Last day of 2005!!!

OKay i juz read back wat i wrote in my previous entry and i was like 'OMG wat the hack was i blahhing about?????' All those whinning and stuff phew!!!!

Ok wat did i do this whole 1 year. In Jan, Feb and March, i was busy writing letters (which applies to apeal letters too) to apply to study phsiotherapy. At the same time i opt to go study nursing too thinking that if i cannot get into physio than at least i haf a back up. Well studying nursing can also be my stepping stone into studying phsio. Beside settling my education stuff i also went to take driving lessons. In March alone i completed bout 4/5 of whole course coz i almost everyday also go for lessons. HOwever only in Nov did i get my driving license after failing for 2 times. finally pass in the 3rd attempt.

April was the beginning of the nursing course which meant my apeal failed. sad sia!!! Anyway during orientation there was tis gal who walk towards me and asked if where we were waiting is the venue for the orientation. Well its fated coz later i got to know her in my 1st attachment. drum roll..................... ying ying is the gal i was tokking about. haha

So after that nothing much happen in the later part of the year except for cat fights in my klass, ppl trying to test my limit of tolerance etc. So drama sia!!!!!!!!!! Beside that i sign up for CSC and tennis so is like very sat go for tenis thats why so dark and tan liao haha!!! and also went for volunteer work like going to old folks home and help out in the BDD ( blood donation drive). Thought not much but its a start to wat i wanna do.

Well wat i can say the best part of tis year was attachment. Wirking in the hospital is so diff from wat we read from books, learn from books, watch from tv shows. From the attachment i learned more bout myself being able to do all those stuff that i thought i could not do. I even face difficulties cause by unreasonable patient. I was really upset with wat he did, badmouthing me infront of everybody just because he was in a bad mood when i go take his readings. Really suppress alot of feelings at that time till my lecturer came to tok to me.

Really glad my lecturer and the ward sister whom my lecturer tok to regaring the incident din blame me and understand the situation. I was told not to take it too harshly coz this kind of things do happen and just haf to take it easy. Te only gd thing that came out from this incident was that next time i wun be so piss off by such things already coz got experience liao hahaha!!!
MOst importantly is i do my job well and rite than there is no chance for other to blame me or try to harm me coz i din everything my rules and regulations and am answerable to myself.

Last thing bout the attachment was of course the new frens i made. Actually its nice making new frens than when all free, all can go out and just chill out haha!!!

This year also nothing happening. The diff this yr from other yrs is that i went to sing K with frens. this is something i never do in previous yrs. All this must thank Lin Jun Jie. you know why????????? coz his album gave free voucher to sing at K so dun waste haha. thats when i started going to K box. Wahaha wat a lame reason !!!!!!!! Actually i like to sing but i can only sing quite ok when alone. even i know the song and tune but if got toher ppl i tend to just sing out of tune somehow. haha some kind of weird phobia.

The last thing that happen to moi in tis yr would be me liking this guy bah. HAHA!!!!!!!! Sound so werid. First time really liking someone. BAd part is that he has someone he like already and of course my Zi Bei Gan plays a part too haha!!! I can face everything bravely and stuff but when it comes to this kind of thingie, my Zi Bei Gan super powerful. No confidence like shit!!!! HAHA!!!!!!!! Gan Qing Ze Zhong Shi Hai Zhen Fan Leh!!!!

Guess this last day of 2005 would be spending it like any other day liao coz outside would be too crowded for me to go watch the fireworks. I really wanna go watch fireworks. So big liao but never once seen fireworks live only on tv. haiz........ Even if wanna go despite the crowds, no one also want to go with moi.

Siging off by lonely gal with a lonely heart with a tear to say good bye to 2005..........


P.S i'm really getting very crappy and emotional and ..................... i also dunno

Late in the nite.........

Wah just finish my english essay. Guess wat. I found out the content that i've wrote is out of point so i had to rewrite it. WTH..... i somemore was almost done with it. ARGGGGG!!!!! Qi Si Wo LE!!!!!!!!!! but i finsh it already finally !!!!!!!! juz found out that i now haf developed a habit of sleeping at 7pm sharp. just before dinner haha. these few days my mum always haf to wake me up for dinner. the best part is that i alwasy fall asleep in this senario....... my laptop on with music playing away and light on. I would always be sleeping on my little pillow instead of my normal pillow.

Waa juz surfing around and found this info in the forum. Dear frens born in 1985 like moi pls take note....


Oxz in 2006 the only star that is protecting ox this yr is the moon.. moon favoured woman..thus this yr ox ladies would hv better luck than the man... ox ppl have to beware of law suite, xiao ren career failure... they r about 7 bad stars affecting ox ppl.. they also fan bian chng tai shui..haiz..causing luck to fall till rock bottom.. so remember to pai tai shui ya..n remember to take vegeterian on the 15th of the lunar month.

1985> they might b a lot of changes happening this yr... its better to stay calm n avoid such changes... its beeter not to hv any form of investment be is financially or emotionally..cause the result would not b good.

Argggggg cannot invest financially or emotionally so sad sia!!!! must be as cold and solid as ice liao coz cannot invest emotionally or else will back fired haha!!! well actually it does not matter to me at all coz whether isit a gd or bad year, it does not make a diff at all. LIfe has been so dull and erm.......... cannot find the word to describe wat i wana say now so watever. haha!!!

Actually wanna say my life as always been the same all these years. Every year is like so routine. watever i do is alwasy the same and with the same people. Festive season spent it with the same people or by myself. Birthday i also only spent with family. Go out leh i most of the time go out alone. Watch move always alone and harry potter is with my mum for all episodes okay. Its been like that since i think the say i was in pri sch bah. NOt that i wanna complain though at least i still haf my family but sometimes i need a change too but got no one to call out coz all not free or ppl i wanna call out i dun dare to ask them out for the fear of rejections haiz. Those ppl that are free i dun like to hang out with them coz to me they are just so faked and pathentic ( well in my opinion).

Guess my life as been really pathentic and lifeless!!!! Now i guess all i can do is to wait for a miracle to happen on me!!!! WAHAHA!!!!!!! if my life can be as little interesting as this character in this show 'my name is kim sam soon' that would be nice ( excluding the part that she sign some contract to be the guy 'gf' for money to prevent her house from being taken away by debtors her dead dad owe) though are are a few up and downs haha well life ain't smooth sailing. oh this show arh i buy the vcd liao than that stupid SCV advertise that they are goin to show it next year!!!!!!! ARHHHHHHH QI SI WO LE!!!!!! waste my money. This tell me not to buy shows that has high rating coz SCV will show it one. All i have to do is wait!!!!!!!!!!

Guess juz now wrote too much in my essay so now down here blahing away. cannot slp so is like this hahaha!!!!!! i guess blogging is a gd way for me to just write off my feeling away to make moi feel better!!!!!!!!! BTW will be changing background music again so remb to come back to listen to it. haha!!!!!!!!!

out out out...........

Today finally got my butt out of the house to go buy my shoes for attachment. Well actually yesterday was already out for half a day to go take my hep B injection at the polyclinic. Wasted most of my time waiting. All because i lost my paper to prove that i've taken the 1st and 2nd dose. This resulted in travelling to and fro from jurong and bukit batok and wasted 6 bucks coz that stupid prove need to buy one haiz.......... Guess wat......... polyclinic is not as cheap its suppose to be. The stupid injection cost me 25 bucks!!!!!!!! and at SATA it only cost 15 bucks. A $10 diff. wat the hack!!!!! Polyclinic is suppose to be real cheap so that poor ppl like me can afford to go to see the doctors. Guess next time when it comes to vaccines i would go to SATA instead and pls god dun ever let them be out of stock for drugs!!!!

Today finally got my shoes and boy its kinda Ex. It costed 59 bucks and its upper part is made out of leather. guess thats why its ex and its already on sale. Well hope this pair can last or else wasted coz its so Ex!!!!!!

Today i also bought a small little pillow that babies used one for sch. now when sleeping in the library got pillow to sleep on and when wake up wun haf those lines print on my face haha. Dun know baby stuff would cost so much. just a small pillow can haf a range of $5-$10. all the same wat dunno why so ex. of course i bought the cheapest one and it was also the last one. Anyway today was quite a fruitful day. AH!!! din buy the clothes i wanted to buy coz it look diff from the pictures i saw. After seeing it wif my own eyes, the clothes just din suit me and it was not very practical for me to wear to sch coz it would be too hot to wear in. double layer and somemore its long sleves. thought i stay in air con room for a long period of time but how bout when i'm under the hot sun???? sure die of heat. today still can;t find the right shorts for tennis. all till knee lenght or else too small. haiz need to find one set of sports wear for tennis in my size or else my tan would look so weird. Actually i juz need a shorts would be slightly above my knee. mayb go sch see if they sell anot and got size.

Today on my way home i saw someone that look like joson but should not be him. That guy features really look like joson. i tink when he grows older, (not that he is not old enough haha) he would haf that guys looks bah. the more mature look haha!!!

So fast sch going to start soon and i'm only 3/10 done with my english essay and i haben finish doing my drug calculation worksheet yet for tutorial. these two days better finish it up.

signing off coz too long liao................

Christmas.......

Juz came back from my cousin place. Had christmas dinner but din really eat at all coz had turkey and stuff already on christmas eve and christmas day eat the same thing again so not very interested but the mango sorbet that my cousin bought was nice had two servings of those haha. Well me is a mango freak!!! anway recieved a few christmas presents and OMG almost all of them are chocolates. got some of my fav kind and one of my aunt who is now working in japan even DHL her chocolate presents over. WAH chocolates from japan. it looks nice but the 'weird' flavours it has is not my kind of taste haha. BEst of all, the kind that i like that has hazelnut cream in the choc, my dad got those so that means i can eat them coz my dad has too many pimples on his face so i guess he would be eating it haha.

So far thats bout it. next week need to go for hep B jab coz they ran out of stock so din get it done. do my english essay. was too lay to do it. Ermmmmmm wat else arh.......... buy shoes and some new clothes that i spoted haha i seem to be buying too many clothes liao this semester. next semester i think got to buy less liao.


Anyway Merry Christmas to all and Happy Boxing Day!!!!

memories coming back

Just saw my fren blog and come to know his grandmother passed away. After reading it memories just came flashing back. 4 yrs ago my grandmother also passed away and i would never ever forget that day. It was also the day i really start to hate that Raja. Coz of his stupid die also must go tutorial i would haf at least seen the last of my grandmother. I was already prepared to go to the hospital on that day than he suddenly drop the bomb that all must stay back for lessons.

