Next week will be the start of my clincal practical and theory test. well hope that nothing goes wrong tml for my practical and pray i get a nice lecturer to test me on my skills. Kinda feeling the stress already. Having to fail once before make me feel nervous everytime there is a test on clinical skills.
Oh well nothing much happen this week at all. still the same old things happening. Boring lectures, me slping through it haha. This sem i rather prefer tutorials coz they are more interesting and the lecturers are more fun and interesting though i dunreally like the module on mental coz its always bout self concept and bah bah bah. We always haf to tok bout our self or say our strength and weakness. feel its rather stupid. the best thing is that stupid gal bullshit so much that i am this and that kind of person and blah blah blah. haha actaully wanted to tell her that i only treat her like that coz she started it first haha but after that i in. Well anyway if ppl wanna go believe her than its my fortune that they are not my frens haha coz knowing someone is bout going to interact and feel it for urself wat kind a person one is haha. And most imptly is that when you are having an issue wif someone, ur comment wil always be biased. so watever haha.
Now i remb something interesting happen this week. As usual i was slping in the mrt while on my way to sch. Than while the train was about to reach YCK i open my eyes and it was like OMG there is this gal standing in front of me wearing so little at her top and she was about to be expose on the top. K coz she is short so when i'm just sitting up than its like just infront of me wahaha. early morning see such things. She wanna wear so little than she should go stand in front of a guy and not infront of me. slp hafway than open eyes first thing see such things haha!!!!!!
Anyway to zq sry arh i can't help you with ur presentation stuff coz i really haf no idea wat it is all bout. all i could do was to help you rephrase ur sentance and check the grammar thingie. Anyway work hard for ur attachment!!!!!!!!
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Weird Dream
Weird Dream
Had a weird dream last nite haha!!! It gave me a funny yet sweet feeling and it felt weird at the same time haha!!!!! sounds funny anyway. This is something that will never ever happen in real life mayb thats why in my dream i ran away from it. Am i really running away from this problem that is really really deep in my heart that i'm keeping it away????? 'pondering'........ Well anyway its a memory to be kept in me for now wahaha!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday i realize that i'm a person who cannot make goals in life coz i think 99% it will be a failure haha so i guess i would stop thinking that i would want a GPA of 3 and above and just do my best haha!!!!!!! coz i feel that i'm lazier that last sem which is like bad news coz ;ast sem i was lazier than the previous one haha!!!! though i made an improvment to like do all my tutorials during the wkends and a little studying and i do mean little haha coz i'm always distracted by the lappy ( my all time distraction esp during exam peroids) so guess no more goals to meet already but just do my best. Actually hor i did noe that i'm one that cannot make goals coz i never seem to meet the goals haha but why do i actually still bother wahaha!!!!!! weird!!!!!!
okay thats bout it nothing much to update actually coz i'm always in sch or watching tv or slping already so is like no life at the moment wahaha!!!!!!!!
ohya forget to add that i've been watching naruto on youtube. so shoick all those episodes that i din catch wahaha!!!!! in 2 nites i watch episodes 160 to 185. now i'm waiting for 186 to be airred in japan and be uploaded in youtube wahaha!!!!! Yeah tonite got ai qing mo fa shi!!!!!!!!! cannot wait for it haha !!!!!!!!!! See how to study leh when there is so many nice shows going on wahaha!!!!!! well i will find some time one. Guess this is than me!!! always rushing only when exams is approaching haha!!!!!! last mintue me and somemore this time round i'm in charge of one ICA in week 8 and week 7 i got theory and practical test DIE!! and its wk 6 already haha!!!
Had a weird dream last nite haha!!! It gave me a funny yet sweet feeling and it felt weird at the same time haha!!!!! sounds funny anyway. This is something that will never ever happen in real life mayb thats why in my dream i ran away from it. Am i really running away from this problem that is really really deep in my heart that i'm keeping it away????? 'pondering'........ Well anyway its a memory to be kept in me for now wahaha!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday i realize that i'm a person who cannot make goals in life coz i think 99% it will be a failure haha so i guess i would stop thinking that i would want a GPA of 3 and above and just do my best haha!!!!!!! coz i feel that i'm lazier that last sem which is like bad news coz ;ast sem i was lazier than the previous one haha!!!! though i made an improvment to like do all my tutorials during the wkends and a little studying and i do mean little haha coz i'm always distracted by the lappy ( my all time distraction esp during exam peroids) so guess no more goals to meet already but just do my best. Actually hor i did noe that i'm one that cannot make goals coz i never seem to meet the goals haha but why do i actually still bother wahaha!!!!!! weird!!!!!!
