Exams are over!!!

Well exams are finally over. Beein slping only in the mornings coz can only study and absorb well in the nite. Well just hope can pull through this sem coz ever since that F i got, somehow got ying yin already. I only need to pull through to year 3 regardless how many Ds i have to get.

Well today as usual went to take the exam with only bout 30 mins of slp. Was totally dead today felt so breathless that i kept on breathing so hard and loud esp in the exam hall that i had to control my breathing. Anyway coz was too tired and felt as if my soul had left me so din go for klass gathering. i was really like a walking zombie!!! In the MRT i felt like a mad woman sitting in the train staring in spaces and just playing with my earphones. Anyway at least is all over liao.

After the mental torture now is the physical torture. Attachment next week onwards. no life for the next 3 weeks. Wanted to go out tomolo but well there was a change of plans with ppl. Guess i will just stay home to rot and watch all my vcds i borrow from my aunt during the new year. Its kinda like a tradition for me to borrow vcds from my aunt haha!!!

Mayb i should just get out of the house on saturday. hehe!!! need to just walk around and walk around!!! and mayb should go settle some debt thingie too. haiz... really hate asking ppl to return me money!!! FAN SI LE!!!!

Anyway CNY this year was like normal but sadly coz it was also exam period so was like studying at the same tome too and the worst thing is eat too much liao. At my aunt's place i was like eating and eating and eating esp the bak kwa hehe but i also ate alot of honeydew yum yum!!! and wat else did i eat.......... hm..................... love letters, one mango jelly and 2 bottle of soft drinks. At home while studying ate a few piece of love letters the choc flavour kind, those little sponge cake thingie and ate oranges too. well so much of eating!! well lucky my nursing uniform can still fit in haha!!! Well hope i get to kill myself physically during attachment than can lose some weight coz really dun like to go running. haha

Just finish watching HEROES but stil very much awake. Guess the slping disorder is getting into me liao. 3am soon but still very much alive!!! lalalala lalalallalala LALA land pls come and get me !!!!!!!!!!!!!

future ahead

Well its now 4.47am as i'm typing this. Well coz haf been studying for exams so now slping hours are rather messed up. Well things at home are finalized and can only say its super bad luck lor and i hope that stupid idiot person will die in a horrible way. Study so must also no use coz no compassion at all and never see things with a coloured free mind and eyes stupid ass. hope he die like rite now. eat or drink wat will also choke and die and no one around to save him but see him die in suffering.

Well haf to adjust a liitle but i guess should be no problem for me. Sometimes i wonder am i unfeeling or wat coz actually dun really feel anything or mayb coz i am prepared for the outcome already or mayb coz it exam week so i kinda void myself from all feeling thus to less disturb my state of mind. HAIZ!!! mayb just becoming unfeeling.

Well on thursday sat for my 2nd last paper and again went to sit for paper without slping erm... well i did slp for an hour hehe!! anyway after that came back to slp and was like lazing around the house after that coz really need a break off my book for a while. I was like so crazy with my book for 3-4 days to prepare the 2 papers. Well of course got take a break to watch SHI SHEN by the 5566 zax wang. the show so so only lah but some part nice to watch.

HAHA crumble to temptation on thursday nite and started to watch HUA YANG SHAO NIAN SHAO NU. haha BAD me!!!! so tempting cannot stop watching at all. and just now somemore just finish watching the 13th episode. Now going to wait again for another few weeks before watching it again or mayb wait for it to finish than watch or just watch it from channel u on the 14th ep. haha !!!!!!!!! haiz these 2 years arh taiwan has been producing shows that are super nice to watch. like devil by my side, it started with a kiss, wei xiao pasta and now hana kimi. really can die watching all these gd shows haha!!!!!!

Well one more paper to go liao hope i am able to focus and study for it coz this paper is super impt to me to pass it well coz my that 35% was a F so need to make it real gd to get back my C grade. Actaully been thinking wat i wanna go with my future. After come out isit wanna con't nursing or change to another course. Went to MDIS site and saw that my nursing dip can take up their biomedical degree but the modules in there are like bio bio and more bio somehting that i dun really like. haiz...... but also thought of taking up psychology but dunno next time can do wat coz i'm rather gd in this module that i'm taking rite now. i understand the concept easily. haiz..... so confusing or should i just stick to my original plan leh... ... if got money than most probaly i would have pursue my dreams liao but sadly no money so equals to no tok liao!!!!!!!! so in a dilemma ( wrong spelling i think who cares!!!!! ) haiz going to yr 3 than now start to sway away from my intended choice of route in life. well actually i just wana find a job that i like to do and pay well thats all!! FAN SI LE!!!!!!!!!!

