Yippie Holidays are finally here. Well just only a few weeks but alot of stuff haf been going on. Sometimes it really makes me wonder am i just a heartless person or just a strong person. So many things going on in my mind but somehow it does not really affect me at all as in my normal daily life and how normal i am with all those crap things going on. It really makes me wonder???
*ponder*
*ponder*
*ponder*
Anyway great that attachments are over already. Really felt the strain esp the 1st 2 weeks of it coz those teams were bloody busy busy esp team 2. everyday go home late. haiz... Lucky me that my last week i was in team 3, the most slack team haha!!! Well last day of attachment many things happen and it was really havoc ( i tink its spelt this way) One stuff almost got injured due to violent and metally ill patient and another stuff and me were so unlucky to meet a metally ill and perverted patient. Really damn scared for the first time. worst than meeting a violent patient. This time attachment beside being almost beaten by a patient which is like a norm to me already haha!!! Me always finding trouble. Go help my fren to calm the patient down and always ended up being almost beaten up haha!!! another thing tis time round is meeting a pervert and somemore mentally ill patient. I really had to keep my distance and be bloody fierce to him haha!!!
Anyway this time round attachment i was also praised by patient hehe so not too bad. alot of things happen lah which is an experience and also learn alot of medical stuff which i haben hear b4 in other wards so can say got harvest hehe!!!!
Guess wat. this time attachment the yr 1 gal i was paired up with is my brother pri and sec sch fren and klassmate. So 'qiao'. the world really small haha!!! somehow i now noe ppl that are also linked with my 2 other brothers. The world really small haha!!!!!!!! this time attachment can say it was not bad. learn new things see new things and get to noe nice ppl as in the yr 1 coz the yr 2 ppl i already know them. I think i really lucky everytime attachment get to work with nice ppl. Even this time round all the stuff are nice. not even one is bad as in other wards where there is like a black sheep. Lucky!!!!!
Anyway this time round got funny stories to tell. told my mum bout it and she kept on laughing hehe but she also worried. Well she only know bout the perverted patient but not the violent one. Dun really dare to tell her bout it scare she worry too much. Perverted patient in ward can still be prevented but violent pt reaction is instant. I think if i'm going to con't nursing than mayb i need to take up some self defence klasses liao coz i everytime so 'lucky'.HAHA!!!!!!
At this point of time i still thinking how to tell my mum i wanna go for a vacation oversea. So many factors to worry and think about before i tell her. Mayb might not even tell her. haiz... really very vexing. Its something i wanna do since O lvl but coz of so many things going on so din go for it!!!!
Just now go to the kbox website and found out that they increase charges all by 2 bucks haiz... .. 2 bucks alot leh so sad!!!! Anyway next week i might go rebond my hair. really cannot stand the mess. haiz din wanna go rebond my hair but looks like i haf to hehe and i also wanna go change new hairstyle too but still dunno cut to wat kind and which salon to go too. one is rebond the outcome i like but the stylist there got no opinion on how they should cut hair whereas the other one they cut hair that suit ppl but i dunno if their rebond gd anot. and also the price must go ask them how much and see see.
Before the last day which is the second last day of attachment i read something which kinda shock me. Well i know noe that person is a very self centered person esp when it come to grades but din expect her to be so selfish and horrible to that extend. really very sad case. Well she is like going to be outside my list of ppl i dun wanna tok to unless needed. Really put me off that coz of wat she did and put other ppl in serious trouble. and i do mean serious. She really is a black sheep. Pity her bf lah only saw her that so call gd side bah. or well mayb her bf also like that haha!!!! i dunno and dun care anyway!!!!!!! Anyway my loud speaker mouth only told the aunty from my klas and she also really shock!!!!!!! Really find it shocking.
Anyway i think i just going to do the usual holiday things i do and try to find other activities too.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Friday, February 23, 2007
Exams are over!!!
Well exams are finally over. Beein slping only in the mornings coz can only study and absorb well in the nite. Well just hope can pull through this sem coz ever since that F i got, somehow got ying yin already. I only need to pull through to year 3 regardless how many Ds i have to get.
Well today as usual went to take the exam with only bout 30 mins of slp. Was totally dead today felt so breathless that i kept on breathing so hard and loud esp in the exam hall that i had to control my breathing. Anyway coz was too tired and felt as if my soul had left me so din go for klass gathering. i was really like a walking zombie!!! In the MRT i felt like a mad woman sitting in the train staring in spaces and just playing with my earphones. Anyway at least is all over liao.
After the mental torture now is the physical torture. Attachment next week onwards. no life for the next 3 weeks. Wanted to go out tomolo but well there was a change of plans with ppl. Guess i will just stay home to rot and watch all my vcds i borrow from my aunt during the new year. Its kinda like a tradition for me to borrow vcds from my aunt haha!!!