okay thats bout it nothing much to update actually coz i'm always in sch or watching tv or slping already so is like no life at the moment wahaha!!!!!!!!
ohya forget to add that i've been watching naruto on youtube. so shoick all those episodes that i din catch wahaha!!!!! in 2 nites i watch episodes 160 to 185. now i'm waiting for 186 to be airred in japan and be uploaded in youtube wahaha!!!!! Yeah tonite got ai qing mo fa shi!!!!!!!!! cannot wait for it haha !!!!!!!!!! See how to study leh when there is so many nice shows going on wahaha!!!!!! well i will find some time one. Guess this is than me!!! always rushing only when exams is approaching haha!!!!!! last mintue me and somemore this time round i'm in charge of one ICA in week 8 and week 7 i got theory and practical test DIE!! and its wk 6 already haha!!!
Friday, May 12, 2006
sick sick
Sick Sick
Haiz this morning wake up than felt feverish. Check temp than it was 37.8. WOW i long time never had fever till 37.8. the most is like 37.5-6. Anyway when to my mum and told her i wanna see doctor. now schooling and with so many ICAS to go cannot be sick to miss klass but how ironic coz i've been skipping bio lectures. that part time lecture we got for this coming 3 weeks sux!!! Anyway at the doctor my temp went up to 37.9. HAHA!!!!! surprisingly i dun feel that uncomfortable to the extend to match my high fever. ANyway it was just a common cold. its flu and decongestion. stomach flu i think. haha !!! i just took my medicine so now cannot think rite already. feeling very floaty if u now wat i mean haha
Anyway Sry to ZQ coz i was suppose to meet her today to go out but haf to cancel it. Din expect myself to be sick in just one nite haha!!!!! though i was having sore throat the nite b4. Anyway will be going out tomolo instead. i should be feeling fine enough to go out bah. so must slp early liao or else tomolo haf to cancel again and i dun want coz i got no other time to get things done liao haha!!!!!!!! Will be busy studying for tests liao. going to slp now byebye
Haiz this morning wake up than felt feverish. Check temp than it was 37.8. WOW i long time never had fever till 37.8. the most is like 37.5-6. Anyway when to my mum and told her i wanna see doctor. now schooling and with so many ICAS to go cannot be sick to miss klass but how ironic coz i've been skipping bio lectures. that part time lecture we got for this coming 3 weeks sux!!! Anyway at the doctor my temp went up to 37.9. HAHA!!!!! surprisingly i dun feel that uncomfortable to the extend to match my high fever. ANyway it was just a common cold. its flu and decongestion. stomach flu i think. haha !!! i just took my medicine so now cannot think rite already. feeling very floaty if u now wat i mean haha
Anyway Sry to ZQ coz i was suppose to meet her today to go out but haf to cancel it. Din expect myself to be sick in just one nite haha!!!!! though i was having sore throat the nite b4. Anyway will be going out tomolo instead. i should be feeling fine enough to go out bah. so must slp early liao or else tomolo haf to cancel again and i dun want coz i got no other time to get things done liao haha!!!!!!!! Will be busy studying for tests liao. going to slp now byebye
Thursday, May 11, 2006
can't slp
Can't Sleep
Damn IT!!!!!!!! its almost 2am but i still so wide awake. Guess wat i haf to wake up at 6am somemore. Guess i would be slping in lectures again haha!!!!!!!! haiz....... This whole week feeling so sianz and i think i hafing a drastic mood swing problem liao or i guess its actually i facing a problem that i dunno how to tell that person wahaha!!!!!! I guess i need a change of environment already or else i might just go mad!!!!!! AND I REALLY MEAN MAD!!!!!!!! Lucky yesterday zq saw mi during lunch and came over to tok or else i think i might haf gone mad rite after lunch break haha!!!!!! sound so serious but i think it is bah coz going crazy is serious haha!!!!!! I think i sound crazy too !!!!!!! CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY!!!!!!!!! i think i really going crazy!!!! i guess trying to protect myself too much and by having so many secrets is a bad thing afterall!!!!!!! its like cannot say this say that and its so troublesome hafing to think so much b4 you open ur mouth!!!!!!!! haiz really sianz lah so thats why we are having a update rite now to pour out