2007

Oh well happy new year ppl!!! well hope its a gd year for you guys and everyone out there coz it wun be for me unless you got a few hundred thousand bucks to spare me than it might be a gd year than!!! oh well haha


oh well this year or rather last year its not really a gd year as compared to the previous. too many things happening and dun really like wat is going on. most memorable thing that went on was attachment and attachment and more attachment. frenship becoming stronger, breaking out and now i also not sure how its going but oh well juz taking it slow for now. I mean ppl do change. Well at least for me i think. trying to be a neutral person in klass dun wanna hate anyone or dislike anyone anymore coz its tiring and not worth it haha well it that is a gd change as in a growing mind or watever haha!!! Well nothing much going on beside bad stuff going on and stuff again!! oh well i juz hope this year i can pass and go to year 3 coz i'm really not in any mood to study. there is this fear in me of failing which is like no gd at all. I hate it when this feeling juz comes. it always pop by as and when it likes!!!

Well looking forward to the chalet thingie though. its like first time having a chalet with frens and juz frens only haha hope it does not rain and things goes smoothly although i haf to bring my books there to study (sad rite haha) due to tests coming up the following week!!

Well hope its a gd year for you all guys out there !!!!!!!

Christmas

Been today up my online shop till just now wanna sign in i actually forgot my user id haha!!! Well sad that no one interested in buying anything from me haiz.......... need to go some up with much much and much better design though i think one or two of them are nice coz i would also wear it out myself. so sad!!!!!!

Anyway today had present exchange and got zq present and she got my. WHY so qiao leh???? anyway hope she like my present too though its a photo frame only but its not those ordinary photo frame. Its haf to build/fix it urself to any design u like. So this is testing ur creativity skills haha!! but anyway when i buy this present my mind was thinking that it is good for destressing coz when stress can take it all out and rebuild it and its something new again and its good for taking ur mind off for a while and u get the feeling that u haf something new again. Well mayb i need to go buy one for myself too haha!!! Well hope she likes it. well if not she can also recycle the gift to her frens wahaha or like bengi keep the present i gif him long time ago. and its still not even unwrap yet!! haha apparently it was not a gd gift haha!!!!!! no use for him but to me its of use coz i always sticking or writing notes everywhere so would need a place to stick or else its all over the place. haha!!! thats why i got a little blackboard in my room to write remindeds.

Well nothing much happening liao lah but only that no mood to study at all. i'm so dead when sch reopen with all the tests and stuff. next week must rush rush to catch up lost time.

Hope next week will have good weather coz i wanna go to kusu island so rain pls dun come back for the time being please.

One down and a alot more to go

Juz finish my elective work bout 2 hours ago. Finally all done or else can die. Really losing my temper juz doing it. Keep on hanging due to the tables and more tables. Word really hang so many times till i lose my temper. Yesterday was worst. I practically juz hit my laptop repeatedly. Well juz wat made me feel angry was that how one of my grp member for elective can be so selfish. Already all the easy one let her do liao than still want to chunk so much work to me. My side already overloaded. Need to design the logo and do up all those forms and still wanna gif me do those easy one also. Bloody hell lah she need to study so do i lor really crap man!!! Hate this kind of people. Really hate those these kind of people who are so borthered by getting good grades than to have more time to study you shove one whole lot of work to other people to do. Number 1 on my hate list. You can be of lousy character or wat i also wun hate you that much but anyone no matter how nice or wat do this kind of things to me you are so gone!!!!

Anyway sorry to everyone who was tokking to me juz now coz doing elective so was already in a bad mood liao. and making it worst was to try to control it down. Really boiling inside!!