Remembered ever since the funeral, i everynite cry myself to sleep for a few months. everytime alone doing nothing than will start to cry. was really sad. till i got to tell myself to snap out of it. Was really close to my grandmother. I could tell her anything under the sun. things that i dun even tell my mum i can tell her. After she was gone, i got no one to really tok to liao. Things that can't be said are all kept in a big corner of my heart. Thinking back it was really a hard time for me. In front of others haf to put on a false front as if i'm ok but actually i'm not. haiz.... that year when anyone tok bout grangmothers i would be like crying away. even that yr when taking O level oral one question was about grandparents, i was like tearing and answering the question. I muz had scared those testers.

Anyway hope my fren will take it easy as time do really heal all wounds but a scare would be there so as not to forget this special person that was once a part of our life.

nothing to look back..........

Today only had one hour of lecture that why now so early at home slacking. Next week is the start of my 2 weeks holiday so guess i have one whole list of things to do. Let me see......

1) Do my 1000 Word english essay.
2) Remb to go for my Hep B injection
3) CLean up my room
4) Do abit of revision
5) Go out, go Out and go out but no body call me out or fly my aeroplane :(
6) learn to play a song or 2 on the piano. ( hope my skills not too rusty)
7) Slp more and just stay in lala land coz dun feel there's any hope in this world liao haha
8) buy shoes for attachment

Guess thats bout it bah. THINGS TO DO LIST!!!

Well just recieve sms from shermeen that she cannot make it to tonite's dinner so Bengi and I cancel the whole thing and decide next week than go. Haiz Everytime i call them out than all last minute tell me cannot go. Never seems to at least once i call them out than all can come out. Everytime ppl fly my aeroplane. Haiz really wanna go out!!!!!!! Guess destine to be alone.

Last nite was watching tv than suddenly this thought juz flash across my mind. I practically haf no life at all. Everyday is such a routine since 3 yrs ago. 1st yr: work than go home, work than go home. 2nd yr: sch than home sch than home. 3rd yr(this yr): sch then home, sch than home. Nothing interesting has happen in my life, no miracle or surprise has ever happen to me. Its already the end of the year but i still leading a a so call 'floating life' bah. So far the only 'happening' thing that happen was my attachment but after that nothing. Such a sad case.

Everyone around me all got something happening around them. whether isit gd or bad but they haf something to focus on and look forward to. HOwever i dun seem to haf anything to look forward at all. well mayb only my exam results bah. wat a joke!!! 2 more weeks to 2006 liao, i hope something there is at least something in 2005 to remember.

Mental status: very very very tired

Holiday After Tomolo

Finally finish my last ica today . It has been hectic since bout 1 month ago as every week there is one ica and even 2 in one week so very stressful to only some extend. Well so far got back only 2 results out of 4 test. Clinical practical test passed and my Bio, the most impt module, well i pass this one too and its a B+. A gd improvement as compared to last term. Somemore my lecturer who was the one who set the paper said it was hard and most people would fail. What a scare i tell you when i heard this. Thanx god i pass.

Today ica was not too bad hope my group can at least can an A for it. I can finally have a good rest. Was very busy this week coz of all the last minute changes and practises and smsing of my grp members for meetings- All for this ICA. Its really tiring to be a leader coz everything you haf to oversee and do it yourself, make sure ur members are doing stuff too and somemore i haf very high expectations but i enjoy doing it. Well i guess i still like to be a leader. haha Really have to thank my grp members for tolerating me for being so long winded haha and for all of their hard work.

Well nothing much happen this week except for being woken up at around 3 something in the morning. Was really pissed off on that day coz i just slept bout an hour or so than the sms came. Worst of all, I could not go back to slp after that no matter how i try and try and try and i had morning lectures somemore. Best of all i kinda doze off in lecture and i tink my lecturer saw me but before she could do anything i woke up already haha lucky me. I guess if its another lecturer that i know i might haf die of embrassement already. Was pissed off but amused on that day when that sms came. Well my vocab very PTE so dunno wat other words to used than amuse to describe my feelings on that day. HAHA anyway wat a joke!!!!

This taught me to always slient my hp and expect for the unexpected.

///can't sleep////

Well well feeling tired but dunno why still cannot sleep. haiz alot of things going on in my mind guess thats why i'm still not in lala land. 8 more hours to go and i would be having my tennis lesson. Its been 3 weeks since i last played hope later on can still remember how to play haha!!

Thursday was a crazy nite. In the afternoon i went to see my lecturer to ask her take a look in my group's ica presentation to make sure we ain't side tracking. In the end we did side track so i had to like change almost the whole presentation information and format and fronts and pictures and background. But I'm kinda amazed wif myself for being able to finish it up last nite and it was of standard okay. Everything is now done and ready for next week's presentation. Settled stuff my group members had to say and things they had to memorize. Hope we can get a good grade for this module. I think after this module, my grp members might not wanna be in the same grp as me already esp Nazri haha coz he is the lazy one and i had to actually threaten him in a nice way to help him pull up his socks haha!! Looking back, i was like so nagging coz everytime sms them to remind them to come for meetings, asking them to do their part of the work and stuff. Well i may not be outspoken most of the time and juz keep quiet in klass but when it comes to project and esp if i'm in charge, i'm like a totally different person. The dommineering ( forget how to spell this word) me would come out and thats it. Demanding, do things must be of qaulity, everything must be in order, well plan, no nonsense and stuff. Guess this is the only time they will see the "BAD" side of me hahahahaha!! However in exchange for gd grades its worth it to bear with me ain't it haha!!

So many things going through my head now and things i'm curious with but dare not ask haha. Still thinking bout it and hoping for it but oh well things have to take its natural course.

Juz deleted so many episodes of naruto from my lappy and WOW my lappy now haf so much space to spare. Oh boy does it really takes up space.


Guess its time to try to slp now or else not energy to play tomolo. Can't wait!!!!! TENNIS!!!!!

The long awaited day...........

YEAH!!!! Today was the day of my horrible bioscience test and its over!!! So happy. One stressful module and i think i should be able to pass!!!

Event of the day was that i finally watch Harry Potter!!! The show was not bad wat dunno why ppl say not nice and it was boring. ????? all over haha!!! Ain't all movies bout the same too??? Well it was funny but a pity so many stuff was cut off. Not the same as the book. so sad. I dun mind sitting 3hours just to watch the whole thing if its the same as the book haha.

Something i just realized. All the series of harry potter i actually watch it with my mum even this one today. The first series i watched it wif my bro and mum, the 2nd one with my mum, as for the 3rd one, i actuaaly haf no memery of watching it at all!!! Someone must haf cast a spell on me and took it away from me haha. Anyway and even this 4th series i watch it wif my mum. OMG!!!! i better get a life though watching it wif my mum was not bad well coz part of it she is paying haha!!! Its like so sad i actually could not get anyone i would like to go wif to watch it. See how little frens i haf. But oh well I'm fussy in choosing frens so how can i complain!!! ONly ppl you feel comfortable wif and you trust than can call frens in my dictionary. Not everyone i know is call a fren or else this word fren as lost its meaning already. Dun you agree???

Oh well hope the 5th series i get to go with other ppl instead of my mum haha!!!

Wednesday pls come soon.........

Time Check: 3am



Tired of studying so writing a blog now. NOw in the process of my crush study of bioscience........ so sianz. Yesterday gif up already so went to see the doctor for my stupid, dun wanna recover cough. Took the medicine so now coughing not so bad like the last few days as if my lungs are ready to come up. Bad part is that everytime i take the medicine, i feel drowsy and wanna slp. HOW TO STUDY!!!!! Everytime i start to study mayb bout an hour only than i start to fall aslp. No matter how i try not to slp, in the end the medication took over my will power. Medication is a powerful drug. No wonder ppl die in the hands of drugs whether isit for gd or evil. haha crapping again.

Super sianz arh. Now only 1 person online but he also busy doing hw so dun wanna bother him which means no one to tok to. Sianz Sianz Sianz......... So many stuff to study haiz........ hope wednesday quickly come soon. and my nitemare will be over soon. than can relax abit and play haha than it will be back to do the finishing touch of my group's project. Still haben think how to make the presentation interesting and stuff. This lecturer kinda strict ( looking from the outside) but see how it goes bah coz there will be 2 grps doing it first next week and my grp is in the following week. Good chance for me to observed the lecturer expectations. haha!!! and steal some ideas from other grps and modify them as if its my idea like that. Me no creative person but good at modifying till its my idea haha evil me!!!

new song

Haha!! new background song again. Its jay chou and lara sing one. Shan Hu Hai. I can't believe i am actually listning to jay's song and loving it esp lang man shou ji. Wanted to put this song up instead but it was too big so put shan hu hai instead. my sencond fav song from jay's lastest album. Er..... well actually i only listening to this two songs coz saw the mtv and fell in love with it. Wat a first man!!! Me liking Jay's songs. haha!!

Anyway this week had clinical lab practical and theory test. Finally its over and i pass my practical. My elective question which was oral medication did super well haha 28/30. thats a high marks leh. if only i knew how to ans one of the question the tester ask than mayb i could have got full marks. Dressing was okie at least i passed it but dunno wat marks but i pass which was like very important coz i think my theory suck big time. mcq was ok except for one question coz read wrongly so the drug calculation was wrong ARGGGGGG hate it when i tink of it. 1 mark like that gone liao haiz........ SAQ kinda suck i think coz din really know wat they were asking for so was guessing away haha as usual. Anyway if my theory at least get a C than my overall marks for this term for clinical lab i can at least get a C and above bah which is like better than a D which i got from last term. so sad to see all the B+ and C+ than suddenly at the bottom a big D. Major shock!!!!

Next week got bio test and i am like taking my own sweet time to study. want to die!!! haha!!! well going to crush study as usualy for bio. Me and sci just dun click at all. cannot study too early or else by the time for test i would forget everything. Oh well looking forward to next wednesday too coz i would end at 12pm than can go watch Harry Potter liao!!! YEah!!!! wait so long liao. Most of my frens all gone to watch liao except me haiz... guess will be going alone as usual again. Lonely me!!! well i better get use to it since i wun really haf anyone to..................... .......................

Guess after my 1029 module ICA which is like 2 weeks later than will go out and do all those stuff i wanna do bah. Bengi should be on holiday liao so can call him out. ZQ i tink got ICAs and test too bah. Shermeen leh........ busy working so mayb call her out in the nite to go sing K. HOpefully by that time my cough is okie liao. I've been like coughing for one whole week liao. Juz dun wanna go see doctor. I think wait till i going to cough to death than go see bah!!!

thoughts!!