Mayb i should just get out of the house on saturday. hehe!!! need to just walk around and walk around!!! and mayb should go settle some debt thingie too. haiz... really hate asking ppl to return me money!!! FAN SI LE!!!!
Anyway CNY this year was like normal but sadly coz it was also exam period so was like studying at the same tome too and the worst thing is eat too much liao. At my aunt's place i was like eating and eating and eating esp the bak kwa hehe but i also ate alot of honeydew yum yum!!! and wat else did i eat.......... hm..................... love letters, one mango jelly and 2 bottle of soft drinks. At home while studying ate a few piece of love letters the choc flavour kind, those little sponge cake thingie and ate oranges too. well so much of eating!! well lucky my nursing uniform can still fit in haha!!! Well hope i get to kill myself physically during attachment than can lose some weight coz really dun like to go running. haha
Just finish watching HEROES but stil very much awake. Guess the slping disorder is getting into me liao. 3am soon but still very much alive!!! lalalala lalalallalala LALA land pls come and get me !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well today as usual went to take the exam with only bout 30 mins of slp. Was totally dead today felt so breathless that i kept on breathing so hard and loud esp in the exam hall that i had to control my breathing. Anyway coz was too tired and felt as if my soul had left me so din go for klass gathering. i was really like a walking zombie!!! In the MRT i felt like a mad woman sitting in the train staring in spaces and just playing with my earphones. Anyway at least is all over liao.
After the mental torture now is the physical torture. Attachment next week onwards. no life for the next 3 weeks. Wanted to go out tomolo but well there was a change of plans with ppl. Guess i will just stay home to rot and watch all my vcds i borrow from my aunt during the new year. Its kinda like a tradition for me to borrow vcds from my aunt haha!!!
Mayb i should just get out of the house on saturday. hehe!!! need to just walk around and walk around!!! and mayb should go settle some debt thingie too. haiz... really hate asking ppl to return me money!!! FAN SI LE!!!!
Anyway CNY this year was like normal but sadly coz it was also exam period so was like studying at the same tome too and the worst thing is eat too much liao. At my aunt's place i was like eating and eating and eating esp the bak kwa hehe but i also ate alot of honeydew yum yum!!! and wat else did i eat.......... hm..................... love letters, one mango jelly and 2 bottle of soft drinks. At home while studying ate a few piece of love letters the choc flavour kind, those little sponge cake thingie and ate oranges too. well so much of eating!! well lucky my nursing uniform can still fit in haha!!! Well hope i get to kill myself physically during attachment than can lose some weight coz really dun like to go running. haha
Just finish watching HEROES but stil very much awake. Guess the slping disorder is getting into me liao. 3am soon but still very much alive!!! lalalala lalalallalala LALA land pls come and get me !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, February 17, 2007
future ahead
Well its now 4.47am as i'm typing this. Well coz haf been studying for exams so now slping hours are rather messed up. Well things at home are finalized and can only say its super bad luck lor and i hope that stupid idiot person will die in a horrible way. Study so must also no use coz no compassion at all and never see things with a coloured free mind and eyes stupid ass. hope he die like rite now. eat or drink wat will also choke and die and no one around to save him but see him die in suffering.
Well haf to adjust a liitle but i guess should be no problem for me. Sometimes i wonder am i unfeeling or wat coz actually dun really feel anything or mayb coz i am prepared for the outcome already or mayb coz it exam week so i kinda void myself from all feeling thus to less disturb my state of mind. HAIZ!!! mayb just becoming unfeeling.
Well on thursday sat for my 2nd last paper and again went to sit for paper without slping erm... well i did slp for an hour hehe!! anyway after that came back to slp and was like lazing around the house after that coz really need a break off my book for a while. I was like so crazy with my book for 3-4 days to prepare the 2 papers. Well of course got take a break to watch SHI SHEN by the 5566 zax wang. the show so so only lah but some part nice to watch.
HAHA crumble to temptation on thursday nite and started to watch HUA YANG SHAO NIAN SHAO NU. haha BAD me!!!! so tempting cannot stop watching at all. and just now somemore just finish watching the 13th episode. Now going to wait again for another few weeks before watching it again or mayb wait for it to finish than watch or just watch it from channel u on the 14th ep. haha !!!!!!!!! haiz these 2 years arh taiwan has been producing shows that are super nice to watch. like devil by my side, it started with a kiss, wei xiao pasta and now hana kimi. really can die watching all these gd shows haha!!!!!!
Well one more paper to go liao hope i am able to focus and study for it coz this paper is super impt to me to pass it well coz my that 35% was a F so need to make it real gd to get back my C grade. Actaully been thinking wat i wanna go with my future. After come out isit wanna con't nursing or change to another course. Went to MDIS site and saw that my nursing dip can take up their biomedical degree but the modules in there are like bio bio and more bio somehting that i dun really like. haiz...... but also thought of taking up psychology but dunno next time can do wat coz i'm rather gd in this module that i'm taking rite now. i understand the concept easily. haiz..... so confusing or should i just stick to my original plan leh... ... if got money than most probaly i would have pursue my dreams liao but sadly no money so equals to no tok liao!!!!!!!! so in a dilemma ( wrong spelling i think who cares!!!!! ) haiz going to yr 3 than now start to sway away from my intended choice of route in life. well actually i just wana find a job that i like to do and pay well thats all!! FAN SI LE!!!!!!!!!!