To bengi and zq was really in a bad mood and i also really din want to go foodcourt eat esp not for dinner. lunch ok but if dinner i might as well stay home to eat. and at that time i was like thinking we kinda like celebrating christmas lor than its like why go foodcourt leh. every tom dick or harry day already going foodcourt liao!!! IN sch already canteen,foodcourt and fastfood liao than go out also the same thing i really juz hate it lah. well course that was like me thinking when i was in a bad mood not thinking rationally well honestly abit of me juz din want to go foodcourt or fastfood resturant for dinner. Lunch totally fine but dinner was a big no no. Well better end this now or else unkind words are going to come out from my mouth liao haha!!!!! Still in the bad mood with the elctive stuff argggggggg!!!!!!!!

Anyway this 2 weeks is going to be a busy busy holiday. got bio to prepare my idividual presentation and other presentation to prepare. bout 4 of it bah!!! and most impt my online store to set up. Juz need to enhance the photos. hehe during the time my brother go camp going to use his computer. Need to find someone with a VISA card to help me reg in yahoo auction just for identification issues. SO ma Fan!!!! Well mayb if i finish studying i might juz go to this wat kusu island that i saw on newspaper today on my last week of holiday.Or mayb i should go to the treetop trail again haha!!!!! Really need a breather from wat had juz happened last week at home. Kinda over but its only the starting of the rough road my family and i will be having.If there is really such thing as god i really do hope that my prayers will be answered.

Tokking bout GOD, friday went to expo to watch the 'magic of love' by faith baptist community church. Its some kind of magic show lah. Tix from my brother. Well ok it was only on saturday that i know that the tix was not free haha!!!!!!! my brother had to pay for them!! No wonder he wanted to get people to go coz he bought 5 tix for the whole family but no one wanted to go and my other brother already got fren bringing him to go on saturday haha!!!!! Well at least the tix wasn't wasted. coz i went haha!!!!! it was good i must say all those tricks and singing but i really hate the opening singing by that pastor daughter with all the american accent in it yikes!!! What's with people and their fake accent man!!!!!! just dun get them!!!!

WHY???????????

The atmosphere at home is really bad since yesterday. THis year is really a bad year for my family. one after another. One closing soon and got another problem How can do this to my family?? Nobody own you anything why must do this to us?? Why never even use that brain of urs to think?? Feel so drained out by what is all going on. Really dun feel like staying or going home anymore. Dun like the feeling of being at home. For me to say this is really bad coz i always like staying at home.

Today reach home really can feel how my parents are feeling and how hard it is for them esp day trying to make things seem ok by still joking around with my bros and me but i can still feel it how hard isit for them. Why must all these kind of things happen to my family. My bro wrote in his blog its God testing and moulding and etc but even it is that time why must allow my parents to go thru it. if really want to test and mould i rather all the bad things happen to me than to my parents. they already old liao. Few months back when i look at my mum i suddenly feel that she really aged alot.

When things really happen i really hope i can take it and face it as i am trying to tell myself. All these pride, face thing is all nothing coz we all haf a clear conscience. that is wat is impt. why even bother how other ppl think coz in the beginning they dunno wat is going on and how we are implicated to it for no reason.

I guess its really going to get tougher and tougher esp in Jan. I used to have everything i want in the past. Even now no more already but i dun need those anymore but my family to be ok. the rest not impt anymore.

Feeling emotionally drained already. So much in my mind that i cannot even slp well and with so much ICAs to prepare, test and soon exam that has no study break at all. What else bad is going to befall????????? I really wonder. the future now seem so beak???

chalet information notice

Hey who ever going to the chalet pls click on the 'ETC' link to view the info. If u wanna add anything or ask anything than jus msn me or sms or tag watever you like lah haha!!! so ppl who are going are ZQ, Joson, Bengi, Shermeen and moi!!! Will update if got anything new lah!!

Pls kindly at least roughly spend a few minutes during ur spare time to think wat ur wanna do and stuff lah so can plan in dec. I will also need to know wat ur haf at home to spare eg BBQ equipments etc so that we dun haf to spent money to buy those stuff or u willing to contribute from ur pockets i also dun mind haha!!! so anything juz leave ur words around for me to see kk!!!

To zq : that week if i can find time than will also bake those cupcakes to bring over for you to try but get stomachache not my problem liao haha!!!


thats bout it for the chalet stuff.