每当我想慢慢的忘记你, 你却又进入了我的世界.

sick...

haiz having a stupid flu. cough cough cough and sneeze sneeze sneeze. fever leh only come in the nite. Tuesday and wednesday got test but everytime take medicine i start to slp how to really study. ARG!!!!!!!!!! help me!!!!!! and here i am wasting time writing this blog haha how ironic!!!

THE ATTACK OF THE FLU BUGGIE!!!!!!!!!!

不想了

我喜欢的人,有喜欢的人了!! 决定不想了.祝他们幸福快乐. Why think of something that is never ever likely to happen. 反正已经习惯一个人了!!! 但是我比一般人幸福多了.因为我有亲情和一群好朋友!!!

So many test coming up and here i am still trying to forget. Guess i should go bury myself under my books!!! Anyway finish watch deveil beside you last monday i think. I totally like the main lead he junxiang. When i first saw him i was like he so familiar. So after some searching haha i remember he was the new host i saw fews yrs back in entertainment news. At that time i totally like him but coz of O levels or was it N levels so never watch E-news and stuff than forgot all bout it. Woo HOo. now can watch him act and stuff so gd. Think going to buy Love contract that show haha he so shuai!!! will upload his pic later when free!!!!!!!

Gone soon......

I'm emotionally unstable now at this point. I've so many things i wanna say but i can't. There are things i want to say to different ppl but i can't. I want to say my 真心话 also cannot. I think i better stop watching all those taiwan idol shows anymore esp those romance one or else i might break down sooner or later.

Why am I so weak now??? I really question myself. I use to be able to hide certain feelings but now i can't. I always have this 冲动 to say my 真心话. Isit coz i'm getting older or I'm getting naive??? I juz deleted one whole lot of stuff i wanted to say . guess its not really suitable to put it up. This question is like going throught my mind now. Am i really a nobody in other ppl eyes?? No one really bother to remember wat i say or wat they promise me. I always keep my promises to ppl but why other always treat me like a joke!!! Isit really so hard to just inform me?? Or isit i project myself as the dun care kind of person, a strong person who can deal every problem myself. After living 20 years ++ i'm now starting to haf a identity crisis. I'm now holding up so many information, so many emotions that i really want to unleash it. These few years of problem is weighing me down too much already.

When i wanna tok to someone bout something happy or wat just to relax, when i look around, there is no one that i can really tok to. Everyone around me seem to have found someone they can tok to, share with but i haben. I just haben found someone in klass that share my same interest or me sharing the same interest as others. I guess i never will. Guess it will be a lonely 3 years. I'm not really tokking anymore already in klass. Just dun have the urge to open up anymore. I dun want to put up all those pretenious laughter or smiles anymore.

I'm really tired.....................

All bout today!!!

TOday finally drove my dad's car and.................................. it was pretty good. haha. in less than 3 mins i manage to park the car and it was without poles ok!!! Really felt different coz it was a big car as compared to the school's car. The funniest thing that was my mum telling me no i should do this and that while driving. I had to like SHhhhhhhhhhh her so many times. at least she after that keep quiet coz she understand how its like for someone to keep saying this and that while driving. COz she been there be4.HAHAHA!!!

2 weeks or rather 1 week more than got clinical lab practical and theory tests. haiz damn scared man coz i hate to fail again. and i wanna do well too. I DUN WANNA a D liao in practical!!!! After that got bio science test and i like never study yet. somemore got 3 big chapters haiz.....

Change my background song again. I like this song alot coz it somehow reflects how i feel recently.

dunno wat to say already!!!! got to study.....................

烦死了!!!

我好像喜欢上他了!! 我好像喜欢上一个不能爱的人! 我能爱他吗?? 烦死了! 第一次真 的喜欢一个人.....会有结果吗? 我想太多了!! Only the blind would like me for who i am bah!!!

Sick........

Yesterday had to take panadol before i could sleep. I've been so worried and tired out from all the drving lessons after long hours of school that i finaly broke down feeling sick last nite. Today in klass i could not even concentrate and was like sleeping in lectures. mental and emotional breakdown. This tiredness was worst than attachment. it was like 50% worst. I totally break down after i came home from sch. just had to sleep.

Actually still cannot believe i actually pass. After failing twice i was on the verge of giving up trying already. Guess i put too much pressure on myself. Everytime i fail i dunno how to face my parents coz the fees are so high and failing means more money have to go out to the driving center. STRESS!!! but its all over already.

When any interesting happened today........... erm......... nothing much beside one of my klassmate got scolded by one of the lecturer looking at a photo in her klass. yeah my klassmate was wrong to look at the photo during klass but i guess the lecturer din handle the problem rationally still treating is like little kids. not gifing us face at all by scolding her in front of the whole lecture grp of 100 over ppl. We ain't kids anymore!!

Today i realize that the germaine ( that stupid gal) has a totally wrong concept of nursing in terms of patients dying. Our lecturer was tokking bout her experience bout how she counsel one student bout seeing patient dying coz it seem that this particular student was very upset over it. Well this lecturer( btw its the same lecturer i'm tokking bout above) commented that after the patient die, wat we nurses can do is by showing the'body' respect, clean up and dress the person properly so that the family and take a last good look at their loved one. This i totally agree with her coz we cannot control the death of anyone so we should do our best to help them look gd so as to gif the family members a piece of mind that he/she has gone away in peace. But that germaine was like this lecturer was bullshitting and stuff. She think she is god arh can control ppl birth and death meh. sometime i'm so amuse how she thinks and look at stuff. So childish and not rational at all. or mayb i've a totally different frequency on how 17yrs old teenagers look at stuff. Although i dun like her but she is so entertaining that it just so fun to watch how she handle problems and stuff. Haha sound so mean!!

Well its a long entry today. juz took medicine so dozing off soon!!!! take care ppl!! next time drive you guys around but muz sign a form that if anything happen i dun haf to be responsible for anything haha!!!!!! me can be a dangerous drive at times so beware and ride at your own risk!!!

a ride anyone???

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AND I PASSED!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!

3RD ATTEMPT AND FINALLY I PASSED AND GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE!! YIPPIE SO HAPPY!!!

I was so worried that i couldn't slp well, feeling sick, headache, coundn't not even finish my lunch. Wah first time leh left so much food that my fren had to help me eat up my fries.

Oh watever at least i pass !!!!!!!!!!!

Wah so tired now but still haf so much work to do.............. BYez..............

Thought of the Day!!

Instead of letting fate decide your path,
Why not look for fate and control your own destiny with your heart.
The heart that will lead you to the happiness you've been longing for.

reality hit

Okay i think i have been around with too many nice ppl that reality hit me awake once again. TODAY!!! Well today had tennis lessons as usual than one of the ball was hit out to the basketball court by my friend so i went to the fence there to ask those basketball ppl to help get the ball back. ohya the tennis court is at a higher ground i think bout one storey higher than the basketball court. When i was at the court i call out to the guys there but none even bothered to response. i called out a few times and still no response till one of the guy who was on the phone heard me and walk over and ask wat help i needed. FINALLY!!!!!!

Here comes the part that reality arrived before my eyes. Well again the ball went out so me and sarah went over to ask those ppl to get the ball. Well i ask sarah to go ask them instead knowing that those guys there sure will response to her immediately and true enough it did. Its like wat the hack man!!! Ya sarah is like tall and slim and look above average and stuff but those ppl there also haf to see how one looks like than help them meh. As if they all very gd looking like that. The guy on the phone was like even better looking than most of them there. I guess the best part was after they threw the ball over than they try to find out sarah's name but sarah can't even be bothered with them and gave them the back off look. Lusty toad trying to have swan meat. HAHA!!!

Another thing happening around me today was like crazy. After tennis i went out for a while and everywhere around me were couples. In the bus, In the Mrt, In the Lrt. OMG today its not V.dae or wat. They were like all around and some were even acting lovey dovey and stuff.

ITS CRAZY!!!!

In my brain i was like pls do ur lovey dovey elsewhere and spare this poor gal sitting opposite who will never find such happiness like you guys.

Today is really a reality check day!!!!!!!!!

Holiday No More

Great!!! today i just realize i no longer can slack starting from like now onwards. from week 5 to week 10 is like nothing but ICAs, practicals, theory tests. OMG so many in just 5 weeks. All these are stress esp if i fail. This sem my sub grp is like no creative ideas for projects, feeling sianz all the time and wat else .........all the negative effects that might cause us not to gd well.

DANGER DANGER!!!!!

Well as for my the other sub grp for 1029 module, i'm the leader so its adds up more stress. Its like so long since i lead ppl to do stuff. Let me see............ 3 yrs already. It such a long time since i'm a leader. Dunno if i'm still up to it. Well hope i can do it as well as the past or even better and not let my grp down cause i personally wanna get a A for this module coz i've no idea wat is going on in klass haha!!!

Well nothing much to update too so tata.

To ZQ...

Feeling better anot!!! must rest more and eat medicine and if still haf fever use the method i teach you to bring it down. Take care ya!!!

Do you know what kills.......

Juz read one blog. It like so weird coz i'm like wondering wat is going on inside this person mind. What is she exactly thinking and does she knows the truth of what is going on. Its like u think that you know what is going on and thought that you haf it under control but after reading something that can haf two meanings than it makes one wonder mayb i dun really know wat is really going on. It juz keeps you thinking bout it and haf a urge to go confront.

Human being are so hard to predict when you think that you know it all at most time.


I've met my match. Most of the time i'm able to see through ppl by just looking at their expressions even if they are juz acting but now......... i can;t see through this person at all.

Enjoyable Day......

Today klasses as usual in the morning than i was out meeting my attchement frens Zhiqiang, Cuyan, Ying Ying, Benedict, Desmond and Xiao Hui in the afternoon. Well Ying yIng, Des, Xiao HUi and I met Ben at bout 3.10pm at the mrt and off we go to J8 to meet up wif the rest. As Cuyan was fasting coz she wanna lose weight which i dun quite get it coz she is like rather skinny already haha!! so we went to sit at Ajisen first and waited for Zhiquang to come. So the usual thingie we ordered our food and waitied for it and crap throughout the meal. Most of the time Xiao hui and Ben was 'arguing' over some small matter but it was funny. It has been long since i had laugh so much over a meal. It was fun. We should haf more of such next time!!!

