Wednesday, March 22, 2006

sorry guys

Sorry guys

Chalet is cancelled. Sorry bout all the fuss and stuff and in the end its cancelled. After much thinking i guess its much better to hold it at a later time mayb later in the yr or something when everyone can make it and haf the finance and the time and stuff. Mayb we can hold it during near christmas or new yr since we never celebrate together b4 these festivals haha.

ZQ remb u meeting on fri hor to go shopping. call tsl too bah if she free. Anyone who wants to go too sms or msn me. The more the merrier. haha!!!!

Shermeen and Joson, remb next tues after K go watch late nite movie hor. Bengi you wanna come along too anot. Long time never see u online so never ask ya. SMS or MSN me bah!!! or just tag!!!!!

Last thingie of all anyone wanna go birdpark anot on Sunday ( anyone of the sunday)??? All Joson fault that time say wanna go zoo!!!!!!! Now me wanna go birdpark haha actually is to go see the waterfall. Many yrs never go already so wanna go. If u guys game for it sms, msn or tag me kk.

Thats bout it tata

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

din get wat i want

Din Get Wat I Want!!!

Did my hair today but din manage to get the style i wanted. Damn it i wanted to change my hairstyle but that stylist is so insistent with her way and i so sturborn so in the end i dun really haf the hairstyle i want. Anyway all haf to see how i look after i wash my hair so i can change it and style it MYSELF!!!! worst come to worst i go to the $10 shop to cut the style i want and this time round i will go look for the picture of the style i want. Drags........ that stylist really arh. next time i go there do my hair i wun want her liao HAHAH!!!!!! All i want is a new haristyle that i like and that i know it will suit my stupid face!!!!!!!!!! why can;t she bloody hell listen leh haiz.... so insistent that rebond means is like that already blah blah blah...................... haiz .............

thats all for today........



P.S to those ppl i tok to bout the chalet thingie. pls reply me by tonite or tomolo morning asap whether 2nd april haf chalet okie anot and ur want bbq or potluck or both. bbq all must chip in hor coz i dun haf the finance to pay for both chalet and bbq WAhaha!!!!!! Chalet i will be paying for it so no worries bout that. Ohya ZQ is in charge of the fireworks thingie she say so herself. Can't wait to go to the beach to play with it WAHAHA!!!!!!!!!! tata!!!!!!

Monday, March 20, 2006

drags

DRAGS!!!

Now is lke 5.35 am and i'm like not asleep yet. Gosh i guess all the earlier laughing when tokking to zq, joson,bengi and shermeen has made me so awake that i up to now still not aslp yet. This always happen when i laugh too much in the nite close to bedtime.

Anyway during the chat we were tokking bout gifing Joson a nickname since we all have one so he should not be left out. Anyway his new nick is JOJO but i prefer MOJO JOJO hahaha. this nick cuter than just JOJO though its kinda long but easy to remb wat coz of power puff girls!!!!!

After that we also tok bout my bdae whether to go sing K or go chalet haha!!! its like i not anxious at all but zq and joson are so anxious so funny!!! its like there is one saying in chinese the king not anxious but the eunuch is anxious haha!!! actually i wanted both but since everyone timming not there coz of work and attachment and sch so we only going to sing K. than the chalet thing haf towait till can confirm all are free bah!!!

Actually thinking bout it i got no plans at all for my 21st bdae. Everyone seem to haf an idea to how they wanna celebrate thier 21st but i dun at all. I guess mayb i do haf but the money problem is like putting off everything. haiz.... even my present i wanted to get from my dad i also put it off liao. It seems that wat ever i want at certain time something will always crop up and in the end i just dun haf the heart to go ask for it haha!!! I guess knowing too much is not gd for me at all. Guess this yr my bdae will be the same as any other yr with the only diff that zq they all will be going out with me to sing K. though its for a short while but really glad.

Anyway hope that MOJO JOJO by next week no need to go back to work than i can go try book chalet and hope no last minute problems. This seem to happen to me whenever i try to do something haha ill fated!!! Only thing is that i scare zq will be too tired in sch coz after that the next day she haf to get up real early to go sch and the journey id like 50mins lor plus 15mins walk from mrt to sch. anyway see how first bah!!!! Mayb it will not even happen at all so dun even wanna think bout it haha!! or mayb i can just go with my sub grp too members haha but i not really that close with them as with zq they all so this is like not a solution at all haha!!!!