Recently after watching wei xiao pasta i like zhang dong liao even more haha!!! Even though his acting in there not so gd but who cares haha!! even when he act cool also so shuai!!! the songs in there also super duper nice!! going gaga liao haha!! Even K one also. Din noe that JR can sing so well. When hear him sing it was captivating haha for me only!!!!!!! Anyway who got their poster can gif me anot or noe where to buy also can coz i also wanna change the poster of wilber and shanwei that has been hanging on my wall since like 4 yrs ago haha!!

this week also nothing much lor beside my BCLS test. Well pass the practical already and sat for the theory test too. have to wait for the results of theory to see if i can get my BCSL cert anot. The questions were like so tricky and some questions were not even in the book so i was like guessing away. Hope can get more than 80 percent correct or else cannot get licence.

Yest sms sher to see if she wanna go for the chalet and she said she was going so was glad she was going esp after wat happen lah. anyway hope things will take a better turn also. well guess in frenship there are also ups and downs not only in relationships between a couple haha!!! at the same time i also find realize something bout myself that watever i say cannot be taken too seriously haha coz say one thing that i dun care liao or watever etc in the end i start to do another thing haha!! i always kou shi xing fei. Well guess it depends to who also haha!!! or wat thing. well hope things will just go more smoothly for me, frens and esp my family.

2 more weeks to go before i haf to slog for the preparation of my upcoming grp and individual presentation so gonna relax and enjoy life first.

BCLS

i pass my BCLS practical coz i wore my lucky shirt haha and tok my way through the lecturer!!!

Thats all tata too tired to crap!!!!

Good Songs

Long time no update haha coz lazy lah and no mood to write anything. Oh well!!!!! anyway nothing much happen also just been keeping myself busy to keep my mind off. erm.. Last friday went out with the usual ppl and imelda to haf dinner but b4 that went to walk around at jurong entertainment center with bengi while waiting for ZQ!!!!!!!!! This gal arh made us wait so long and never even call that she will be late haiz.... anyway while waiting for bengi we both went library to chill out for a while coz it was raining and there was no where to walk too haha!!! in the reading coner we both were like the only one tokking and tokking and tokking and the old ppl around us were all so quite reading their newspaper haha!!! Than went to mac drink and chat a super little bit of thing wat was happening to me lah din say anything much to bengi also coz i'm juz dun like to tell other ppl wat is going on in my family even to close frens. Well bengi say he can guess wat itis but i dun think so haha esp is he is thinking isit bout the word that starts with B and blah blah. Haha bengi if so than its WRONG!!!!!! haha!!!!! that one happen 2 yrs after we grad from sec sch but to me its no big deal at all!!

Anyway we both were so bored that we went to see ppl skate haha but this one not classic yet. Knowing ZQ should be arriving soon we both went to popular to walk around and even take the O lvl assessment books and try to do it haha but sadly we kinda forget how to do the questions haha well bengi still remb most of it but i only can ans the super simple one haha!!!! I guess this is how bored we were haha!!!

Well recently i'm kinda accidcted to choclate oreo from sweet talk. So dead haha!!! feel like eating oreo also!!! Ohya recently news songs all have 罗密欧＆茱丽叶 in their song. However i love those songs. Ok its K one album i'm so addicted to and even the song 梁山伯与茱丽叶 by
卓文萱 so damn nice lor. hope K box haf their songs than next time can go sing their songs. i noe the chorus liao haha!!!! can hear their songs over and over again. Oh shit i'm addicted to songs again which is like very bad coz if i'm addicted my earphones will be on like forever sometimes even lectures if its boring hahah!!! My addiction!!!

Today went to see doc for that something that is sticking out from my skin which looks as if its my bone haha thought it was a new bone growing haha how stupid well coz it does feel like a bone haha!!! me hor when it comes to myself being sick or something wrong i can never make correct diagnoses bout myself or even take care of myself haha but only to other ppl!! weird!!!! ok anyway it was only ganglion csyt so will be going to hospital to cut it off!! Wat a bad timming coz got BCLS pract and theory next week so will be fixing another date to get rid of it!!! this yr no gd yr at all coz got so many problem with my system. first back pain than now this!!! dunno spent how much money liao to see doc all the time so wasteful!!! hope next yr i wun get so many other kind of sickness!!!


Ok so long never write anything than one shot write a long long one haha!!!

All the shit going on

Today is the day of tears flowing and flowing for me even as i type this now. Really very very upset when i heard the news. i try not to let my tears flow but i still canot control it. Wanted to be strong and still i can't. Life is so bloody unfair to gd people. Why is it only good things happen to bad ppl and gd ppl have to endure all the shit. Really a shitty day. I hope that person go and die and get knowck down by everything on earth and space and everything and everything.