So after eating, we walk around the mall. We kinda walk around in circles coz we dun really know our way. J8 is like a maze haha!! so we were like walking around, taking pictures and stuff. Sadly Xiao Hui had to leave early to help her sis relief tution for some pri sch kid. the rest of us juz continue to walk round till we went to pretty pix watever that shop is call. coz we had like 5 bucks to spare we neoprint we took. Its like so many yrs since i last took neoprint.

HIGHLITE OF THE DAY!!!--- all of us except cuyan were like mountain tortise coz we din really know how that machine work. It was like so fast b4 we could even prepare for the next shot. We were like so noisy laughing and a little screaming saying hurry hurry quick quick. anyway its so funny. Well at least most of the pictures came out nice but coz of the time limit and dunno how to do it thingie ying ying and i chose the pics quickly but ramdomly not even hafing time to really see and choose . haha sorrie guys chose all the pictures wif all the gals in front.



Ben so call make up was really scarry and we were like making fun of him all day111 poor guy but as long he is in the photo it looks weird but interesting.









there is another 2 more neoprint but can;t seem to upload it so will do it another day!! hehe like this neoprint best coz everyone face was rather clear except zhiqiang and i din look so fat in it haha but look so dark!!!! ARG!!!!!!

Busy day!!!

Today had tennis lesson as usual but during the first half hour i could not concentrate at all. Mood swing bah!! was feeling upset somehow. Anyway i pick myself up and concentrated in the game and i was back to normal. Being able to hit the balls and getting my swing the rite way. Well usual i got darker again haha!!!

Well after that took a shower in sch and had lunch all in 45 mins and had to rush to meet the CSC ppl to get ready to go do volunteer work at the bright hill evergreen home. well basically we went there to interact wif the old folks there but i had communication problem coz cannot speak any dialect at all. Haiz... anyway i juz asked my parents to teach moi to speak canto and hokkien so that when i go attachment in week 15 i can at least interact or else very troublesome to everytime call someone to help me translate. Well after soe interaction, we had to push the folk to the performing area coz the harmonica grp were performing. Well the highlite of the day to me was when Hong Wei, one of the yr 2 volunteer started to sing for the folks. His voice not bad and was so cute when he tried to get the folk to participate in the singing too. Well but at least the folks like it so it was heartening to see them enjoying the performances. well after that it back to interactions.

I guess i haf to work in interpersonal skills coz i always dunno wat to say to strangers sometimes even to ppl i know. No topics in my brains haha. Guess coz i've been keeping things all to myself that i dun like to really tok to other ppl. Oh Suddenly remb. 2 yrs ago when working in the learning centre i was like always quiet and doing my work. suddenly i had a comment on some topic my collegue, the kids were tokking so i juz rattle on and on till my colleuge got a shock coz when i tok i really could juz go on. anyway at that moment it was funny lah.

Haiz. miss those times. Actually miss those times in secondary sch. Haha i guess coz i was in control of myself and i had alot of activites to participate coz of student council. so much fun!! Now like dun haf that kind of fun anymore coz ppl around me are so 'funny ' in a scarastic way haha!! You guys should see how one gal in my klass juz to be part of that stupid grp than she act like a maid doing stuff for them. Dunno whether to pity or laugh at her. How can she ever let them do this to her leh. Sometime juz dunno wat goes through her pea brains. If she ever consider them as frens than i wonder wat are frens really for? How do ppl really define frens now adays? Knowing alot of ppl means they are ur frens? wat is exactly the true meaning of the word 'FRIEND' *ponders*


Well something for u to ponder on and tell moi okay!!!

Lazy ppl updates ur blogs leh!!!!

Scare of my life

Today was the first lesson of my new module HS1029 tutorial and the lecturer gave me a scare that my heart sunk. She made us re grp our sub grps in a stupid way that only fate is the one going to choose ur grp members. We were ask to stand in a line according to our birthday and after that we had to go 1, 2, 3, 4,1 ,2 3, 4. So all the 1s were together 2s together and so on. wat a stupid way!! After seeing my new grp members than i was relieved. Lucky i was not together with that stupid germaine and with some other ppl who are not really very cooperative in grp disscussions.


WAT A RELIEF!!!!!!

So my grp consist of Estelle, Su Duan, Qiao Qiao, Nazri and Evelyn. At least my frens are in the same grp as moi ( estelle, su duan and qiao qiao). As for evelyn i work wif her be4 in the same grp but i was not very please with her coz she follows the crowd too much and like dun haf a mind of her own and worst of all...... that time i had to do her part of the project as well. haiz hope history dun repeat itself again. As for Naz, never really tok to him b4 coz he is the quiet one but heard from estelle that he also another problematic one, come for disscussions but dun do work. his mind like always elsewhere. Dunno wat is going on in his brains!!! Well this time round i'm the leader so i hope i can push them to do their part and score well for this module though at this moment i still dun haf any idea wat the lecturer is tokking about in klass haha!!!

New Song

Like the new background song? Its one of the sub theme song from this show call 'Baseball dream' well its a taiwanese idol show but its nice to watch.Funny yet touching. Ohya this song it titled,'Ni Ke Yi Ai Wo Heng Niu Ma' I like cry so many times over a few scenes haha but my highest record for crying over a show so many times would be burning flame 1 ( hk drama bout firemen) so sad this show.

Well these days in sch not too bad lah but rather stress coz so many new things to study and i would be studying medicine too which is like OMG!!! so many different kind of drugs to remember and i somemore got STM haiz how to remember!!! haiz juz haf to try my best liao.

Oh bout 3 more weeks to my driving test liao haiz!!! hope can pass this time round or else i will be so piss off with myself!!! how come i can fail a practical so many time. Never failed more than twice b4. Hope this time can pass coz i will be skipping lectures. Which means passing the test makes it worth while skipping all those important lectures with my absentee rate going down....... hope is not more than 7% or else going to recieve warning letter again haha!!!

Gonna slp liao tomolo lecture at 9am. SO EARLY!!!!! take care dudes!!!! sound so cheena!!! haha

A New Term..

Today is the first day of the new term and i wanted to resolve the dumb conflict between that stupid gal and moi so i tried to be nice and juz like greet her hi BUT............ BUT she just gave me that wat the heck look and juz stared at me as if i got problem like that. WAT THE F***. It was just too naive of me to think that she would at least say hi or watever but boy was i wrong. She is really a crapping gal who thinks too highly of herself and she is always rite. Our problem was like over a month ago before the holiday started and she still so PETTY!!! juz becoz i din wanna take home a charity booklet from the lecturer to sell it or buy a ticket from her. I have my reasons why i din wanna take the booklet home. Its like no point in giving it to me coz my social of frens are like so small, it was exam period, i only shuttle from sch and home everyday who am i going to sell to. going to the neighbours is illegal so who to sell to. So wat is the point of taking one home is i cannot sell any which makes no sense coz selling the tickets are to raise money to help the charity organization. Sometime i really wonder wat goes inside her pea brain. Its like really fustrating coz i already 'di sheng xia qi' to break the ice but that gal is juz too petty over a matter like that. Somemore i dun 'di sheng xia qi' to ppl one coz i never regret certain actions i do esp when it comes to standing up for myself and believing in myself that i'm doing the rite things. She bad mouth me infront of the stupid lecturer i already dun care why can't she just be more understanding and open-minded. Thats why i really hate gals. Gals are like so petty, their empty vessels that makes alot of noise, most are BIMBOS, why can't they be more upfront and deal problems face to face and solve it instead of i hate you and u hate me like kindergarden sch kids. haiz........... i wonder.

Well I swear that i'm not going to bother bout her anymore in my life even if she going to die. well mayb juz save her even if she going to die and just leave her aside bah. watever happens to her is none of my business and wun let ppl like her affect me coz not worth it. I've already made the move but since she is so 'small hearted' than is none of my business, at least i've tried. If she ever haf problems, let all of her pretencious frens help her. I dun wanna be pretencious infront of anyone anymore coz i wanna be who i am. the one who can protect myself from all kinds of harm. Even if ppl all stay away from me just becoz i offended their silly fren, coz they believe in the rumours that gal start than i'll juz accept it coz at least i'm happy and i still haf my china frens and sui chan and of course ZQ, Bengi and Shermeen who accept me for who i am even they all know i got a weird temper though i haf already mild it down alot that is almost to none already haha. wat bullshit!! i think its time to erupt it to certain ppl already. Haiz also dunno if can do that coz i now haf this thing in me that i cannot hurt other ppl or else i will feel bad bout it even if that person deserve it. haiz so 'fan'

Wat a feeling to start a new term. I see so many 17 yrs old kids but why only my klass ppl are so 'different' that i cannot get along with them at all. but i have no problem with the rest!!!!!!!! can someone tell me why???? i really wanna know why??? and why all the acting????? Dun they feel tired ????? or do i haf a problem?????

bored.......

Aiyo I'm so bored so decided to come type another entry.Wow first time i writing 2 entries in one day. u guys muz be thinking i today got so much things to crap arh hahahaha!!! Bored lah nothin to do so like that lor...

let me see........... wat to type arh............ thinking hard............ wat should i say........... haiz i gif up. nothin much to say haha.


Ohya!!! just now went through the list of songs of Yang Cheng Lin new album and found one song has the same title as one of the song i wrote few months back. wow so 'qiao'.


This is Yang cheng Lin version:


爱情的颜色
当指尖轻轻滑过你眉梢 我幻想能靠在你的怀抱
多希望一直陪在你身旁 就怕听不到你的心跳

这一秒突然之间想知道 我在你心里究竟多重要

爱情的颜色 怎么我努力你却看不见呢

眼睛湿湿的没说出的爱只为了不让你负荷 负荷

这一刻突然之间才知道 你在我心里究竟多重要

爱情的颜色 怎么我努力你却看不见呢 只要你快乐
我付出一切只为了不让你负荷
我为你负荷



This is my version:


爱情的颜色

黑暗中的我 独自躺在天空下
这顿分离的日子 我努力得忘记你
但你已是 我唯一色彩
认识你的那一颗
我黑白世界 有了爱情色彩
我们的爱情是否像 黑白电影一样
成为了过去 让你就这样 say goodbye
雨过后的彩虹闪不亮我灰色心情
这份伤心渲染了心灵 化为泪水
Only You, You are the one
你是天使恩赐的相遇
已如透过树影的阳光般 温暖
I give you my love
无可替代的爱
As time goes by
站在红地毯远方的我
愿能将我的爱情 刻在我心中
祝你永远的幸福
Only You, You are the one
你是天使恩赐的相遇
已如透过树影的阳光般 温暖
I give you my love
无可替代的爱
我爱你



haha my so long winded as compared to Cheng Lin's version. haha which one better arh??? mayb Cheng Lin version better bah coz my still a little no head no tail one haha. mayb of got chance than go learn how to write songs than next time if wanna switch job can go become song writer and win awards haha i muz be dreaming!!!

finally got my stuff......