Guess my plan to go watch movie today is a gonna coz i guess i would be sleeping in the afternoon already haha!! BTW anyone reading this ur wanna go watch movie anot arh. we go watch NANNY MCPHEE leh i think its something like mary poppins but more high tech only bah haha me love to watch mary poppins when was young. One day can like watch many many times haha!!!

I realize now adays english shows are like taking old shows plots. beside nanny mcphee, there is also other show call wat 'she his theirs' watever the title is. cannot remb. Back to wat i was saying, this story is bout a lady with many many children meeting a man with also many many children. They in the end get marry but in between their children try to break them up. so as the story goes...... i watch this kind of show like dunno how many times liao haha!!!

okay enough of crapping liao i need to sleep. guess i would be going to plaza to shop around bah. Just feel like shopping!!! Guess i;m going to spent some of my CNY money liao haha!!!! nite nite ppl or morning i should say!!!!

Saturday, March 18, 2006

long awaited video

LONG AWAITED VIDEO!!!

Okay attachment are finally over YIPPIE!!! i really need this holiday to recharge again coz i've been sick for a month already. I need all the slp i can haf to recover or else arh i might think that i got chest infection or some other kinds of disease. Been taking care of ppl with chest infection so i'm kinda worry coz i've been coughing for too long liao though its getting better each day. However my flu haiz really haf to pop the cold panadol to eat liao. I need to get well so can go out play and shop and shop more haha!!!

okay here is the long awaited video i took when i went out wif zq they all to sing K. its kinda funny lah haha. i took my tired legs than bengi singing and in the background there was 2 hungry ghost (zq and tsl)eating and eating and eating haha!!!!!! Well it was a fun day with zq acting crazy at times esp when she is singing.Its bloody funni lor. Actually its gd to go sing K in a big grp but must be with ppl u like or enjoy their company or else it will be a drag .................

Okay pls kindly play very and i do mean very patiently ( i tink not correct spelling rite??) watever lah for the video to load. i think the last video i upload doesn't seem to load. guess my layout too small for my video haha!!!! anyway i'm trying to do something bout it when i feel like it so bare with it at the moment haha!!!!!


Wednesday, March 15, 2006

results

RESULTS OUT!!!!

Recently i realize i like to type KAOZ in tagboards or in blogs or watever hahaha!!!! anyway results are out for my sem 2. In the nite i could not slp well at all. though i was not thinking bout the results but i guess sub consciously i am bah. i think.......... Well other stuffs were on my mind too actually. Well enough of all those i cannot slp rubbish.

In a few hours time haf to get out of bed to go attachment liao but here i am blogging. well just feel like blogging. JUst came to realize that blogging is quite a good way to release ur worries and feelings and other stuff watsoever.

think haf to slp now liao or at least try or just lie dead on bed to rest and pyscho myself to sleep.

P.S ZQ i friday can go play fireworks with you liao if i not going to sing K with my frens. Will sms u tomolo or friday morning /afternoon to confirm yah!!!! or wanna go sing K on friday also can haha but call tsl too bah. Anyway juz can't wait for the end of my attachment!!!!! YIPPIE!!!!!!!!!!!! FREEDOM FOR 1 WHOLE MONTH!!!!!

Sunday, March 12, 2006

surprising day

Surprising Day!!!

Today is like a day full of surprises lor. Going to this Jeremy party can be a gd thing too coz get to realize so many things that was hidden from me. Honestly I'm rather disappointed lor ( if u reading this u should know who u are). Never expect u will turn out this way. If u really need to vent somewhere call me lah. i can finds ways to help though i might not be very gd at it or u may not like it but i rather you come find me than to do those stuff. Becareful i come nagging at you and its going to be very unpleasent hor!!! ZI YE BING you noe!!!!!! Things i said at the party may not be nice lah buts its for your own gd and gd advice never sound nice rite??? Just remb wat i said lah and try hard ok. Nothing is that bad as long as its not the end of the world. Even if its the end of the world u still haf to take it to ur stride ( dunno how to spell lah). U know how to say to advice other ppl so i hope u can also listen to your own advice that you gif other ppl. okie??? pls promise me that you would stop doing wat you do. As a fren i dun wanna see you like that ok. I really want you well thats why all these nagging. dun try to avoid me or else HEHEHEHE!!!!!!!!