Well haf to adjust a liitle but i guess should be no problem for me. Sometimes i wonder am i unfeeling or wat coz actually dun really feel anything or mayb coz i am prepared for the outcome already or mayb coz it exam week so i kinda void myself from all feeling thus to less disturb my state of mind. HAIZ!!! mayb just becoming unfeeling.
Well on thursday sat for my 2nd last paper and again went to sit for paper without slping erm... well i did slp for an hour hehe!! anyway after that came back to slp and was like lazing around the house after that coz really need a break off my book for a while. I was like so crazy with my book for 3-4 days to prepare the 2 papers. Well of course got take a break to watch SHI SHEN by the 5566 zax wang. the show so so only lah but some part nice to watch.
HAHA crumble to temptation on thursday nite and started to watch HUA YANG SHAO NIAN SHAO NU. haha BAD me!!!! so tempting cannot stop watching at all. and just now somemore just finish watching the 13th episode. Now going to wait again for another few weeks before watching it again or mayb wait for it to finish than watch or just watch it from channel u on the 14th ep. haha !!!!!!!!! haiz these 2 years arh taiwan has been producing shows that are super nice to watch. like devil by my side, it started with a kiss, wei xiao pasta and now hana kimi. really can die watching all these gd shows haha!!!!!!
Well one more paper to go liao hope i am able to focus and study for it coz this paper is super impt to me to pass it well coz my that 35% was a F so need to make it real gd to get back my C grade. Actaully been thinking wat i wanna go with my future. After come out isit wanna con't nursing or change to another course. Went to MDIS site and saw that my nursing dip can take up their biomedical degree but the modules in there are like bio bio and more bio somehting that i dun really like. haiz...... but also thought of taking up psychology but dunno next time can do wat coz i'm rather gd in this module that i'm taking rite now. i understand the concept easily. haiz..... so confusing or should i just stick to my original plan leh... ... if got money than most probaly i would have pursue my dreams liao but sadly no money so equals to no tok liao!!!!!!!! so in a dilemma ( wrong spelling i think who cares!!!!! ) haiz going to yr 3 than now start to sway away from my intended choice of route in life. well actually i just wana find a job that i like to do and pay well thats all!! FAN SI LE!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, January 01, 2007
2007
Oh well happy new year ppl!!! well hope its a gd year for you guys and everyone out there coz it wun be for me unless you got a few hundred thousand bucks to spare me than it might be a gd year than!!! oh well haha
oh well this year or rather last year its not really a gd year as compared to the previous. too many things happening and dun really like wat is going on. most memorable thing that went on was attachment and attachment and more attachment. frenship becoming stronger, breaking out and now i also not sure how its going but oh well juz taking it slow for now. I mean ppl do change. Well at least for me i think. trying to be a neutral person in klass dun wanna hate anyone or dislike anyone anymore coz its tiring and not worth it haha well it that is a gd change as in a growing mind or watever haha!!! Well nothing much going on beside bad stuff going on and stuff again!! oh well i juz hope this year i can pass and go to year 3 coz i'm really not in any mood to study. there is this fear in me of failing which is like no gd at all. I hate it when this feeling juz comes. it always pop by as and when it likes!!!
Well looking forward to the chalet thingie though. its like first time having a chalet with frens and juz frens only haha hope it does not rain and things goes smoothly although i haf to bring my books there to study (sad rite haha) due to tests coming up the following week!!
Well hope its a gd year for you all guys out there !!!!!!!
oh well this year or rather last year its not really a gd year as compared to the previous. too many things happening and dun really like wat is going on. most memorable thing that went on was attachment and attachment and more attachment. frenship becoming stronger, breaking out and now i also not sure how its going but oh well juz taking it slow for now. I mean ppl do change. Well at least for me i think. trying to be a neutral person in klass dun wanna hate anyone or dislike anyone anymore coz its tiring and not worth it haha well it that is a gd change as in a growing mind or watever haha!!! Well nothing much going on beside bad stuff going on and stuff again!! oh well i juz hope this year i can pass and go to year 3 coz i'm really not in any mood to study. there is this fear in me of failing which is like no gd at all. I hate it when this feeling juz comes. it always pop by as and when it likes!!!
Well looking forward to the chalet thingie though. its like first time having a chalet with frens and juz frens only haha hope it does not rain and things goes smoothly although i haf to bring my books there to study (sad rite haha) due to tests coming up the following week!!
Well hope its a gd year for you all guys out there !!!!!!!
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