Yesterday went on a shopping trip with ZQ and TSL but in the end din manage to get anything. So sad. So today i went to another place at toa payoh to check out the clothes there. hehe lucky today manage to get some clothes for the new sem or else haf to wear wat i wore last sem. This shop sells about the same kind of clothes as the one at far east. This shop their service much better and the clothes they take in also much nicer bah coz its suitable for ppl my age as compared to far east. hehe another shop i can go shop shop again but a bit far only. NOw adays hard to find clothes my size. they either too small or too big. I like in between of no where. sad case lah. skinny also cannot, fat also cannot. wat to do!!!!! clothes nowadays are like only for the super skinny or super fat ppl.Than ppl like me how!!!! haha. i tink i next sem everyday go jogging bah be4 sch than no need to fan such things liao and somewhere can save money. hahahaha!!! but i only like tennis haha. anyone game!!! i got extra racket to lend!!! esp zq and tsl. same sch so can play wif moi. tennis very fun leh but only problem is that you would be tan. haha like moi. now got 4 colours. 2 diff colours on the arm and legs.

Enough of psycho-ing liao haha. wanna go slack liao byezzz and gd luck in ur job hunting!! (zq)

Earth......

Been so surrounded with attachment that only recently i started to read the newspaper. Although i know that there has been many sad things going on. Only these few days when reading the newspaper than i realize that the death poll and so high and many living areas has been destroy. Rather sad to see all those pictures and esp.pictures where ppl are suffering, crying over the lost of their loves ones etc...

This only shows how lucky we singaporeans are but yet here we are always whinning. coming up with some scheming plans to back stab others. If only everyone including those terrorists spare a thought for others, stop all those killing and greediness to wanna control the world thingie and not only be an empty vessel that makes alot of noise than mayb the world would be a better place. I guess mother nature is mutating now as a form of punishment to us bah.

The land is changing form, the climate is changing too, everything on earth is changing.From nature to human beings. Its the world coming to and end already. This reminds me when i was in primary sch, there was some art competition on how the world would be like in 2050. Everyone was like drawing robots, ppl flying and watever but i was the only one who drew the world coming to an end where it juz scrumble to pieces. HAHA so young than think of such a sad picture of the future.

However it seems that its becoming that way. Wonder how the future may behold for everyone of us here.......

Confused......

This two days feeling a little confuse already. Can't seem to 'tidy up my feelings' on a certain matter. Hate this kind of feeling. It has been long since i felt this way again. The last time it happened was in sec 5 bah.

Beside this, there is another problem but i cannot tell anyone at all. No one i can talk too but only to keep it within myself.Feeling a little sad. This problem is like a year ago but ppl are now still habouring over it and its really vexing. Really need to tok to someone but haf to keep mums.Can't even tell my parents how i feel coz will only worry them.They always think i can handle the matter but honestly i can't anymore. Its so difficult when i'm no longer in control of my feelings anymore and haf to pretend that nothing happen at all.

Feeling really tired emotionally and i really hope this feeling can just go away. Really far away coz no one would ever ever......

Last day of attachment and beginning of freedom....

YEAH!!!!!!!!! last day of polyclinic attachment. SO HAPPY but sadly today was boring. Last day already but had a boring day.It's over anyway.ONE WHOLE WEEK OF SLEEPING IN . YEAH!!!!!! no more early mornings.

Well this whole week of attachment was not only boring but interesting to a certain extend. First of all. me and my frens are always being stared at as if we are museum displays like that. NEVER see nursing students be4 meh??? the second funniest thingie is that every patient that see me would open their mouth and start to speak in malay. WAH!!! do i really look like a malay meh. Today got even one patient who was speaking in dialect to the nurse and then turn to me and said in english,'you understand wat i tokking about meh?' and i had to like yah. i chinese. I think i say this like dunno how many times liao till i so xian. All this started by ZQ when in sec 1 she thought i was malay and since then most ppl i met all think i malay. ALL UR FAULT ZQ!!!! (juz kidding lah).

Anyway attachment has come to an end and soon sch only to start soon and its the start of my misery again. haiz not in sch work (i so intelligent where got problem. haha like real!!!) but as in my klass mates. haiz got to see those childish and pretencious ppl again for another sem. sad case. hope this time round they dun come and disturb me coz i think i surely gif them or rather her a piece of my mind liao. NO more mr nice guy.

okay no more crappying again. Well today must really thanx ZQ and TSL for going out for dinner wif moi. thanx guys. next time must haf more of such thingie and bengi muz come too. And sorrie for leaving early arh coz i wanna go cut my hair. lucky i went early leh coz they close at 9pm. hehe. and ZQ the sending the postage to ur place no nned liao coz i found one shop that they can change the clip on for moi. thanx.

one more thingie i wanna say be4 signing off to slp. Guys pls go update ur bloggie leh. we hardly meet or tok so mus update blog so i can know how u doing in life mah. IT means YOU, YOU and YOU dun turn around its YOU!!!! so try to update once in every 2 days or so okie. Just entertain me lah coz i KPO haha!!! like that than can know if u still alive anot haha okie. should know wat i mean lah. if not than too bad haha!!! okie going to watch vcd than slp liao.

SO Long, fare well............ and the song goes on.............

TOday is the bestest( my slang vocab) day!!

Each day in the polyclinic seems to be better but the best is that tomolo is the last day. My poor legs need the rest already. Thank god i already had good training from my hospital attachment or else i sure die in the polyclinic.

Well today was assign to the immunization room and another room where counselling of diseases were done. Anyway i had fun in the immune room coz saw so many babies and they were sooooooooo cute. One of the babies i saw today even had the same B'dae as moi. There was another baby that was really cute. he even grab my fingers and start playing wif it. Lucky he never try to put my fingers into his mouth HAHAHA!!! anyway my hand too big for his little mouth. He was so cute and cubby. Felt like carrying him haha. Today was really gd and even better than yesterday. Can see cute little babies and somemore play wif some of them. such a warm and fuzzy feeling. (is it the correct words to use???) who cares is my blog hahaha.

Tomolo last day liao and i guess i haf to Shou Shi my feeling and thoughts already. In this 3 weeks of attachment i really see much more stuff than i think i would ever see, experiences different things and i feel that even my thinking also mature a little bit more bah. ( i hope so haha if not than nvm lah)but i guess my cow (stubborn) temper still there bah but only to certain ppl. But it makes sense coz i born in the yr of cow wat. WAHAHAHAHAHA!!! crapping nonsense again haha.

But the best of all is that i made new frens whether isit from NYP, NP or even ITE etc. Hope we can all still keep in contact esp my new frens from NP (zhiqiang, cuyan and benedict) coz they were my first new frens i made in the hospital and i enjoy their company coz they are all so interesting in their own way.

P.S Zhiquan remb not to be late tomolo arh. and thanx for agreeing to meet at 6.30pm at lot 1. coz i very rush if at 6pm and i dun eat dinner so early leh haha.thanx. cya tomolo!!!!

Another day has passed..

3 days has passed and boy am i happy thought today was more meaniful as compared tp twp days ago. Today was assign to the developmental room and the so call emergency room. Well it was kinda fun coz at least i learn alot of stuff today and there was so many babies to see. They are sooooooo cute. Today do tepid sponging on a baby and it was the best happening of today. Well done a few tepid sponging for adults but baby is first time. While doing tepid sponging for the baby than he stick his hand into the basin and started to play with water. He was like playing wif water and crying at the same time. So cute and funny. Anyway it was fun. Haha but the next two days might not be so interesting thought tomolo can still see cute little kids coz tomolo i'm assign to the immune room where kids haf to go for their injections. Wow mayb tomolo i will turn deaf from their cries.

Feeling a little sick already guess its a cold coz my nose is running like a tap water. This boils down to me being a big mouth bah. I commented to my mum that one of my klass mate only 1 week in polyclinic than fall sick already than in hospital sure die liao. My retribution. Me and my always come true as in bad things mouth. Still trying to learn how to shut my gap if going to say bad things bout ppl coz later i sure get it one. Haha!!!

Last nite could not slp so was like reading everyone's blog entries from past to present and found out one freaky thingie. Its like there is billions and billions of ppl in the world and i actually get to meet someone that shares almost which is like about 98% same fate as moi in certain things. Its like so weird. HAHA how lucky of me.

P.S to Zhiqiang if ya reading this. Next time juz leave ur name at the comment board instead of np fren. When i read it, it was so funni.Juz find it funni haha.... hey dun bother to ask xiao hui bout the allowance thingie already coz doesn;t matter already. Just like wat i said during our conversation. thanx alot..

P.S to Bengi and ZQ. hey you two decide if wanna go eat on friday nite anot than sms me can okie. Go suki sushi hor if eating out coz never try that place yet and its bout 19++ wif gst coz bengi last time say he went there b4 than pay 19++. Sakae also bout the same price. If can call shermmen out too bah and ziyan too if possible. that gal if dun see her soon i sure cannot reco her next time liao.

OKIE enough message leaving be4 i start to crap again

Tata gotta slp already just took medicine....... bye ya.... Enjoy ur holidays....

2nd day at polyclinic

Well today was much better than yesterday coz at least i can help take height and weight, bring case file to another room, do translation and stuff. BUt today i totally like in a foreign country. Today the nurses there all open their mouth and start to speak malay. MALAY!!! and 98% of the patients are also malay so i was like wat the heck are they tokking bout.So today like haf to open my golden mouth to ask or else i really like dun fit in anywhere haha.

Well todae nothing much happening lah coz still find it kinda boring. Well today find out mayb got hospital allowance to claim but dunno can anot so see how first lah coz now my np fren helping me ask my nyp fren whom i dun haf her number to ask the lecturer. Oh well hope can claim at least to cover my transport.

TATA tomolo another day at the polyclinic. 3 more days to go........

First day at Jurong Polyclinic

Well the only word to describe my day today is BORING and yes its boring!!!! this polyclinic attachment thingie is really just to open ur eyes and ears to learn and hardly and i do mean hardly nothing for one to help out at all. I this kind of person where can just stand all day to observe and do so little work. haiz four more days to and i hope i can participate more and not just stand and look all day long.

