Been today up my online shop till just now wanna sign in i actually forgot my user id haha!!! Well sad that no one interested in buying anything from me haiz.......... need to go some up with much much and much better design though i think one or two of them are nice coz i would also wear it out myself. so sad!!!!!!
Anyway today had present exchange and got zq present and she got my. WHY so qiao leh???? anyway hope she like my present too though its a photo frame only but its not those ordinary photo frame. Its haf to build/fix it urself to any design u like. So this is testing ur creativity skills haha!! but anyway when i buy this present my mind was thinking that it is good for destressing coz when stress can take it all out and rebuild it and its something new again and its good for taking ur mind off for a while and u get the feeling that u haf something new again. Well mayb i need to go buy one for myself too haha!!! Well hope she likes it. well if not she can also recycle the gift to her frens wahaha or like bengi keep the present i gif him long time ago. and its still not even unwrap yet!! haha apparently it was not a gd gift haha!!!!!! no use for him but to me its of use coz i always sticking or writing notes everywhere so would need a place to stick or else its all over the place. haha!!! thats why i got a little blackboard in my room to write remindeds.
Well nothing much happening liao lah but only that no mood to study at all. i'm so dead when sch reopen with all the tests and stuff. next week must rush rush to catch up lost time.
Hope next week will have good weather coz i wanna go to kusu island so rain pls dun come back for the time being please.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Monday, December 18, 2006
One down and a alot more to go
Juz finish my elective work bout 2 hours ago. Finally all done or else can die. Really losing my temper juz doing it. Keep on hanging due to the tables and more tables. Word really hang so many times till i lose my temper. Yesterday was worst. I practically juz hit my laptop repeatedly. Well juz wat made me feel angry was that how one of my grp member for elective can be so selfish. Already all the easy one let her do liao than still want to chunk so much work to me. My side already overloaded. Need to design the logo and do up all those forms and still wanna gif me do those easy one also. Bloody hell lah she need to study so do i lor really crap man!!! Hate this kind of people. Really hate those these kind of people who are so borthered by getting good grades than to have more time to study you shove one whole lot of work to other people to do. Number 1 on my hate list. You can be of lousy character or wat i also wun hate you that much but anyone no matter how nice or wat do this kind of things to me you are so gone!!!!
Anyway sorry to everyone who was tokking to me juz now coz doing elective so was already in a bad mood liao. and making it worst was to try to control it down. Really boiling inside!!
To bengi and zq was really in a bad mood and i also really din want to go foodcourt eat esp not for dinner. lunch ok but if dinner i might as well stay home to eat. and at that time i was like thinking we kinda like celebrating christmas lor than its like why go foodcourt leh. every tom dick or harry day already going foodcourt liao!!! IN sch already canteen,foodcourt and fastfood liao than go out also the same thing i really juz hate it lah. well course that was like me thinking when i was in a bad mood not thinking rationally well honestly abit of me juz din want to go foodcourt or fastfood resturant for dinner. Lunch totally fine but dinner was a big no no. Well better end this now or else unkind words are going to come out from my mouth liao haha!!!!! Still in the bad mood with the elctive stuff argggggggg!!!!!!!!
Anyway this 2 weeks is going to be a busy busy holiday. got bio to prepare my idividual presentation and other presentation to prepare. bout 4 of it bah!!! and most impt my online store to set up. Juz need to enhance the photos. hehe during the time my brother go camp going to use his computer. Need to find someone with a VISA card to help me reg in yahoo auction just for identification issues. SO ma Fan!!!! Well mayb if i finish studying i might juz go to this wat kusu island that i saw on newspaper today on my last week of holiday.Or mayb i should go to the treetop trail again haha!!!!! Really need a breather from wat had juz happened last week at home. Kinda over but its only the starting of the rough road my family and i will be having.If there is really such thing as god i really do hope that my prayers will be answered.
Tokking bout GOD, friday went to expo to watch the 'magic of love' by faith baptist community church. Its some kind of magic show lah. Tix from my brother. Well ok it was only on saturday that i know that the tix was not free haha!!!!!!! my brother had to pay for them!! No wonder he wanted to get people to go coz he bought 5 tix for the whole family but no one wanted to go and my other brother already got fren bringing him to go on saturday haha!!!!! Well at least the tix wasn't wasted. coz i went haha!!!!! it was good i must say all those tricks and singing but i really hate the opening singing by that pastor daughter with all the american accent in it yikes!!! What's with people and their fake accent man!!!!!! just dun get them!!!!
Anyway sorry to everyone who was tokking to me juz now coz doing elective so was already in a bad mood liao. and making it worst was to try to control it down. Really boiling inside!!
