..or ur happiness has not yet arrived. dun despair becos happiness is actually with u right now..being with ur family is consider one happiness cos they are the ppls who truly cared for u the most in this world. some ppl out there dun even have family so we are considered fortunate. cheer up k. ur happiness will come de!
And abt "Who am i ????? Wat is the real me??????" i dun have a answer for u..this, u have to search for your ownself. Your life..you are actually your own director controlling ur own life. you still have decades to know urself to understand ur real self..you are who you are.
a nice story that u can ponder on..
There was this museum laid with beautiful marble tiles, with a huge marble statue displayed in the middle of the lobby. Many people came from all over the world just to admire this beautiful marble statue.
One night, the marble tiles started talking to the marble statue.
Marble tile: Marble statue, it’s just not fair, it’s just not fair! Why does everybody from all over the world come all the way here just to step on me while admiring you? Not fair!
Marble statue: My dear friend, marble tile. Do you still remember that we were actually from the same cave?
Marble tile: Yeah! That’s why I feel it is even more unfair. We were born from the same cave and yet we receive different treatment now. Not fair!”
Marble statue: Then, do you still remember the day when the designer tried to work on you, but you resisted the tools?
Marble tile: Yes, of course I remember. I hate that guy! How could he use those tools on me, it hurt so badly.
Marble statue: That’s right! He couldn’t work on you at all as you resisted being worked on.
Marble tile: So???
Marble statue: When he decided to give up on you and start working on me instead, I knew at once that I would be something different after his efforts. I did not resist his tools, instead I bore all the painful tools he used on me.
Marble tile: Mmmmmm……
Marble statue: My friend, there is a price to everything in life. Since you decided to give up half way, you can’t blame anybody who steps on you now.”
The moral of the story is …. It simply means that the more hard knocks you go through in life, the more you’ll learn and put them to use in the future!! Do not be discouraged by setbacks and failures. Past is past, you can’t change it but it is actually a blessing in disguise. Past was good, Present is better and the future will always be the best.
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