Well i guess another factor why it was boring coz everyone was being paired up but moi. so sad .poor moi. just because my name was last in the list so no one to pair up wif. But oh well at least i get to observe without worrying if my parthner can see anot or stuff and can solely haf the nurse to answer all my doubt watsoever. HAHAHA!!!! evil me. Kinda miss working in the hospital already and the ppl of course. Guess was becoz i din feel that i was being judge coz of the way i look bah but whether i was a keen and capable learner bah. Oh wat the hell. going back to looking down on myself again. Geez tokking crap again....

Nothing much bah i guess. Tomolo is another day again. ( Tian arh pls let me not to be so bored. i need to do stuff.) haha tian shen lao lu ming!!!

P.S Bengi and ZQ wanna go out for diner this friday anot? Go suki sushi can??? but if no $$$ than we go marina next week bah. cheaper!! or any other recommendations???
Bengi the naruto vcds isit you haf the whole set arh and isit in cdr or in ur com. if in cdr can lend me to bring home watchie. thanx.

Last day at ward 2

Wow so fast 2 weeks just pass by and its my last day today. Well kinda sad that today is the last day already. I guess its the ppl that i'm working with are great that makes it enjoyable. made a few new frens and i like them. Makes me feel how nice if they were my klass mates but well in life you are always with ppl that you dun like. Well guess this is so call society that makes up with diff kind of ppl. but well i'm entitled to dream haha. Well took some pictures today with them. hehe when taking pictures i was like thinking bout ZQ coz she always ask me to take pictures iwth her but i am like DUN WANT and now i auto take pics haha. dun be angry haha!!!








This pic is the funniest if you notice as if the guy got two horns haha!!
















These are some of the photos the rest are for my personal keepsake haha tata gtg and slp DEAD tired not haha!!!

Attachment

my attachment its only two days and i'm already dying soon. the almost 8 hours of standing its killing me ad the shoes are hurting too. Now my legs feels like it doesn't belog to me anymore. Well anyway i'm not the only one feeling this way too. Even my new frens from NP are feeling the ache too by just standing.

On monday was kinda messy and unorganized at the ward so din really do much. Was just tired from ALL THE STANDING!!! Today was good coz learn how to do other stuff and it was fun hanging out with the NP students since i was alone in my team. Funny cute kids. haha At least got them to make the day pass quickly and interesting. Or else i'll be bored to death.

Oh ya realize that watever the sch teach cannot really do it in the hospital one. really haf to see the environment and occasion and stuff. Anyway thought it was DIRTY, SMELLY, TIRING AND STUFF but it was fun and interesting to haf this attachment thought i sometime make a little boo boo coz i forgot wat i learn in sch liao haha. need to go read up liao. tata!!


PS. one more joy working in the ward is that there are cute guys who are interns (doctors) to see whenever they do their rounds hahahahahaha!!!!

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Okay today suppose to meet wif shermeen and bengi to go out in the end all cancel last minute. which ends up me today doing nothing. haiz always like that one. Can't seem to get ppl out one. haiz boring day lah. was hoping to go out today. But well guess next time bah if it ever comes.


P.s : ZQ if ur reading this you can delete the mp3 from ur web host liao. I.ve found one and did the upload already. thanx alot and sorry for the trouble.

Results

Haiz today got back resuls and did quite ok lor. If only i had a little luck than my grades would be As and Bs liao instead of Bs and Cs with a + sign behide each and every one of them haiz. Lucky lady where are you when i need you leh. why you never come to me be4 and bestow me some of ur luck powder or watever.

Okie enough of rubbish. like my new background music? hehe i like it very much that it even becomes my hp ringtone. haha thats why i like my new hp so much coz can transfer my fav music to become my ringtone. You having the privilege to listen to this song of course must thanx ZQ for letting me occupy some space in her web host coz my web host only allow 5Mb of dl and this music is like 5,25Mb. So thanx ZQ!!!!!

Guess thats bout it bah. tomolo meeting shermeen and bengi to sing K and/or eat dinner if K not too X.

Loveholic......

Its the title of this new korean drama i bought a few days ago. This show is crazy man.I just anyhow pick out from the rack coz my mum was waiting for me after her grocey shopping and i needed to buy a show home so just quickly pick out one and its this show loveholic. Glad it turn out not too bad ( still watching) though there are a few parts that are kinda boring coz too much tokking. To me too much tokking in a show is BORING!!!!!! thats why can never watch shows like CSI coz need to listen to wat they are tokking about or else can forget about watching it. Well TV shows are suppose to be entertaining not torturing. haha

Well was looking for the OST of this show and found out something which is shocking. oh well mayb to me only... the main lead acted by Kang Ta was actaully a member of the ex grp ( i think they break already correct me if I'm wrong) H.O.T . Dunno if any one of you guys still remember. anyway I was like OH MY GOD. H.O.T really did unjustice to Kang Ta's looks. In this show he was like So gd looking ( to me lah) Well if you remember H.O.T was like a grp of scary ppl with colour hair and weird make up so i din really like this grp as compared to SHINWAH. Oh ya bought the vcd was partly because of the vcd cover coz the guy look not too bad from the side view.







This the cover of the vcd box.






Kang Ta















I think i watching too much korean drama liao. Now adays very time tokking bout korean actors and stuff. haha Well too bad now in singapore Jap drama that are brought in are lousy or act by old ppl one so ' mei you kan tou' I use to not like korean drama in the past but guess thats all changing coz korean dramas are no longer soap opera shows. P.S i still dun like Winter Sonata. its still a lousy show to me coz its tooooooooooo soapy.

Better stop here already or else will start to rant away non stop. haha going back to my vcds.

Lazy bones gone.....

Today finally got rid of my lazy bones and did some cooking which i wanted to do like 2 weeks ago. haha . been lazing around, watching vcds and stuff. Today got up and finally did some hands on.

Well lets see. Today made chocolate cream puffs and chicken. Well it was a bad start when i was making the cream puffs. Guess my cooking skills is going down down and soon to be gone. Guess it must be coz haben been cooking for quite some time already.Haiz was preety upset but at least the outcome was not too bad. Haha its still in me. * crazy me praising myself*

Guess after this cooking thingie the next thing i need to do is clean up my room but well this can wait till my last week of holiday. Haiz two more days than results out liao. very the worried hope can at least haf all Cs and above bah coz some paper i know i din do very well. some was even bullshit answers i came up with. You know just to fill up the blanks hoping it would be correct. haha.




















The chicken. not very well taken from the hp and the sauce could not be seen coz its cheese sauce.( its white in colour kinda) Ohya its chicken wrap and just chicken fillet with potatoes.
Well a plain old dish with no colour. well thats coz i dun eat veg haha.














Cream puffs without the fillings yet. was waiting for it to solidify(dunno how to spell)



thats bout it today. going back to watching my vcds. bought one and really like it alot. haha VCD HERE I COME!!!

Some quiz

Well did some quiz online and its kinda true on how evil i am. Haha found it interesting. Now you know how bad i am HAHAHAHA!!!






Accidentally Evil.

You're not really evil. If anything evil happens
around you it must be some mistake. Most of
your evil actions come from the influence of
those around you. You have the seeds of
potential, however. If you worked at it you
could achieve greater heights of evil - but
chances are you like it just where you are.


Just How Evil Are You? (For AFHS Members)
brought to you by Quizilla

Dreaming.......

Haiz had a sad dream last nite. I always believe in dreams coz to me, it projects the future and reality. Silly of me to think it might come true one day. I guess its just me thinking too much bout it, something that is never possible to happen at all.

Wat to do?????????

Haiz life is ever so boring if your just too lazy to do anything and wanna complain. Well i guess thats me. I'm like so bored that i'm now like reading other ppl's blog and even their frens blog. Oh okay this is extreme boredom.

Well just can't really be bothered to do anything like clean up my room, do a new layout for my blog and even trying out new recipes. Just too lazy to cook anymore haiz.... Dunno wat to do with my life man at the moment beside waiting for results
*pray that i dun fail* and at least a C in every module pls. Okay i'm like desperately praying hard again for something. typical human beings who pray for something when they are desperate. haiz... oh well i'm just another normal human being on a little dot on the map called Singapore.

Oh gosh bullshiting again. Madness in invading my brain cells. Guess i haf to find some stuff to do, like shopping, watch movies but all these cost money haiz another problem. Oh well i guess i can go window shopping haha than sure buy stuff.

BTW anyone of you got vcds can lend me anot. Need to entertain myself already without spending much. ( just spend a sum of money on vcds thats why asking around )
Well if haf than sms me or msn moi okie. i'll be so thankful and stuff. oh watever!!!

tata going to continue leading my boring vacations till attachment arrives.

wat am i tokking about??? beats me!!!!

okay. i was just reading wat i wrote early in the morning and i was like wat the hack am i tokking about??? *????????questiond marks??????* Weird dun really understand wat i was tokking about at all beside the cute guy haha.

Oh watever!!! too tired to really tpye anything. TODAY IS SO BLOODY HOT!!! that i almost died during tennis. lucky bought a cap along. Oh well thats bout it.

* wat a boring entry*









this is one of the character in the show 18 vs 29. just like the smile or watever it is..... oh i'm goin crazy.

is the system changing?????

Wow so fast one week of holiday has passed already. Well been doin nothing beside watching VCDs and sleeping alot and i MEAN ALOT!!!
Been buying vcds to watch. well this is wat i do everytime i'm on holiday. Part of my savings go to vcds. Recently watch this korean drama 18 vs 29. This show not too bad and quite funny. Glad i bought it. HEHE part of the reason is that there are cute guys to see in this show. I noticed that recently in korean the younger actors i mean YOUNGER actors are all getting rather gd looking as compared to the older actors. Well i guess some of the 'experience' actors are quite cute too like Kim Jae Won. He's cute and gd looking. Dunno why all the gd looking ones are popping up haha well the female ones are getting better looking too. guess the system is changing ......... 'pondering why'




This is one of the actor that plays the younger version of a main character in the korean drama. I find him kinda cute hehe manage to get it off the net after finding it for some time.

Well to go go to bed already later still got tennis continue later.........


signing off.

VACATIONS ARE HERE!!!!!

WAH vacations are here already....... finally exams are over. Thinking back bout it all seem like a dream. During this period is like so long yet so short if you know wat i mean. Well today paper not too bad finish very fast and the thing is know how to do most of the questions so not too bad. hope overall can get at least a B for this module.