Anyway to EVERYONE OF YOU GUYS READING THIS............ whether isit family, personal, relationship problem you can look for me and i will be there to help you. Even if i cannot help i will still try ok. BTW i very resouceful hor. BUT if you kill or rob the bank or do illegal stuff hor dun look for me coz i will just call the police to arrest you lor.I dun wanna see anyone of you guys to do silly things. Its bcoz i treat you guys as gd frens than i nag or else i can't even be bother wif you. Die already i also wun care at all. I will just watch you rot away ur life and see you kill urself.

Ok enough of it liao or else too nagging. Anyway just came back bout an hour ago only. WAH this time my first time go home so late. break record liao lah!! Had a nice chat with Joson, Shermeen and Bengi!!! Many things was said and stuff but really glad we all chat tonite till in the wee hours........... Next time must have chatting session again mayb else where this time round.

Blog the next time round after my attachment and will upload the video of bengi that time singing K on wednesday... TATA

Thursday, February 23, 2006

exams are over.....

EXAMS ARE OVER BUT.......


but the awaitment for the result sucks. i hope tis time can at least all get a C+ and above. Really no confidence at all. SAQ no problem at all but the MCQs ......... I'm so dead!!!!! This time round not enough time to study at all coz of the 3 weeks attachment i have b4 the exams. Too tired to study even if i wanted to. all my modules which would take me bout 3-4 days sometimes 5 days( okay i know i'm a slow learner) depending on my laziness to study are all studied in 1-2 days each. I really crash study till i fell sick and even had headaches and even felt like vomitting. Okay vomitting was only for bioscience. NOthing was going into my brains at all. It was really a horrible feeling.

Okay enough of disgusting stuff. Well today receive an e-mail from jeremy zhan bout his 21st birthday party. Dunno wanna go anot coz i saw the e-mail list and is like i dunno anyone there and i dun really like this kind of party stuff. Mayb i do like such parties but its the ppl haha.... haiz.... his bday coming which also means my bdae is coming too haha. so fast but this time can only really celebrate if i pass my exam without having to retake. haiz I DUN WANNA FAIL AND RETAKE!!!! ALL I WANT IS A C+ AND ABOVE ONLY!!!!!

Now i'm going to live in fear everyday till results are out and i better start reading up too just in case. retest can be just the following day after results are out. The sch also so stupid never let ppl haf the chance to study than wat's the point.......... ARG!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP!!!!! pls pray hard for me that i will pass and get C+ and above haha. me is gready one!!!

So next week attachment starts again oh boy and here comes all the careplans that needs to be done, legs that need to be massage everyday, the lack of slp, the no time for myself to have more slp haha and even more tiring legs during tennis.

Oh BOy!!! so many complaints haha but this time i will try to take my lecturer advice to work smart and dun let the nurses there to take advantage of us student nurses. Wish me Luck!!!

Friday, February 10, 2006

New blogskin

New BlogSkin


Haha LIke my this skin anot ZQ???? Well I like it. Got MTV to watch haha!!! and its also my fav song. Dunno isit legal anot but its should be bah since the designer of this skin has the copyright thingie. This time round finish editing the skin in 15 mins. haha new record. the previous blog i did it in bout 45 mins. great improvement. I'm getting better in this kind of stuff. ( haha self praise!!!)

Since its 1am already so this marks my last day of attachment. Yeah So happy coz can rest my tired and i do mean very very tired legs. but after exams (2weeks) its back to the ward for attachment again. 3 weeks again haiz somemore its women ward. Haiz no cute guys to see this time round. Tokking bout cute guys. this time attachment very gd coz got a cute guy admitted in the ward i'm working in now. so life in the ward not so boring. Somemore he is in the cubicle that i'm taking care of haha!!! GOt Shuai Ge to see so not so boring. This time round there are a few youngsters so life during attachment is must livier. And i dun mean those little boys as in Sec sch hor but at least the same age as moi or slightly older haha. Everyday see old ppl very sianz one. LAter i also feel old. HAHAHA!!!! Life is so tiring in ward so need something to live things up haha!!!!!

Next attachment in Women ward guess will only see shuai ge if there are doctor interns which is like very impossible haha!!! guess it will be boring.....