all my problems haha!!!!!!!!! SIANZ SIANZ SIANZ the most sianz is that i can't contactthe person in charge of my VTP allowance. how can they shortchange me!!!!!! I work hard during VTP so cannot gif me stupid reasons to shortchange me i will fight back for it wahaha!!!!!!!!! Another sianz thing is that haiz this month i seem to be spending too much liao haha and i got some stuff i wanna buy too haha!!!!!!!!! and so many ppl BDAE!!!!!! mayb i should not bother bout their bdae haha afterall they din bother with mine !!!!!!!!! haha sound so xiao qi but who cares!!!!!!!! OK something interesting yest happen which is zq told me that her fren was so sad for one whole day coz i online scold her biased, shallowminded and ask her not to bullshit haha ( go read zq msn blog on her nafa. i made a comment.) Anyway it was so funny!!!!!!! Well i find it funny!!!!!!! OKay that was the joke of the day !!!!!!!!! Recently i began to really like 183 club haha think must be coz of their song in Ai Qing Mo FA SHi its damn nice lor!!!!! its super nice wahaha!!!! love it !!!!!!!! anyway the show is bloody nice too lor haha!!!!!! every week can;t wait for sunday so can dl the show!!!!!!!!!! and ming dao so handsome and shao wei too in that show haha!!! so cool looking !!!!!!!!!! i think i going to find their poster and take done the wilber and shang wei poster that is on my wall now haha!!!!!!! But i still like he junxiang best !!!!!!!!! Anyway hope taiwan would show more gd shows like devil beside you and ai qing mo fa shi. really nice lor and i totally love it!!!!!!! i think i crazy liao coz never leave paragraph haha!!!!! who cares!!!!!! crazy ppl do crazy things!!!!!!!!! haiz next week need to really start practising my clinicla skills already coz week 7 got skill and theory test. Second yr really very hard lor actaully is like i dun get wat is going on in klass or mayb coz most of the time i'm slping haha but the lecturers are really boring. i haf already gone to the extend of listening to the ragio and slp and listening to the lecture tok all at the same time haha!!!!!!!!! doing 3 things at the same time haha!!!!!! i must be crazy!!!!!!! i guess this entry must be long enough liao haha just the whole week haha !!!!!!!!! or mayb till i'm feeling sianz or cannot slp or crazy again than wil update to crap all day long again!!!!! till then!!!!!!! and i still can't slp!!!!
Damn IT!!!!!!!! its almost 2am but i still so wide awake. Guess wat i haf to wake up at 6am somemore. Guess i would be slping in lectures again haha!!!!!!!! haiz....... This whole week feeling so sianz and i think i hafing a drastic mood swing problem liao or i guess its actually i facing a problem that i dunno how to tell that person wahaha!!!!!! I guess i need a change of environment already or else i might just go mad!!!!!! AND I REALLY MEAN MAD!!!!!!!! Lucky yesterday zq saw mi during lunch and came over to tok or else i think i might haf gone mad rite after lunch break haha!!!!!! sound so serious but i think it is bah coz going crazy is serious haha!!!!!! I think i sound crazy too !!!!!!! CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY!!!!!!!!! i think i really going crazy!!!! i guess trying to protect myself too much and by having so many secrets is a bad thing afterall!!!!!!! its like cannot say this say that and its so troublesome hafing to think so much b4 you open ur mouth!!!!!!!! haiz really sianz lah so thats why we are having a update rite now to pour out all my problems haha!!!!!!!!! SIANZ SIANZ SIANZ the most sianz is that i can't contactthe person in charge of my VTP allowance. how can they shortchange me!!!!!! I work hard during VTP so cannot gif me stupid reasons to shortchange me i will fight back for it wahaha!!!!!!!!! Another sianz thing is that haiz this month i seem to be spending too much liao haha and i got some stuff i wanna buy too haha!!!!!!!!! and so many ppl BDAE!!!!!! mayb i should not bother bout their bdae haha afterall they din bother with mine !!!!!!!!! haha sound so xiao qi but who cares!!!!!!!! OK something interesting yest happen which is zq told me that her fren was so sad for one whole day coz i online scold her biased, shallowminded and ask her not to bullshit haha ( go read zq msn blog on her nafa. i made a comment.) Anyway it was so funny!!!!!!! Well i find it funny!!!!!!! OKay that was