Well feeling the mental and physical strain of this exam. SO STRESSFUL........ haiz its all over. NOW is holiday and it means i can go catch movies, go out and slp for 12 hours everyday except from 19/9 - 7/10 coz its my attachment period.

HERE IS A VERY IMPORTANT WARNING TO ALL WHO READS THIS: EVEN IF YOUR GOING TO DIE PLS TAKE NOTE. PLS DO NOT DO TO AH OR JURONG POLY CLINIC FOR ANY TREATMENT WHICH INCLUDES UR RELATIVES!!! IF HAF TO GO PLS AVOID WARD 2 OKIE!!!

HAHA!!! attachment coming soon so i pray hard that nothing bad will happen on me and i dun cause any harm to the clients there. haha so use to say clients in exams well i mean patients. NO FALLS, NO DEATH PLZZZZZ!!!!!!( PRAYING VERY THE HARD) NO MISTAKES!! well this attachment is also another exam so pls let me pass!!!!!! haiz everything also a test. spare me man!! little gal here need a break from this stressful poly life <:)

WELL now i'm free for like 3 weeks before attachment except saturday coz got tennis if you wanna go out, need companion or need help ( if within my reach hor) or wanna treat me lunch or dinner ( praying for one haha) or actually we can go go out and haf dinner together. Long time neber like that liao. than call me out okie or else i'll just lie on my bed all day surfing net and play boring online games only. poor me!! sing K also can if you can stand my horrible voice haha. BORING life i lead but well thats me!!!

OKie signing off now feeling super duble tired mentally ( haf been using this word so often in my exams that i kinda hate this word already ) . well tata !!!

Erm.............

DEAD WALKING CORPSE I AM!!!!!!!!!!

Disappointing Results

JUst finish watching the Jui Dui Superstar results and its so disappointing. Both JunYang and Xin Hui lost and they were like so good and they deserve to win!!!!!!!! esp Junyang. He was so good last nite. Well its competition but they still deserve to win. I hope thoses record companies will sign them on so i can hear them sing again. THEY ARE THE BEST!!!!

Signing off haf to study for sociology liao. EXAM in 14h30mins and counting..........

YOU GO AND DIE!!!!!!!!!! AND GET OUT OF MY SIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really very upset today. I know i shouln't bother about wat some BItch say or wat and stoop to her level but just cannot take it already. I've reach too high a level of tolerence already that i think i going to break down soon. Today was the last straw already. Just because i din wanna take a charity booklet home to try to sell and din wanna donate to that bitch why must bad mouth me in front of the lecturer and half the klass. Say wat Nurses should be caring and stuff. Pls lor I not like her put my care for others in my mouth and show off and tell other ppl wat i've done. I feel that care should come from ones heart and not to show off to let other ppl see. Eveyone got a reason why they dun do certain things. By judge my just becoz i went against you. Stupid fucking bitch!!!!!!! Really wanna give you a tight slap. I just hate ppl bad mouthin me when they dun understand the situation. Wat ur parents teach you how to respect others. All i can say is that ur parents haf fail. You psycho Bitch, idiolt ass .......... Hope you get knock down by a car and stay in the hospital for 3 years till i grad. ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS HOLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. No rite to even say me coz you also dun care and respect other ppl and their decision. This is also the element of the nursing care we need. Dun you study BItch........ Go and die lah and fuck OFF ............... ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG...............

Now must like hear no evil See no DEVIL....................... ARGGGGGGGGGGg if no this gal in my klass we would be a peaceful and likable klass. HATE SUCH BITCH DIE YOU ASS...... DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIE.......................

Happenings........

Wow long time never write any entry liao. Haf been busy. Well this week has really being hectic. Preparation of presentation one after another haiz....... Well Monday nothin really happen except haf driving lesson. No sch on that day so it was a bonus. Tuesday went to sing K with ZQ. Hehe used my that vouncher to sing free. Well it was my first time singing K so not so bad lah. Next time can go wif ZQ to sing K coz we both everytime sing out of tune and i think i sound weird man. The best part was that there was this two gals beside our room singing and they were out of tune too but they sung very loudly so it was kinda funny. I had a great time anyway thought i was like studying for my test on that day was @ 6pm later in the eveing while ZQ was singing. HAHA weird me. Wednesday had grp meeting to continue our preparation of presentation. Boy that day i had lots of up and downs. grp member offer to help out than i told her wat to do than she juz say its of no use than immediately when offline for me. Wah Lao!!! Leader somemore leh she. haiz ..... make me stay up till so late so to make the presentation better. haiz still dunno wat mark we get coz that lecturer is an idiot. Take so long to mark and love to moderate and so strict somemore haiz. ICA is meant to help us get better marks and not pull us down in our overall marks so WHY CANNOT BE MORE LENIENT!!!!!!!!! TIAN AH!!! PLS HELP US!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thursday nothing lah just sch...... Than came Friday. ZQ Bdae so in the nite we met up but everyone was like late haiz......... guess all the waiting for klass to start has made me not liking to wait for ppl. But had a great time coz we get to tok and joke around and stuff. For me it was great coz at least can be wif ppl of my age and get away from ppl younger than me who are all childish and even one sad case gal. who tinks she is the best in everything and other ppl are not as gd as her. A typical singaporean who tries to be someone she is not. Haizz........... sad case.

Well type so long stuff. anyway have to study liao. 3 or rather 2 more weeks than exams liao but i haben even touch the books yet coz of all the presentation stuff haiz i better jia you coz i dun wanna stay back for another term.

Signing oFF.........................

Shocking news!!!!

Just now was just tokking to Wei Lun ( shermeen should know who it is bah) anyway heard some shocking news from him. Mrs Poretti our secondary 1 Lit. teacher got cancer and somemore is stage 3. Its like Wah liao why heaven so unfair to gd ppl. Mrs Pretti was like such a gd teacher and a gd person but such things haf to befall on her. Its so sad that someone i know has such disease. Last year saw her and tok to her she was like so healthy and radiant than less than a year got such an illness and its so serious. life is really so short and unpredictable. Haiz.......... hope she her illness will be in control and get well soon. Oh ya she now going through chemo so hope she can be strong coz chemo very 'xin ku' one. PLs pray for her............

A Day Out!!!

Today first time go out on a Sunday......well is actually been a long time since i went out on a sunday coz usually Sunday is meant for me to slp in till the sun is almost down. haha!! Anyway today's shopping trip was gd coz bought 2 blouse that i really like. no more t-shirts...... yep next time i buy clothes will be from this shop named Milady at far east. This shop only sells clothes to people of my size and their rather cheap and chic looking too. Hm................. dunno if chic is the word to use here anyway oh well you guys should know wat i mean lah. mayb next time go out than i show you how the clothes look like haha. THis shop is going to be my number 1 shop to go first when shopping. Oh and thanx ZQ for accompany me today and helping mi see if the clothes look okay on me. This few days abit blur blur and cannot make up my mind on certain things haiz............ getting older liao. Oh ya today went shopping than at the shop, this salegal used to be from DSS too and she recongize ZQ and me. Actually both of us were rather shock coz i dun remember seeing her before. Anyway the best part was that she is one year younger than us but she looks so much older than us . Haiz ppl around us are changing and look diff but i still look like i still in sec sch haha. mayb is the make up bah and dress but other ppl face all look mature and diff liao even shermeen and ziyan all look mature but i still look the same as before mayb fatter only haha. Even bengi look a little mature than be4 haiz ..............dunno isit a gd thing or bad. Thinking bout it.............................. i think is gd coz than i can get student value price where ever i go HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HappIe Day

Haha today very happy coz got my bioscience result. I did not get a F.................... a D.............................. but a C. Yeah though its only a C i very the happy coz i freak out during the test or getting a C is very the gd for me. Beside i dun haf bio basic as compared to my klassmates so its a gd day to celebrate haha.

Today the stupid gal cried coz she failed in her bio. but she deserve it lor coz she din even study at all so why cry if no effort is being put in and fail. I feel she juz wanna get attention. One should only cry if effort is being put in but still fail. Haiz weird people in the world. anyway my klass got a few got As but also a few who got Fs. so quite even lah. hehe after these tests shows that i not so stupid in my klass after all. Now is put in extra effort to study for my sememster exam to pull up my grades to As and Bs than i can haf a gd holiday after that. HAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hectic Week

Wow this week is really hectic and frightening. I made myself so busy that i kinda regret it ........NOT!! haha. This week hardly got enough sleep and got so many programs. hehe who to blame but myself. Today er...well yesterday coz now is midnite liao is my 1027 presentation. well finally is over coz was kinda stress over it. Got weird members that only after an argument than do their work thus alot of last minute prep work to do. Well though they did it i got to redo almost everything for them so i was like doing 3 ppls work. STRESS!!! actually not lah coz i enjoy doing it. Moi is a project freak . Love to do project one. Well anyway its all over and results will be release later so hope our grp will do well. I PRAY HARD HARD!!!

Well this week also went to help out at the Blood donation drive and i made a new fren or two but since archery is going to start soon i'll meet one of them there too coz she sign up too. But it was really a conicidence coz i was just tokking bout me seeing a only a gal's name on the list before i sign up. She turn out to be that gal. Er........ dunno if you know wat i tokking about lah coz i also dunno wat i tokking about haha. sleepy liao but brain still kinda active haha.

Well beside crapping on the BDD i also recieve my sociology, clinical theory and psychology test results. Aiyo so scary coz dunno do well anot but than still okay lah. Got B- , C and B+ respectively. thought will do worst but at least still got Bs. Haha wait till my bioscience result come out than can faint coz freak out during the test which means i wun do well. Haiz anyway must JIA YOU for the sememster exam than try t get many As as possible but Bs also can lah but I still prefer As haha. Weird me. Well thats bout all this week bah. Actually wanna go out buy clothes but dunno will be too tired anot coz last week i was burn out not by tennis but by the sun. got a tan and fever and cough. This is all thanx to the SUN. haiz........

Thats bout it bah. Will update again. Oh ya! just wanna add that bitch from my klass i think got her retribution liao coz heard that her psychology and clinical din do well. her clinical got a BIG FAT 'F'. Well that day poke her nose into my conversation wif my fren than say me. Damn her man. I only saying din do well coz i wanna a A for my sociology than say that' you must make sure is an achievable grade.' Wah liao her tone arh as if look down on me like i cannot get A. that moment really feel like slapping her.

Dun tok bout her liao make me angry only. TATA will update again.

Bothering matter.......