I'm really not a emotionally strong person at all. Mum ask me not to cope everything but deep down i juz can't really tell her how i feel coz i dun want her to worry at all. This shit has been going on and on for 4-5 years already. Being trying to be strong and stuff but i at times when think bout it i really cannot make it at all. Need to tok to someone but i can't coz i dun want pity or even ppl looking down or looking with those kind of stares. Really very frustrating and upset.

Now can only wish time pass fast so it will be a new start, a fresh start. A new beginning, A new chapter in life.

I really really hope that all these shit did not happen at all. I really cannot handle it at all. I might just go thru a emotional breakdown soon. I really want to cry my heart out now.......

xin wang hong kong cafe and vivocity

Today went out with Zq and Bengi to marina square there to this Xing Wang Hong Kong Cafe. Read bout it in the forum so wanna go try. Tried the pork chop cheese baked spg. Not too bad. and fainlly get to eat the mango snow. NIce NIce!!! hehe me mango lover. Shared it with zq and bengi too coz its too big for one person to finish. Even just go there to eat just this mango snow thingie must also at least haf two person.MUst thank zq and bengi for eating it with me esp bengi coz he dun really eat mango one haha thank you!!! First time i also try the yuan yang. Took a sip from bengi and not too bad but the taste is more to the coffee aroma and taste. But i like the milk tea i ordered. ALso nice. NOt too sweet and the tea aroma taste is just nice for me taste. Next time can go there to try the other stuff. Anyway after went to walk walk and bought some stuff and off we went to Vivocity. quite crowded and big. We nearly could not find our way out haha



Below are the pics of the stuff i baked the other day. Chocolate pie and nutella swirl cupcake. results not too bad. Can eat and the outcome turn out well. But my family esp my brother prefer the cupcake haha!!! actually me too. taste much nicer.

Chocolate PIe
































Nutella Swirl Cupcake

New Layout!!

New layout from the anime tsubasa . Anyway spent a rather long time in changing the layout coz of the html problem. Not too sure with some of it. Anyway most of it is done up but wait till i figure out some of the other parts, than this layout will be complete!! Anyway this holiday going to start my baking again. Its like so long since i last baked. Well wil take pics if its successful haha!!!

update

OKay finaly going to update after bout like ........ 2 weeks. attachment are over and holiday is here. Finaly can get a good rest. been like a long time since i have a good sleep. Now i'm like physically tired. This two days been doing nothing but lying on bed and watching Slience ( shen qing mi ma) this show quite ok lah but got a few parts very slow. But at least can just rest on the bed with some entertainment. my legs super tired. the last week of attachment are killers. worst than being in a medical ward. there is like a shortage of stuff and i do mean really a shortage. we students there are like ANs lor haha!! our VTP should have more money since we are doing the jobs of ANs. Lucky we no need to do case study or else i think all of us cannot hand it up already. There is really no time to read up the case notes at all. Beside doing the job of an AN we also haf to help the stuff nurse out. Anyway glad its over and its also a gd experience.

Anyway after this attachment i now also thinking of specializing in pediatrics beside emergency and midwifery. Another option for me haha. but wat i want most is still find a nursing job that only haf to work during office hours haha. lazy me coz i really dun like to work in shifts. So far heard that work in OT is office hours but i not interested in that area. BUt see first bah haha. i in the end always choosing those that needs me to work in shifts but i really interested in those specialization. haha but anyway after 2 yrs i might go study radiography so see first bah.

Recently in newspaper they report that nurses starting pay now for dip holders is 2000 instead of 1500. i wonder how true isit. anyway was like tokking to the aunty from my klass bout it she dun believe at all. haha Know why??? coz beofre she left the hospital as an AN her pay was 2000 plus. than when she go back her pay will con't to be 2000 plus. thus if even she grad as a staff nurse her pay is going to be the same as us new grad than not worth it liao haha!!! the funny thing is that she keep saying she dun believe lor haha!!!!! to me its funny lor!!! but i wish its true lor haha 2000 starting pay very gd man. even better than fresh degree grad. haha!!!! somemore if haf degree can earn up to 3000 plus. if become sister and earn 5000 plus. really gd paying job man but next time find job might also be hard coz now so many schs offering nursing and so many ppl are graduating from nursing also. but see first lah.