the joke of the day !!!!!!!!! Recently i began to really like 183 club haha think must be coz of their song in Ai Qing Mo FA SHi its damn nice lor!!!!! its super nice wahaha!!!! love it !!!!!!!! anyway the show is bloody nice too lor haha!!!!!! every week can;t wait for sunday so can dl the show!!!!!!!!!! and ming dao so handsome and shao wei too in that show haha!!! so cool looking !!!!!!!!!! i think i going to find their poster and take done the wilber and shang wei poster that is on my wall now haha!!!!!!! But i still like he junxiang best !!!!!!!!! Anyway hope taiwan would show more gd shows like devil beside you and ai qing mo fa shi. really nice lor and i totally love it!!!!!!! i think i crazy liao coz never leave paragraph haha!!!!! who cares!!!!!! crazy ppl do crazy things!!!!!!!!! haiz next week need to really start practising my clinicla skills already coz week 7 got skill and theory test. Second yr really very hard lor actaully is like i dun get wat is going on in klass or mayb coz most of the time i'm slping haha but the lecturers are really boring. i haf already gone to the extend of listening to the ragio and slp and listening to the lecture tok all at the same time haha!!!!!!!!! doing 3 things at the same time haha!!!!!! i must be crazy!!!!!!! i guess this entry must be long enough liao haha just the whole week haha !!!!!!!!! or mayb till i'm feeling sianz or cannot slp or crazy again than wil update to crap all day long again!!!!! till then!!!!!!! and i still can't slp!!!!
Sunday, May 07, 2006
wanna write something
Just feel like writing something.......
Suddenly just feel like writing something but wat should i write about...... ponder.......
.....still pondering......... Well nothing actually haha!!!! Just a moment ago i was just reading some ppl's blog coz got nothing better to do haha!!!! kinda sick of seeing my books and all those craps written on it haha!!!!!!!!! than suddenly the scene of Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi that Ming Dao say the xie ying of cherry is cherish. haha suddenly just haf this weird feeling in me!!!! Just feeling funny!!!! Must all those songs that i've been addicted to recently haha!!!!!!
LIfe is just so weird and funny at times...... there are like many up and downs but some ppl are just so fortunate to be free of the 'downs' while most are unlucky!!!! Sometimes i wonder why do those ppl who dun deserve any happiness at all are having it all but those who deserve it are not having any!!!!!!!! troubles and worries seem to also be around those who deserve happiness. Is this a obstacle that they haf to go through to find real happiness till death or its all just a joke. Is it true tat only 'evil' ppl gets the best of stuff and evil do truimph over good????
This is something i always wonder...... Everything around me seems to prove that this is true. I dun ever seem to see good truimph over evil. Is there really such a thing or is just human beings trying to make themself feel gd.
Suddenly something just strike me...... Recently i'm starting to feel that i do not know who i really am already. I'm like starting not to know wat kind of person am i anymore. I dun really like to tok already. even online. I use to have alot of stuff to tok about in the past but not anymore. Even to you guys i also dun tok much already and even more so to ppl that i only know for 1yr or so. Guess these few yrs i've been keeping too much to myself that made me not want to tok anymore. I just can't open up at all. Seeing ppl around me all opening up having that kind of relax feeling is also wat i want but i just can't be that!!!!! Is there something wrong with me???? or mayb i'm just not that kind but than why do i feel that it is wat i want???? The worst part is that i use to just shout at ppl that piss me off immedietely but now it seems that i just can't seem to do that anymore??? And boy trust me its damn frustrating when u wanna say it but u can't say it out. Is there something wrong with me???????? ANSWERS I NEED ANSWERS!!!!!!! haiz feeling so sad..... Who am i ????? Wat is the real me?????? Living in this pretenious world had made me lost my idenity already.
Mayb This is the time to look for ME!!!!!!!! Its should be somewhere out there i guess!!!!!!!
Suddenly just feel like writing something but wat should i write about...... ponder.......