To bengi and zq was really in a bad mood and i also really din want to go foodcourt eat esp not for dinner. lunch ok but if dinner i might as well stay home to eat. and at that time i was like thinking we kinda like celebrating christmas lor than its like why go foodcourt leh. every tom dick or harry day already going foodcourt liao!!! IN sch already canteen,foodcourt and fastfood liao than go out also the same thing i really juz hate it lah. well course that was like me thinking when i was in a bad mood not thinking rationally well honestly abit of me juz din want to go foodcourt or fastfood resturant for dinner. Lunch totally fine but dinner was a big no no. Well better end this now or else unkind words are going to come out from my mouth liao haha!!!!! Still in the bad mood with the elctive stuff argggggggg!!!!!!!!
Anyway this 2 weeks is going to be a busy busy holiday. got bio to prepare my idividual presentation and other presentation to prepare. bout 4 of it bah!!! and most impt my online store to set up. Juz need to enhance the photos. hehe during the time my brother go camp going to use his computer. Need to find someone with a VISA card to help me reg in yahoo auction just for identification issues. SO ma Fan!!!! Well mayb if i finish studying i might juz go to this wat kusu island that i saw on newspaper today on my last week of holiday.Or mayb i should go to the treetop trail again haha!!!!! Really need a breather from wat had juz happened last week at home. Kinda over but its only the starting of the rough road my family and i will be having.If there is really such thing as god i really do hope that my prayers will be answered.
Tokking bout GOD, friday went to expo to watch the 'magic of love' by faith baptist community church. Its some kind of magic show lah. Tix from my brother. Well ok it was only on saturday that i know that the tix was not free haha!!!!!!! my brother had to pay for them!! No wonder he wanted to get people to go coz he bought 5 tix for the whole family but no one wanted to go and my other brother already got fren bringing him to go on saturday haha!!!!! Well at least the tix wasn't wasted. coz i went haha!!!!! it was good i must say all those tricks and singing but i really hate the opening singing by that pastor daughter with all the american accent in it yikes!!! What's with people and their fake accent man!!!!!! just dun get them!!!!
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
WHY???????????
The atmosphere at home is really bad since yesterday. THis year is really a bad year for my family. one after another. One closing soon and got another problem How can do this to my family?? Nobody own you anything why must do this to us?? Why never even use that brain of urs to think?? Feel so drained out by what is all going on. Really dun feel like staying or going home anymore. Dun like the feeling of being at home. For me to say this is really bad coz i always like staying at home.
Today reach home really can feel how my parents are feeling and how hard it is for them esp day trying to make things seem ok by still joking around with my bros and me but i can still feel it how hard isit for them. Why must all these kind of things happen to my family. My bro wrote in his blog its God testing and moulding and etc but even it is that time why must allow my parents to go thru it. if really want to test and mould i rather all the bad things happen to me than to my parents. they already old liao. Few months back when i look at my mum i suddenly feel that she really aged alot.
When things really happen i really hope i can take it and face it as i am trying to tell myself. All these pride, face thing is all nothing coz we all haf a clear conscience. that is wat is impt. why even bother how other ppl think coz in the beginning they dunno wat is going on and how we are implicated to it for no reason.
I guess its really going to get tougher and tougher esp in Jan. I used to have everything i want in the past. Even now no more already but i dun need those anymore but my family to be ok. the rest not impt anymore.
Feeling emotionally drained already. So much in my mind that i cannot even slp well and with so much ICAs to prepare, test and soon exam that has no study break at all. What else bad is going to befall????????? I really wonder. the future now seem so beak???
Today reach home really can feel how my parents are feeling and how hard it is for them esp day trying to make things seem ok by still joking around with my bros and me but i can still feel it how hard isit for them. Why must all these kind of things happen to my family. My bro wrote in his blog its God testing and moulding and etc but even it is that time why must allow my parents to go thru it. if really want to test and mould i rather all the bad things happen to me than to my parents. they already old liao. Few months back when i look at my mum i suddenly feel that she really aged alot.
When things really happen i really hope i can take it and face it as i am trying to tell myself. All these pride, face thing is all nothing coz we all haf a clear conscience. that is wat is impt. why even bother how other ppl think coz in the beginning they dunno wat is going on and how we are implicated to it for no reason.
I guess its really going to get tougher and tougher esp in Jan. I used to have everything i want in the past. Even now no more already but i dun need those anymore but my family to be ok. the rest not impt anymore.
Feeling emotionally drained already. So much in my mind that i cannot even slp well and with so much ICAs to prepare, test and soon exam that has no study break at all. What else bad is going to befall????????? I really wonder. the future now seem so beak???
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