Anyway just now or rather yest evening was looking at the tour packages to taiwan. WAH need at least 1200 plus. than plus buy things sure at least 1500. haha next yr really wanna go tour to taiwan or even hongkong before my PRCP. need to enjoy before i slog to death to pass my PRCP. than grad liao can go work. Need to support family ASAP!!! dunno wat is going to happen in near future but i will be the first one working coz my brothers haf to go to NS!! so need to quickly grad to help out my family. so is the 2000 plus salary is true than i will be a happy gal haha!!!


This holiday i wanna go a few places but ppl that i wanna go with all haf to work or go sch. haiz look like i'm a lone ranger for this holiday again!!! now is like 6.17am. was awake since 4.50am. this stupid headache is not allowing me to slp at all and with this aching neck, it makes it worst. Anyway i was also not slping well. i think i one shot watch too many episodes of the Slience make me even dream bout it when slping haha!!!!! one more hour before i can take panadol again. but i need it now!!!!!! haiz....

This few days feeling rather sianz!!! feel so lost dunno wat should i do. got such a long holiday but dunno wat i should do. mayb i will just slp in all day. i even put up a sign on my door " DND i need my sleep" haha funni rite haha. anyway no one disturbing me at the moment. coz when i'm aslp i really hate it when my parents just keep walking in haha!!! one note ends my trouble haha.

Ok lah rite a long entry already. Happy ZQ???? nothing much to update anyway. had no life for the last 3 weeks wat to update??? hospital stuff also cannot say much coz of ethics haha but i always say quite alot but i din say the patient name or watever but only the 'story' so its still ok. Well going to back listen to my songs liao. ohya i wanna go try out this hong kong cafe in marina square or at cineleisure. if anyone interested tell me hor!!! signing out............

cousin getting marry

Wah today receive a shocking news!!! MY COUSIN IS GETTING MARRIED!!!! ok next yr june only. but its so fast. he only 3 yrs older than me lor and getting married so early wah!!! haha anyway he noe that gal super long liao and since he on scholarship when grad cfm got job and stuff so rather stable bah haha!!! but thinking back its really to marry young coz career not establish yet haha but on the another hand he and that gal noe each other since pre u days so now get marry also gd lah or else too long together later sure got alot of funny things will happen haha!!! anyway next yr cfm got wedding dinner to go liao haha. hope at that time i dun haf my PRCP or else cannot go liao haha!!!

ok just wanna type this out haha!!!!

sore throat

Sore throat!!

OKay too much singing yesterday. Had 4hrs of singing session with zq and tsl. After 2 hours zq and tsl snag already so the remaining 2 hrs i was singing more than them. that explains the sore throat. Really thankful that they came to sing K with me hehe. Thanx alot!!!! Sry that ur are broke now!!! hehe!! Anyway i'm now on the verge of getting sore throat and the bad news is that my attachment is starting next week haiz... hopes it does not worsen. well basically can still talk but no more singing for the time being haha!!!

Yesterday really had a fun day mainly coz i really needed to get out of the house to haf some fun and a life haha!! 3 weeks attachment and one week holiday at home is not doing me any gd so glad we had an outing yesterday!!! haiz guess my next holiday after this 3 weeks attachment is more by myself coz everyone would haf started sch and i'm going to enjoy my holiday haha!!! 3 full weeks of slp and slacking in bed wahaha!!!!

Haf to start planning wat i wanna do for my upcoming holiday!!! still wanna go to a few places to hang out. looks like haf to find ppl to go with me and most impt thing is to practise my driving. too long never drive liao. if still dun practise than i cannot take the car out without my parents worrying or rather they wun allow me to take it out haha!!!

well some things are going on but cannot say it out. guess its coming to and end soon. I din really like it to drag anyway. Its going to be sad it it really happens but guess life goes on too. They think i dun know bout it but sadly although i've already put myself in a position that i dun wanna know anymore details bout it but looking at them makes me see them through and i know wat is going to happen. Guess my knowledge in this certain thing cannot run away at all.

going to take a nap soon. had a nitemare yest and could not slp well at all. and with the waking up early for tennis is not doing me any gd now coz very slpy now haha. thats all !!! ciao ppl!!!