Haiz now is 2am already but still cannot sleep coz very bothered by what happen in sch today. Well is yesterday bah (friday). tell ppl not to be bothered liao but i can't seem to console myself. Guess that I'm actually really very the pissed off bah though i say I'm ok. I'm really feeling very pissed off man.ARGGGGGGGGGGGG............ really need to fa xie man. Feel like killing that BITCH. really regret not slapping her or scold her man.

Dunno how to say lah story so long. Haiz but feeling better liao coz now tokking to shermeen. hehe thats why dun feel like writing it out.Really needed to tok to someone b4 i go crazy. I there to confort ppl but no one to confort me :( haiz life is so weird.

Skills not lost...........

Today woke up at 8am than went to sch for my tennis lessons. Was kinda excited so din really slp. Well today had a fun time but not because of the rain it would be better. Anyway I'm glad that i still haf my tennis skills wif me. Haha and boy was i worried that i would suck but glad it turn out fine. The coach even saw through me that i played be4 hehe. Din tell anyone that i could play.Today the coach even told us that there is a novice competition every year so I was thinking that i should go brush up my skills than can go join. Tennis is the first sport that i like to play coz is i choose to learn and not like last time in pri sch i join netball coz both of my best fren are also in it, though i had alot of fun hehe. Well i hope i can go play in the competition coz it would be so fun. than the most important thing is that if you from sch team than no need to pay for the lessons haha. Money saver me HAHA! Oh guess wat, haha me not the only oversize person there. there is another gal who is even bigger than me hehe but i play better than her. Saw the way she played. BOY! she needs to put in alot and i mean alot of effort to master the game coz all her techniques even teach liao still not gd. Today overall the lesson not too bad and stuff. The coach still quite acceptable. So hope that for more lessons to come i would learn more things and improve on my skills.

Tomolo can go ZQ house to download the naruto show very excited hehe. this show very nice to watch so die also must watch. You guys must also go watch KK. highly recommended By MOI!!!!!

Enough crapping liao. haiz next week all the test coming up liao and I dun seem to haf finish studying or rather like dunno if i know the stuff anot. Haiz headache lah.
'TIAN AH, QIN GEI WO HENG DUO HENG DUO SHI JIAN BAH!!!!!!'

Wat up today!!!

Haiz just now wrote my 'essay of today' but accidently click something than all gone liao. haiz now dun feel like typing how i felt just now coz now already in a different mood. Well Today or should i say yesterday coz now is 2.09am liao. Anyway yesterday went for the BDD ( blood donation drive) briefing. It was nothing much. after awhile than can go home liao haiz waste time lucky i now paying concession or waste my bus fare money hehe. Well tennis lesson is on this saturday so kinda looking forward to it. hope that coach is gd or else i surely complain and make sure i get back my money. Tokking bout tennis how come the Archery club got no news from them haiz. Hope they call soon. really wanna learn archery.

Well today never study lah coz no mood which means i today haf to study extra haha. Oh... came across this webbie and is one place that i wanna visit .........ROME!!!!!!! esp the famous trevi fountain. It looks so cool and beautiful. Wow this two words doesn't seen to match but who cares haha.

This is the famous fountain



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Love to visit this place one day. Mayb after my degree bah haha!!
Thats all for today Sayanora!!!!!

LOng Week

Wow long time no post liao. Hehe this whole week busy wif the study of my bioscience coz so many things to study but nothing went to my brain. Today quite happy coz found a new way of studying the bioscience and will remember it so hope can finish studying it b4 the test.

This whole week rather long coz on holiday. Everyday slp at around 3-4am than wake up in the afternoon haha. better get rid of this habit or else sch reopen die liao. haha. Haiz this week also very boring coz never go out or anything except for my csc orientation and boy was it fun. ppl there are really nice and friendly and i like it haha. wekk tokking bout cca, my tennis lessons starts next saturday liao somemore must pay money haiz but want to learn so wat to do still haf to pay. Hope will haf a fun time during the lessons. but i bet all the ppl there will be all skinny freaks while i'm the only fat ass there haha. mayb after all the lessons than mayb will skim down too haha but i guess not haha. Well lucky one of my klassmate is also joining so not so bad wun be lonely.

Well thats bout it bah nothing much to write also coz everyday stay home and pass out. haha.

found this on the web. dunno if you guys read it be4 but i found it touching so here goes.........



I was born in a secluded village of a mountain. Days by days my parents plowed the yellow dry soil with their backs facing the sky. I have a younger brother, 3 years younger than me. Once, to buy a handkerchief which all girls around me seemed to have, I stole 50 cents from my father's drawer. Father known about it right away. He made my younger brother and me kneeled against the wall, with a bamboo stick in his hand. "Who stole the money?" he asked. I was stunned, too afraid to talk. Father didn't hear any of us admit, so he said, "Fine, if nobody wants to admit, you two should be beaten!" He lifted up the bamboo stick. Suddenly, my younger brother gripped father's hand and said," Dad, I was the one who did it!" The long stick smacked on my brother's back repeatedly. Father was so angry that he kept on whipped my brother until he lost his breath. After that, he sat down on our stone bed and scolded my brother, "You have learnt to steal from your own house now, what other embarrassing things you will do in the future?? You should be beaten to death! You shameless thief!" That night, mother and I hugged my brother. His body full of injuries, but he didn't shed a single tear. In the middle of the night, all of sudden I cried out loudly. My brother covered my mouth with his little hand and said, " Sis, now don't cry anymore. Everything has happened." I still hate myself for didn't have enough courage to admit what I had done. Years gone by, but the incident still looked like it just happened yesterday. I will never forget my brother's expression when he protected me. That year, my brother was 8 years old; I was 11 years old. When my brother was in his last year of his lower secondary school, he was accepted in an upper secondary school in the central. At the same time, I was accepted into a province's university. That night, father squatted in the yard, smoking, packet by packet. I could hear him said, "Both our children have good results? very good results?" Mother wiped off her tears and sighed," What is the use? How can we possibly finance both of them?" At that time, my brother walked out, he stood in front of father and said, "Dad, I don't want to continue my study anymore, I have read enough books." Father swung his hand and slapped brother on his face. "Why do you have a spirit so damn weak? Even if it means I have to beg for money on the streets, I will send you two to school until you both finish your study!" And then, he started to knock on every house in the village to borrow money. I stuck out my hand as soft as I can to my brother's swollen face, and said, "A boy has to continue his study; If not, he will not be able to leave this depths of poverty." Me, on the other hand, had decided not to further my study to university. Who knows on the next day, before dawn, my brother left the house with a few pieces of worn-out clothes and a few dry beans. He sneaked to the side of my bed and left a note on my pillow; "Sis, get into an university is not easy. I will go find a job and send money to you." I held the note while sitting on my bed, and cried until I lost my voice. That year, my brother was 17 years old; I was 20 years old. With the money father borrowed from the whole village, and money my brother earned from carrying cement on his back at construction site, finally, I managed carrying cement on his back at construction site, finally, I managed to get to the third year of my study in the university. One day, I was studying in my room, when my roommate came in and told me, "There's a villager wait for you outside!" Why is there a villager looking for me? I walked out, and saw my brother from afar, His whole body is dirty, covered by dust, cement and sands. I asked him, "Why don't you tell my roommate that you are my brother?" He replied with a smile," Look at my appearance. What will they think if they know that I am your brother? Don't they laugh at you?" I felt so touched, and tears filled my eyes. I swept away dusts from my brother's body. And said with a lump in my throat, " I don't care of what people say! You are my brother no matter what your appearance is?" From his pocket, he took out a butterfly hair clip. He wore it on me, and said, "I saw all the girls in town are wearing it. So, I think you should also have one." I could not hold back myself anymore. I pulled my brother into my arms and cried and cried. That year, my brother was 20 years old; I was 23 years old. The first time I brought my boyfriend home, the broken window had been repaired. And it looked so clean inside the house. After, my boyfriend went home, I danced like a small girl in front of my mother, "Mom, you don't have to spend so many time cleaning the house!" But she said with a smile," It was your brother who went home early to clean the house. Didn't you see the wound on his hand? He was injured while replacing the window." I went into my brother's small bedroom. Looking at his thin face, I felt like there are hundreds of needles pricked in my heart. I put some ointment on his wound and bandaged it, "Does it hurt? " I asked him. "No, it doesn't hurt. You know, when I was working in the construction site, stones falling on my feet all the time. Even that could not stop me from working and?" In the middle of the sentence, he stopped. I turned my back on him and tears rolling down my face. That year, my brother was 23 years old; I was 26 years old. After I got married, I lived in the city. Lots of time my husband invited my parents to come and live with us, but they didn't want. They said, once they left the village,they didn't know what to do. My brother also didn't agree, he said, "Sis, you just taking care of your parents-in-law. I will take care of mom and dad here." My husband became the director of his factory. We wanted my brother to get the job as the manager in the department of maintenance. But, my brother rejected the offer. He insisted on starting to work as a reparation worker. One day, my brother was on the top of a ladder repairing a cable, when he got electrocuted, and was sent to the hospital. My husband and I visited him. Looked at the white gypsum on his leg, I grumbled, "Why did you reject to be a manager? Manager will not do something dangerous like this. Look at you now, such a serious injury. Why you didn't want to listen to us?" With a serious expression on his face, he defended on his decision, "Think of brother-in-law?he just became the director, and I almost uneducated. If I became the manager, what kind of rumors will fly around?" My husband's eyes filled up with tears, and then I said, "But you lack in education also because of me!" "Why talking about the past?" My brother held my hand. That year, he was 26 years old and I was 29 years old My brother was 30 years old when he married a farmer girl from the village. In his wedding reception, the master of ceremonies asked him, "Who is the one you respect and love the most?" Without thinking, he answered," My sister." He continued by telling a story I could not even remember. "When I was in primary school, the school was in different village. Everyday, my sister and I walked for 2 hours to go school and go home. One day, I lost one of my pair of gloves. My sister gave me one of hers. She only wore one glove and walked for so far. When we got home, her hand was so trembled because of the weather that was so cold that she could not even hold her chopsticks. From that day on, I swore that as long as I live, I would take care of my sister and be good to her." Applause filled up the room. All guests turned their attentions to me. Words were so hard to come out from my mouth, "In my whole life, the one I would like to thank the most is my brother," And in this happy occasion, in front of the crowd, tears rolling down my face again. Love and care for the one you love every single days of your life. You may think what you did is just a small deed, but to that someone, it may mean a lot. May this story inspire you in any way!