Nothing much to update lah coz in the want to slp mode liao. legs super tired.Oh and this wednesday i met Jeremy Zhan. Its really a long time since i saw him. face change a fair bit but his eyes still look the same and character still bout the same haha. Attachments are really letting me to meet ppl that i never see for a long long time liao. First it was Afiq than norliana and sarifah and now jeremy.But when will i meet my pri sch pals. Dunno if we see each other will we still recognize each other anot haha!!! i guess not bah. i sure wun recognize them but i easy to recongize bah coz no change in the way i look at all. only look more mature bah haha!! OLD>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

k box

Chu San k box outing


Today is the third day of CNY so bengi and i went to hitler's house to bai nian. Long time never go her place liao. Her sister to tall and big already. Kids all grow up so fast. This means i'm getting older too :( but......... i still dun look like my age so its a bonus haha..........



So anyway three of us went to k box. Too bad this time ZQ cannot come along. Anyway today K lunch was cheaper than K nite though both are priced $9+++. weird. K lunch was more worth it lah coz got lunch mah WAHAHA!!!!!!


picture time.....


Engross singing.....



Next Song pls.......



When will it be MINE turn???



Finally........ Sheng Qing de
zai chang ge.



FOOD.........




Bengi and I had the same set.
This one is almost eaten
already than take one.




So after K, we went to take neoprint. HAHA ZQ not around we never take together. She miss her chance again. ZQ......NEXT TIME then we all take togther okie. Its been long since i last took neoprint wif bengi they all.. Thought the effects not as gd as the last time i took we my attachment frens but i still i like it haha........ P.S next time we choose a better machine wif more effects and more choices.






























Surprise!!!!!!! video of bengi singing haha. Hope u dun mind me putting it up..... if it bothers you than sms me i will take it down ASAP. Here's the link...



Sunday, January 29, 2006

cny

Chinese New Year

Now is bout 120am and its Chinese New Yr. Juz now went out to BP wif Bengi and ZQ to tok tok. Wanted to go starbucks but it was close. Lucky Mac was open. So in the end we sat for bout 3hrs there tokking and crapping.

Yst went to Chinatown after work. Lucky it was not so crowded. Saw many ppl Q-ing for Bak Gua as usual. Ppl buying those goodies and those mix and match sweets. HEHE i bought some too. spent bout 3 bucks on it. I somemore already pick the stall seeling the cheapest one.




The crowd.... Many ppl were
taking pictures and so was I.




Wanted to take more but i
was kinda tired from work
so went home first. Next yr
still got chance



Wish Everyone A happy Lunar New Year and everything will go smoothly!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, January 28, 2006

update....

UPDATES.......


One week finally pass. Been having attachment and boy was it tiring. Everyday go home slp only. there is no way i can study for exams liao. Look like i have to crash course during the 4 days study break. Why 4 days??? coz friday i have a paper. the sch really so stingy. cannot gif us one whole week or two to study. Attachment very tiring leh somemore not enough time to study. like that how to pass. Must feedback during the evaluation. HAHA.

Got so many stories to tell but cannot say anything coz haf to protect the patients. But wif my big mouth, i will sooner or later will start tokking bout it. But must remb to say Patient X like this and like that............. haha!!!

Thursday and Friday went to health promotion board to do sch health service so it was abit relax and sit most of the time haha. my poor legs. the veins are all coming out again. Anyway i went to Jurong Pri Sch. din go to sec sch coz of chinese new yr. Half day in sch. In the end, we juz sat in the HPB lecture hall for half a day and went to their clinic for bout 1 and a half hour. so shiok!!!


Here are the pictures i took at Jurong Pri Sch















Their building look like HDB flats
Dun you agree. Nice surroundings
though!!!

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Fren house

Visit to Fren House...

Today went to Sui chan's house ( the aunty from my klass) together wif the gals from china. Qiao Qiao, Su Duan, Guo Ai, Chen Juan and Ya fang. Estelle was suppose to be there too but she last minute got something so not there. Anyway let the pictures do the tokking.





Singing K

Qiao Qiao the one holding the
mike was so cute when she
was singing.


Taking a break from singing


Ya Fang and Chen Juan
enjoying themselves


The gals took the chance to
use the internet to chat with
their frens and some guy
from china haha


This is the guy from china.
Pic not clear somemore wif
lines dunno why like that



Grp chatting with the guy.
Mind you were having a
teleconference tok.
Guo Ai even said that
the guy is a lucky coz got
4 of them tokking to him.
haha!!