PS to bengi. see i did update ok. how can say i lazy to update. i only lazy when i on attachment haha!!!

end of attachment

End of my 3 weeks medical posting finally......... totally exhausted due to the lack of gd slp for the past 3 weeks. And today i totally slp and lie on bed all day after i came back from tennis. haha slacker today. even rite now i'm still lying my my bed typing this. Dun even feel like moving at all. guess after suppressing all my tireness for the past 3 weeks i'm finally releasing it all at once. Even today during tennis could not play well and i was always sitting around waiting for my turn. sit here and there and even my frens say i look tired and depress when they look at me at the opposite side of the court haha!!!!

anyway this attachment something bad happened. just walking can also fall down haha. now got bruise on my knee. anyway was coz i felt the floor was slippery lor than lost my blance and fall. lucky brake with my hand and i move my weight to my side or else my face bye bye liao. the fall was not the bad thing but rather now some the the SN reaction to the incident. some of them just bloody hell keep blaming it was my fault, its my shoe problem but my shoe i just bought it and i swear that it was coz i felt the floor was slippery thus i fell thought they all say the floor is dry. dame piss off lor. than the nurse who was beside me had to write a report than in it say query to shoewear i even more piss off. already say not my shoe and she so bloody insisting it was my shoe and say in a round bout manner that its my fault and all those shit lah. And than i say i'm perfectly normal as in i haf no giddiness and stuff before the incident than she rebutted me back that no one is normal. Yeah rite she is the abnormal one lor. i toking normal in health and stuff she say i not normal. piss~~~~~~~ and another SN Ro_ _ _ he that fatso, king kong, bloody shit idiot who only noe how to open his mouth and not even leave a hand to do anything still dare to say me that wat heaven giving me a sign that i too fat thats why i fall. if i not on attachment i surely rebutt him back that he so much fatter than me and only know how to tok and somemore so dirty ( and still can be a nurse leh s dirty looking nurse) and somemore dun even know how to think bout the patient. ask me to go dress the wound the patient stratch broken and he told me to just dress it with gauze. i told him i wanna clean it with normal saline he told me no need. Anyway i dun care him i still went ahead to wat i think is rite and even my frens think is rite. how can be so dirty and lazy man!!!! he should be fired. he is really a huge lazy fatass vessel that makes alot of noise.

Now for happy thing hehe!!! i was ask by the sister of the ward if i'm interested to be bonded haha coz one of the SN praise me. but i turn it down coz i got other plans and my mum in the beginning also told me that she can still see me through so i no need to get bonded just for the money. Anyway she also know i wanna do other things. in my heart i was like laughing coz its so ironic. my lecutrer and the big fat kind kong thinks poorly of me coz knowledge wise i not very good and that king kong everytime see us its the time we are free so he say we are like professional models walking around not doing anything. my frens and i were like we busy what were you doing??? toking away and causing noise pollution. Still dare say us!!!! DIE!!!!! and hor somemore he is a two double headed snake. in front of my lecturer say nice things behide her say bad things. wat an asshole man!!!! What the thing is that SN that praise me gave me chance to learn and teach me patiently thats why i more hardworking. If chance not given and no one willing to teach its really hard to go get objectives met lor. we are tokking bout human lives lor so cannot anyhow play play if dunno.

Anyway made new frens actually its the yr 1 lah hehe. nice bunch of kiddos. enjoy working with them and gossiping haha esp with one of them coz we everytime same team and we take the same route home so we much closer haha!!! something else happen too but its for me to know only haha!!! anyway hope that next time if haf to go back to the same ward hope those assholes not there liao. only the nice SN and AN and HCA are there.

one week of holiday before my attachment at NUH. one week of resting for me. and after NUH attachment 3 weeks of holiday YIPPIE!!!!!!!!!!

forgot the most impt thing. i pass my exams. yupyup the usual Bs and Cs and no Ds at all. lucky me. and still keeping to the target i set for myself- GPA to be maintained at least at 2.5 and above.

chapter closed

ONe week attachment over and 4 more weeks to go. Went back to the same ward as my first attachment. New faces and old faces seen. At least my enjoying myself there again. The best thing is that the doctors now are much better and friendlier to approach as compared to the past.