.....still pondering......... Well nothing actually haha!!!! Just a moment ago i was just reading some ppl's blog coz got nothing better to do haha!!!! kinda sick of seeing my books and all those craps written on it haha!!!!!!!!! than suddenly the scene of Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi that Ming Dao say the xie ying of cherry is cherish. haha suddenly just haf this weird feeling in me!!!! Just feeling funny!!!! Must all those songs that i've been addicted to recently haha!!!!!!
LIfe is just so weird and funny at times...... there are like many up and downs but some ppl are just so fortunate to be free of the 'downs' while most are unlucky!!!! Sometimes i wonder why do those ppl who dun deserve any happiness at all are having it all but those who deserve it are not having any!!!!!!!! troubles and worries seem to also be around those who deserve happiness. Is this a obstacle that they haf to go through to find real happiness till death or its all just a joke. Is it true tat only 'evil' ppl gets the best of stuff and evil do truimph over good????
This is something i always wonder...... Everything around me seems to prove that this is true. I dun ever seem to see good truimph over evil. Is there really such a thing or is just human beings trying to make themself feel gd.
Suddenly something just strike me...... Recently i'm starting to feel that i do not know who i really am already. I'm like starting not to know wat kind of person am i anymore. I dun really like to tok already. even online. I use to have alot of stuff to tok about in the past but not anymore. Even to you guys i also dun tok much already and even more so to ppl that i only know for 1yr or so. Guess these few yrs i've been keeping too much to myself that made me not want to tok anymore. I just can't open up at all. Seeing ppl around me all opening up having that kind of relax feeling is also wat i want but i just can't be that!!!!! Is there something wrong with me???? or mayb i'm just not that kind but than why do i feel that it is wat i want???? The worst part is that i use to just shout at ppl that piss me off immedietely but now it seems that i just can't seem to do that anymore??? And boy trust me its damn frustrating when u wanna say it but u can't say it out. Is there something wrong with me???????? ANSWERS I NEED ANSWERS!!!!!!! haiz feeling so sad..... Who am i ????? Wat is the real me?????? Living in this pretenious world had made me lost my idenity already.
Mayb This is the time to look for ME!!!!!!!! Its should be somewhere out there i guess!!!!!!!
Thursday, May 04, 2006
long time no update
Long time no update!!!!
Just came back from chalet yesterday. Although it was only 2 days one nite but boy was i tired. I even skip one lecture to go slp in the library haha!!!! Anyway I had fun haha and we also play mahjong. and i even won 1 game all by myself haha with no help at all. OKay why so happy just one game but at least i did it myself since i only just learned how to play recently only. One of my fren is like really gd with mahjong. She keep on winning!!! and i do mean every hand ok haha!! All of us were like WOW!!! haha!!!
Anyway it was FUN FUN FUN!!! had so much laughter haha!!! When i reach home yesterday i spent the whole nite slping haha!!! i can really slp. Skip lecture to slp, wait for joson to go see coach also slp than at home slp b4 dinner and after dinner slp again from bout 745 to 6am haha!! PLS call me the slping queen!!! WAHAHA!!!!!!
If wanna see pics can msn me coz of some reasons lah!!!!! okok need to go look for info for ICA liao. UPdate again when i haf things to update !!!!!!!!! haha mayb on sunday after attending wendy bdae party haha!!!!!!!! mayb only!!!!!!!
Just came back from chalet yesterday. Although it was only 2 days one nite but boy was i tired. I even skip one lecture to go slp in the library haha!!!! Anyway I had fun haha and we also play mahjong. and i even won 1 game all by myself haha with no help at all. OKay why so happy just one game but at least i did it myself since i only just learned how to play recently only. One of my fren is like really gd with mahjong. She keep on winning!!! and i do mean every hand ok haha!! All of us were like WOW!!! haha!!!
Anyway it was FUN FUN FUN!!! had so much laughter haha!!! When i reach home yesterday i spent the whole nite slping haha!!! i can really slp. Skip lecture to slp, wait for joson to go see coach also slp than at home slp b4 dinner and after dinner slp again from bout 745 to 6am haha!! PLS call me the slping queen!!! WAHAHA!!!!!!
If wanna see pics can msn me coz of some reasons lah!!!!! okok need to go look for info for ICA liao. UPdate again when i haf things to update !!!!!!!!! haha mayb on sunday after attending wendy bdae party haha!!!!!!!! mayb only!!!!!!!
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