Another picture of him.
( he not bad looking leh when
i saw his pic on the web cam)
He look better when he was
smiling . ok.... too much crap
on a stranger all the way
from china.


grp pic

Saturday, January 21, 2006

pics in my hp

Pictures in my hp



studying for bio ICA last month.
use so many bks to juz study one
module 3 chapters.



little children listening to teacher
telling stories haha!!! tis is during
clinical lab session. my grp were
the outcast coz we were busy
preparing for ICA. Took tis pic when
we were done.



3 of my grp members out of 7 of us.
best sub- grp i ever had!!!!

these were taken during tennis today


this was taken while waiting
for my turn. like this pic best
coz it looks natural with the
guys walking pass. din had the
intention to include them in the
pic.


All the miss balls

Action taking place.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

New blogskin

HAHA i love this blog skin coz got he jun xiang. Took some time to do it coz not very familiar with the codes so haf to take some time too see where to put wat. blogskin.com not bad. next time i can see wat nice ones they haf than can change new one. Sonce now cannot upload songs to bloggie so guess new entertainment is to find new skins and change it often haha.

Shermeen its easy to do leh so many you should give it a try. just can to see properly where to put the codes can already but muz remb to save the old codes first before editing it. juz in case in din work out and stuff.

Time to slp now byebye........

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

long day

Wah today in sch did nothing but wait for time to pass by. So many hours of breaks in between one lecture. So sian. In the end i did the same thing which is to slp to pass time. Today really slp very long and deep. So Shiok!!!

Nothing much happen today till it was time to go home. Oh well that bitch did it again by screaming around scolding ppl for no reason just coz Alvin from my klass laugh while eveyln was trying to figure out a questions with the lecturer during tutorial. Its like wat is the problem wif her. she can tok and make all the noise while others are asking a question or giving a presentation how come others cannot. some more that laugh is a soft that i din even hear it. i tink that gal must go see doctor liao. today i make some comment to myself than she heard it and start starring at me. WTF i relly feel like telling her off. mayb i should juz do that. no more controlling my temper when it comes to her. Dun let her tink i dun answer or argue wif her means i scare of her. must teach her a lesson.

Enough of stupid matters. Anyway today accompany my fren estelle to wait for her fren kevin. an Ex colleague of estelle. Anyway both of them are malaysians for info which i dunno why haha. just want to say it. Estelle fren look really familiar. like see him dunno from where haha. just can't place him. or mayb his features look like someone else i see before. Quite freindly and tokkable but me anti social as usual so din tok much haha. Oh ya he not bad looking too haha need to say this but he so fair. he is like a cloud whereas me and estelle are like dark clouds going to rain soon. haha wat a funny way to explain. guess thats bout it for today. nothing much going on.

Attachment coming soon arh................................. there goes my beauty slp for 3 weeks!!!

Thursday, January 12, 2006

help..............

I'm suppose to be memorizing my stuff for ICA later in the morning but too many things wanna say. TOday on my way to sch saw this incident that i dunno whether to cry to laugh at young ppl nowadays.

In MRT train one carriage would haf bout 3 long row of seats and 2 short row seats at each end. Ok i was like sitting way at the end and this incident happened in the centre where the long rows are. There was this blind guy who entered the train. Obviously he was blind so he cannot see if there are any seats anot ( at the moment there wasn't for ur info). So as the train door closes, this old man bout 60-70 yrs bah gave up his seat and help this blind guy to his seat. And All those young ppl just keep staring at them. These youngsters if dun wanna help than at least dun keep on starring at them. Its so rude. NOwadays ppl just dun give up their seats when they see old ppl or parents with babies and ppl who needs the seat more.

Say other ppl i actually also like that haha!!! i only dun give up my seat if i'm like slping on the train, after attachment, or carrying my super heavy bag and laptop and feeling sick.

Actually got alot of things to say but suddenly not in the mood liao. So fan. I suddenly got to 'zhen li' my feelings again. Suddenly facing so many diff kind of problems than i feel so sianz already with life.


HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, January 06, 2006

mind in confusion

Damn!!! my mind is now in a 'wat to do' state. Went to see my lecture mentor bout the physiotherapy course. Okay so its die also need A level to get in. I'm now having a mix feelings. At one point i wana finish my nursing course since i've already started it at the other point i dunno where should i continue after getting my diploma. Should i take the A level as a private student anot. THis means i have to study for both "A" and dip. I question myself if can i really handle both anot coz i dun wanna be disappointed again. I've already wasted 2 yrs of my life and i dun wanna waste it anymore.

