Exams are over!!!

Well exams are finally over. Beein slping only in the mornings coz can only study and absorb well in the nite. Well just hope can pull through this sem coz ever since that F i got, somehow got ying yin already. I only need to pull through to year 3 regardless how many Ds i have to get.

Well today as usual went to take the exam with only bout 30 mins of slp. Was totally dead today felt so breathless that i kept on breathing so hard and loud esp in the exam hall that i had to control my breathing. Anyway coz was too tired and felt as if my soul had left me so din go for klass gathering. i was really like a walking zombie!!! In the MRT i felt like a mad woman sitting in the train staring in spaces and just playing with my earphones. Anyway at least is all over liao.

After the mental torture now is the physical torture. Attachment next week onwards. no life for the next 3 weeks. Wanted to go out tomolo but well there was a change of plans with ppl. Guess i will just stay home to rot and watch all my vcds i borrow from my aunt during the new year. Its kinda like a tradition for me to borrow vcds from my aunt haha!!!

Mayb i should just get out of the house on saturday. hehe!!! need to just walk around and walk around!!! and mayb should go settle some debt thingie too. haiz... really hate asking ppl to return me money!!! FAN SI LE!!!!

Anyway CNY this year was like normal but sadly coz it was also exam period so was like studying at the same tome too and the worst thing is eat too much liao. At my aunt's place i was like eating and eating and eating esp the bak kwa hehe but i also ate alot of honeydew yum yum!!! and wat else did i eat.......... hm..................... love letters, one mango jelly and 2 bottle of soft drinks. At home while studying ate a few piece of love letters the choc flavour kind, those little sponge cake thingie and ate oranges too. well so much of eating!! well lucky my nursing uniform can still fit in haha!!! Well hope i get to kill myself physically during attachment than can lose some weight coz really dun like to go running. haha

Just finish watching HEROES but stil very much awake. Guess the slping disorder is getting into me liao. 3am soon but still very much alive!!! lalalala lalalallalala LALA land pls come and get me !!!!!!!!!!!!!

future ahead

Well its now 4.47am as i'm typing this. Well coz haf been studying for exams so now slping hours are rather messed up. Well things at home are finalized and can only say its super bad luck lor and i hope that stupid idiot person will die in a horrible way. Study so must also no use coz no compassion at all and never see things with a coloured free mind and eyes stupid ass. hope he die like rite now. eat or drink wat will also choke and die and no one around to save him but see him die in suffering.

Well haf to adjust a liitle but i guess should be no problem for me. Sometimes i wonder am i unfeeling or wat coz actually dun really feel anything or mayb coz i am prepared for the outcome already or mayb coz it exam week so i kinda void myself from all feeling thus to less disturb my state of mind. HAIZ!!! mayb just becoming unfeeling.

Well on thursday sat for my 2nd last paper and again went to sit for paper without slping erm... well i did slp for an hour hehe!! anyway after that came back to slp and was like lazing around the house after that coz really need a break off my book for a while. I was like so crazy with my book for 3-4 days to prepare the 2 papers. Well of course got take a break to watch SHI SHEN by the 5566 zax wang. the show so so only lah but some part nice to watch.

HAHA crumble to temptation on thursday nite and started to watch HUA YANG SHAO NIAN SHAO NU. haha BAD me!!!! so tempting cannot stop watching at all. and just now somemore just finish watching the 13th episode. Now going to wait again for another few weeks before watching it again or mayb wait for it to finish than watch or just watch it from channel u on the 14th ep. haha !!!!!!!!! haiz these 2 years arh taiwan has been producing shows that are super nice to watch. like devil by my side, it started with a kiss, wei xiao pasta and now hana kimi. really can die watching all these gd shows haha!!!!!!

Well one more paper to go liao hope i am able to focus and study for it coz this paper is super impt to me to pass it well coz my that 35% was a F so need to make it real gd to get back my C grade. Actaully been thinking wat i wanna go with my future. After come out isit wanna con't nursing or change to another course. Went to MDIS site and saw that my nursing dip can take up their biomedical degree but the modules in there are like bio bio and more bio somehting that i dun really like. haiz...... but also thought of taking up psychology but dunno next time can do wat coz i'm rather gd in this module that i'm taking rite now. i understand the concept easily. haiz..... so confusing or should i just stick to my original plan leh... ... if got money than most probaly i would have pursue my dreams liao but sadly no money so equals to no tok liao!!!!!!!! so in a dilemma ( wrong spelling i think who cares!!!!! ) haiz going to yr 3 than now start to sway away from my intended choice of route in life. well actually i just wana find a job that i like to do and pay well thats all!! FAN SI LE!!!!!!!!!!