Wrote one long entry last week but i took it out coz after thinking bout it it was like no point of posting such things up already. If being friends for so long but there is no mutual understanding in this relationship than no point already. If being percieved as dun care bout a person is just all bout this kind of things than i guess the relationship was not there at all. If everything is only an excuse just because of ' its all bout me who is important' thinking than so be it bah. Excuses are only finding a reason to get out of something. but if really got something and its still percieved as excuses than let it be bah. Too tired of such games already. Lessons learned, true colours seen all these things said are rather true. It has only show how much each and everyone of us and grown and learn how to see things differently. Guess some has grown up and some just stayed on. Guess wat each of us has gone through these few yrs that each of us none knew bout it is starting to show too bah. Classic reasons given bout how other ppl care makes me wanna laugh. How feelings are hurt, hurt me too but got out of it fast, realizing how strong relationships are make me feel how naive i was. Guess this is also all part of growing up.


~~~~Chapter officially close~~~~~


Going to enjoy my attachment at AH this time round and learn more stuff to make sure i'm more competent than yr 1.

fireworks

Yest went out to see the fireworks and buy sher present. Anyway sher present is zq choose one and design is joson choose one and i pay for it first again haha anyway hope sher will like it lah!! Well anyway below are some pics taken yest. if want to see more than go to joson or zq blog to see bah. i only post up those that they never post up one lah. Anyway yest was a bad day to take pics for me haha!! bad hair day and coz use a new facial wash than not suitable got breakouts Haiz.....!! I think i really need to go get a new haircut to change style liao sad sad:(










presenting bengi new cut haha
just haf to post tis one up though
zq and joson all got post it up
too coz too cute liao hehe












nite view of the esplanade












backview of you should know who











if u notice hor the pic look fake.
its as if we take a pic the
photoshop it to put our face
there haha . go take a look at the
other photos too at their blogs
























the fireworks pic. we din get a
gd view of it lah but at least now
we noe where it would be than
next yr can go again haha!!! at
least now got experience.

Okay i'm suppose to post some stuff up as said in my previous post but next time bah coz can't be bother with it at the moment haha!!!! thats bout it bah dunno wat to write liao!!!

SB final

Just finish watching Superband final and ............................ MiLuBing won haha Yeah!!!! This might be weird but even before i started watching the show i was like slping away than i dreamt that MiLuBing won haha!!!!!!! and after watching to the end of the show they really did haha!!! Funny hor haha!!!!!!!!!!

Today really slp alot guess i wun be slping later already. Last nite slept from 3.30am to 1pm than slp again from 5pm to 8pm. Guess i am really tired or mayb just wanna slp haha!!!!! Anyway haf to start getting in the mood of studying or else exam sure die liao haha!!!

Anyway one thing that i'm recently very happy is that i've found a voice that i really like or can say love it to bits but the sad thing i dunno who that singer is haha. Its some anime song singer so dun noe if he got cut album anot. Anyway noe also no use coz i dun even know the name haha!!!! anyway everytime listen to him sing can really feel very happy and somehow it touches my heart haha!!! I guess its his singing technique that i like bah and that voice. Haiz never really seem to be able to find a voice that i really like althought i like many other singers but the problem is that is the songs that made them wanna let me listen to them. Ok of course must be gd than i wanna listen no matter how gd the song is haha!!!!

than this I dunno singer haha its his voice that capture me and not the song. watever genre he sing its like heaven haha to me lah!!!!!!! Ohya anime songs really got alot man!!! and it seems they haf really good songs haha it got chance do hear them out!!!!!! its really gd for most of them.

Recently those feelings are coming back again and even worst haiz.... hate it when it happens. GOT to haf more self control in emotions again so tiring!!!!!!!!

next post if posible i might haf something gd or even funny coming out so watch out for the next post. will do it if i haf the time or too sianz from studying haha!!!!!! thats all take care ppl and bengi too in NS!!!!!!!!

lakehouse

Yesterday after nite klasses went to watch lakehouse haha!!!! Reason why???? coz today no sch and hell am i up early slping only 3hrs!!! Anyway soon will be going back to slp. Last nite in the cinema all those ppl that came in are all couples well except for 4 guys that came in together. Mayb they gay couples wahaha!!!!!!!! 4 Mah so got 2 couples in total haha!!!! Anyway there only me the lonely soul wahaha!!!!!! well nothing much to say lah only wanted to say this haha!!! going crazy liao coz of research ICA haha!!!!!!!!!