HOnestly i dunn if i can cope. My nursing now average scores are Bs only than if i take the 'A' would my grades drop that i in the end fail both. Really duno wat to do. Looking at another point, if i forget all bout the physio thingie and concentrate on my nursing, where can i go after that. JUst read on SIM webbie that their part time degree course is 2 yrs and somemore is need to haf at least bout 1-2 yrs experience than take you in. So i guess it leaves with me going to NUS for the degree course is more worth it. but i haben read the crititra such yet so dunno if they take in freash grad in diploma.

Thought of being a paramedic but after u join the civil denfence, u will haf to go through a 2.5yrs course thought u get paid while doing it i think. Though this job is really challenging but i wonder if i can really cope with it anot. But beside being a paramedic i dun really know wat else i can do coz i not really interested in working in a ward. Its not as appealing as being a paramedic. Wat other jobs can i hold that is associated with nursing??? Teaching?? not really my cup of tea. Or should i change course when i enter uni??? There is a few courses that accepts all diplomas but they are mostly the studey of languages or behaviour science. And that means it links back to being in the teaching profession.

Another way of me being able to study physio is going overseas coz they haf a foundation course which one can do before starting the degree course but all these need money and now i cannot afford such thing though its said by my fren that you can study and work part time as a nurse. Overseas pays alot but i still cannot afford the sch fees there and accomodations and stuff. This is the time how i wish a million dollars would be bestow on me. I not greedy, a million bucks would do.

I guess i'm feeling this way coz my little hope of being a physiotherapist has been broken and i dunno wat to do already. The main idea of me joining nursing is so that there is a stepping stone for me to make a head start but guess it does not work that way coz its reality we are tokking esp in singapore. Paper qualification is still very important. Only with gd grades can it get you to where you wanna be.

Thinking back, ppl in m klass all joined nursing coz they wanna be a nurse. They haf a goal that they want but my goal is different from them rite from the start. I guess this is where i lose out to them. Yeah i may get better grades than some of them but at least they are happy with wat they are doing but as for me everything is i'm okay doing it only. The passion is not there.

During the talk, my lecturer also told me that ppl's piorities do changes as one gets older. After that he started to tok funny. Saying that when i reach 24, 25 i would wanna get marry. haf a family and stuff and i was like OMG!!! I wanted to rebuke him saying as if anyone wants me HAHA!!! he was hurting my sore point man!!!

Should i just give up on being a physio and continue being a nurse or should i take the risk by taking the 'A' level?????

Monday, January 02, 2006

First post of the yr ( very long)

Juz updated to another new song for the new yr haha!! I should be changing quite often if free coz recently got a few songs i like mainly coz it reflects to how i'm feeling or other that the song is really gd in terms of singing,tune and lyrics.

Well i would say that Shan Hu Hai is the best song in 2005 in my opinion. I really love this song. lyrics is also very different from others that we haf seen in these few yrs. Well mayb there are better songs but i did not haf the chance to come across it so i guess Shan Hu Hai is the best one in 2005. Well there are also many other songs i like but it cannot be place in 1st place haha.

Well the background song you guys are listening to now is from this hk serial titled ' the last breakthrough'. If you haf scv than you should know wat show i'm tokking about. This show is about a grp of healthcare workers doing volunteer work in africa mainly in the state kenya. The setting that they broadcast really shows that Kenya is a beautiful place in terms of nature. One day if i got the money i would also like to visit Kenya. Anyway tis show is rather inspiring.

After studying nursing i realize i'm even more in shows that is bout healthcare. So funny haha!!
Well sch is starting soon haiz..... and i also juz finish watching the lastest vcd i bought. this one was recommanded in the newspaper and it was good. Thought not as captivating as Loveholic but its good enough for me to not touch the forward button if u know wat i mean.

After watching all these korean shows i just dun understand something. How come after students graduate from sch already than the student and teacher cannot be in a relationship leh. Why do ppl oppose to such thing. Yeah they be student and teacher relation in the past but that is all in the pass already. Now everyone is a grown up and love is a free thingie. Its not as if they had a relationship during the sch days or wat. Is it really wrong?? I dun know. I guess there must be such things thats why they film such things bah. Or mayb the writer is just fascinating ( dunno if spell correctly) I guess thats why there is this chinese phase bout a teacher is like your parents or is it once a teacher always a teacher. Something like that lah.

Suddenly i just feel like telling this guy that i like him but so many things are pulling me back. The first main reason is juz look at me. No 'tiao jian' at all later become laughing stock haha..... 2nd leh wat if cannot even be frens how leh. see so many ppl around me after expressing their feelings than all cannot be frens liao coz so awkward........ 3rd leh he already got someone he like liao. mayb they already ina relationship though he never say anything bout it.

I guess this is the part where i lose to shermeen and bengi bah. At least they dare to express their feelings to the person they like. Really salute to them!!!! Feeling real sad now somemore now listening to Shan Hu Hai and this lyrics just sung pass ' ai qin mian qiang bu lai'.

Just now tokking to him than he ask wat is my new yr resolution. Dun know wat to tell him haha.... so was thinking bout it than i think i wanna go improve my tennis skills and be in sch team by next yr. That means must ask coach to teach more often liao at low rates. wonder if coach still haf those wednesday klass anot or else can go. but in 3 weeks time i got attachment so haf to see bout it bah. At least haf a gd year before i leave though i'm making plans to do another course which means 3 more yrs in nyp. See how it goes bah coz i might haf to do the A level as a private student while doing my nursing course. Dunno if can cope anot since i already haf so many ICAs and studying to do. Tuesday will go see mentor to discuss wif him.

Wah really writing alot tonite . just haf to blah out everything. HAHA!!!!!!!

Hope you guys haf a great year ahead and everything will be smooth sailing..........

Saturday, December 31, 2005

Last day of 2005!!!

OKay i juz read back wat i wrote in my previous entry and i was like 'OMG wat the hack was i blahhing about?????' All those whinning and stuff phew!!!!

Ok wat did i do this whole 1 year. In Jan, Feb and March, i was busy writing letters (which applies to apeal letters too) to apply to study phsiotherapy. At the same time i opt to go study nursing too thinking that if i cannot get into physio than at least i haf a back up. Well studying nursing can also be my stepping stone into studying phsio. Beside settling my education stuff i also went to take driving lessons. In March alone i completed bout 4/5 of whole course coz i almost everyday also go for lessons. HOwever only in Nov did i get my driving license after failing for 2 times. finally pass in the 3rd attempt.

April was the beginning of the nursing course which meant my apeal failed. sad sia!!! Anyway during orientation there was tis gal who walk towards me and asked if where we were waiting is the venue for the orientation. Well its fated coz later i got to know her in my 1st attachment. drum roll..................... ying ying is the gal i was tokking about. haha

So after that nothing much happen in the later part of the year except for cat fights in my klass, ppl trying to test my limit of tolerance etc. So drama sia!!!!!!!!!! Beside that i sign up for CSC and tennis so is like very sat go for tenis thats why so dark and tan liao haha!!! and also went for volunteer work like going to old folks home and help out in the BDD ( blood donation drive). Thought not much but its a start to wat i wanna do.

Well wat i can say the best part of tis year was attachment. Wirking in the hospital is so diff from wat we read from books, learn from books, watch from tv shows. From the attachment i learned more bout myself being able to do all those stuff that i thought i could not do. I even face difficulties cause by unreasonable patient. I was really upset with wat he did, badmouthing me infront of everybody just because he was in a bad mood when i go take his readings. Really suppress alot of feelings at that time till my lecturer came to tok to me.

Really glad my lecturer and the ward sister whom my lecturer tok to regaring the incident din blame me and understand the situation. I was told not to take it too harshly coz this kind of things do happen and just haf to take it easy. Te only gd thing that came out from this incident was that next time i wun be so piss off by such things already coz got experience liao hahaha!!!
MOst importantly is i do my job well and rite than there is no chance for other to blame me or try to harm me coz i din everything my rules and regulations and am answerable to myself.

Last thing bout the attachment was of course the new frens i made. Actually its nice making new frens than when all free, all can go out and just chill out haha!!!

This year also nothing happening. The diff this yr from other yrs is that i went to sing K with frens. this is something i never do in previous yrs. All this must thank Lin Jun Jie. you know why????????? coz his album gave free voucher to sing at K so dun waste haha. thats when i started going to K box. Wahaha wat a lame reason !!!!!!!! Actually i like to sing but i can only sing quite ok when alone. even i know the song and tune but if got toher ppl i tend to just sing out of tune somehow. haha some kind of weird phobia.

The last thing that happen to moi in tis yr would be me liking this guy bah. HAHA!!!!!!!! Sound so werid. First time really liking someone. BAd part is that he has someone he like already and of course my Zi Bei Gan plays a part too haha!!! I can face everything bravely and stuff but when it comes to this kind of thingie, my Zi Bei Gan super powerful. No confidence like shit!!!! HAHA!!!!!!!! Gan Qing Ze Zhong Shi Hai Zhen Fan Leh!!!!

Guess this last day of 2005 would be spending it like any other day liao coz outside would be too crowded for me to go watch the fireworks. I really wanna go watch fireworks. So big liao but never once seen fireworks live only on tv. haiz........ Even if wanna go despite the crowds, no one also want to go with moi.

Siging off by lonely gal with a lonely heart with a tear to say good bye to 2005..........


P.S i'm really getting very crappy and emotional and ..................... i also dunno

Friday, December 30, 2005

Late in the nite.........

Wah just finish my english essay. Guess wat. I found out the content that i've wrote is out of point so i had to rewrite it. WTH..... i somemore was almost done with it. ARGGGGG!!!!! Qi Si Wo LE!!!!!!!!!! but i finsh it already finally !!!!!!!! juz found out that i now haf developed a habit of sleeping at 7pm sharp. just before dinner haha. these few days my mum always haf to wake me up for dinner. the best part is that i alwasy fall asleep in this senario....... my laptop on with music playing away and light on. I would always be sleeping on my little pillow instead of my normal pillow.

Waa juz surfing around and found this info in the forum. Dear frens born in 1985 like moi pls take note....


Oxz in 2006 the only star that is protecting ox this yr is the moon.. moon favoured woman..thus this yr ox ladies would hv better luck than the man... ox ppl have to beware of law suite, xiao ren career failure... they r about 7 bad stars affecting ox ppl.. they also fan bian chng tai shui..haiz..causing luck to fall till rock bottom.. so remember to pai tai shui ya..n remember to take vegeterian on the 15th of the lunar month.

1985> they might b a lot of changes happening this yr... its better to stay calm n avoid such changes... its beeter not to hv any form of investment be is financially or emotionally..cause the result would not b good.

Argggggg cannot invest financially or emotionally so sad sia!!!! must be as cold and solid as ice liao coz cannot invest emotionally or else will back fired haha!!! well actually it does not matter to me at all coz whether isit a gd or bad year, it does not make a diff at all. LIfe has been so dull and erm.......... cannot find the word to describe wat i wana say now so watever. haha!!!

Actually wanna say my life as always been the same all these years. Every year is like so routine. watever i do is alwasy the same and with the same people. Festive season spent it with the same people or by myself. Birthday i also only spent with family. Go out leh i most of the time go out alone. Watch move always alone and harry potter is with my mum for all episodes okay. Its been like that since i think the say i was in pri sch bah. NOt that i wanna complain though at least i still haf my family but sometimes i need a change too but got no one to call out coz all not free or ppl i wanna call out i dun dare to ask them out for the fear of rejections haiz. Those ppl that are free i dun like to hang out with them coz to me they are just so faked and pathentic ( well in my opinion).

Guess my life as been really pathentic and lifeless!!!! Now i guess all i can do is to wait for a miracle to happen on me!!!! WAHAHA!!!!!!! if my life can be as little interesting as this character in this show 'my name is kim sam soon' that would be nice ( excluding the part that she sign some contract to be the guy 'gf' for money to prevent her house from being taken away by debtors her dead dad owe) though are are a few up and downs haha well life ain't smooth sailing. oh this show arh i buy the vcd liao than that stupid SCV advertise that they are goin to show it next year!!!!!!! ARHHHHHHH QI SI WO LE!!!!!! waste my money. This tell me not to buy shows that has high rating coz SCV will show it one. All i have to do is wait!!!!!!!!!!

Guess juz now wrote too much in my essay so now down here blahing away. cannot slp so is like this hahaha!!!!!! i guess blogging is a gd way for me to just write off my feeling away to make moi feel better!!!!!!!!! BTW will be changing background music again so remb to come back to listen to it. haha!!!!!!!!!