Wah today receive a shocking news!!! MY COUSIN IS GETTING MARRIED!!!! ok next yr june only. but its so fast. he only 3 yrs older than me lor and getting married so early wah!!! haha anyway he noe that gal super long liao and since he on scholarship when grad cfm got job and stuff so rather stable bah haha!!! but thinking back its really to marry young coz career not establish yet haha but on the another hand he and that gal noe each other since pre u days so now get marry also gd lah or else too long together later sure got alot of funny things will happen haha!!! anyway next yr cfm got wedding dinner to go liao haha. hope at that time i dun haf my PRCP or else cannot go liao haha!!!
ok just wanna type this out haha!!!!
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Saturday, September 23, 2006
sore throat
Sore throat!!
OKay too much singing yesterday. Had 4hrs of singing session with zq and tsl. After 2 hours zq and tsl snag already so the remaining 2 hrs i was singing more than them. that explains the sore throat. Really thankful that they came to sing K with me hehe. Thanx alot!!!! Sry that ur are broke now!!! hehe!! Anyway i'm now on the verge of getting sore throat and the bad news is that my attachment is starting next week haiz... hopes it does not worsen. well basically can still talk but no more singing for the time being haha!!!
Yesterday really had a fun day mainly coz i really needed to get out of the house to haf some fun and a life haha!! 3 weeks attachment and one week holiday at home is not doing me any gd so glad we had an outing yesterday!!! haiz guess my next holiday after this 3 weeks attachment is more by myself coz everyone would haf started sch and i'm going to enjoy my holiday haha!!! 3 full weeks of slp and slacking in bed wahaha!!!!
Haf to start planning wat i wanna do for my upcoming holiday!!! still wanna go to a few places to hang out. looks like haf to find ppl to go with me and most impt thing is to practise my driving. too long never drive liao. if still dun practise than i cannot take the car out without my parents worrying or rather they wun allow me to take it out haha!!!
well some things are going on but cannot say it out. guess its coming to and end soon. I din really like it to drag anyway. Its going to be sad it it really happens but guess life goes on too. They think i dun know bout it but sadly although i've already put myself in a position that i dun wanna know anymore details bout it but looking at them makes me see them through and i know wat is going to happen. Guess my knowledge in this certain thing cannot run away at all.
going to take a nap soon. had a nitemare yest and could not slp well at all. and with the waking up early for tennis is not doing me any gd now coz very slpy now haha. thats all !!! ciao ppl!!!
PS to bengi. see i did update ok. how can say i lazy to update. i only lazy when i on attachment haha!!!
OKay too much singing yesterday. Had 4hrs of singing session with zq and tsl. After 2 hours zq and tsl snag already so the remaining 2 hrs i was singing more than them. that explains the sore throat. Really thankful that they came to sing K with me hehe. Thanx alot!!!! Sry that ur are broke now!!! hehe!! Anyway i'm now on the verge of getting sore throat and the bad news is that my attachment is starting next week haiz... hopes it does not worsen. well basically can still talk but no more singing for the time being haha!!!
Yesterday really had a fun day mainly coz i really needed to get out of the house to haf some fun and a life haha!! 3 weeks attachment and one week holiday at home is not doing me any gd so glad we had an outing yesterday!!! haiz guess my next holiday after this 3 weeks attachment is more by myself coz everyone would haf started sch and i'm going to enjoy my holiday haha!!! 3 full weeks of slp and slacking in bed wahaha!!!!
Haf to start planning wat i wanna do for my upcoming holiday!!! still wanna go to a few places to hang out. looks like haf to find ppl to go with me and most impt thing is to practise my driving. too long never drive liao. if still dun practise than i cannot take the car out without my parents worrying or rather they wun allow me to take it out haha!!!
well some things are going on but cannot say it out. guess its coming to and end soon. I din really like it to drag anyway. Its going to be sad it it really happens but guess life goes on too. They think i dun know bout it but sadly although i've already put myself in a position that i dun wanna know anymore details bout it but looking at them makes me see them through and i know wat is going to happen. Guess my knowledge in this certain thing cannot run away at all.
going to take a nap soon. had a nitemare yest and could not slp well at all. and with the waking up early for tennis is not doing me any gd now coz very slpy now haha. thats all !!! ciao ppl!!!
PS to bengi. see i did update ok. how can say i lazy to update. i only lazy when i on attachment haha!!!
Saturday, September 16, 2006
end of attachment
End of my 3 weeks medical posting finally......... totally exhausted due to the lack of gd slp for the past 3 weeks. And today i totally slp and lie on bed all day after i came back from tennis. haha slacker today. even rite now i'm still lying my my bed typing this. Dun even feel like moving at all. guess after suppressing all my tireness for the past 3 weeks i'm finally releasing it all at once. Even today during tennis could not play well and i was always sitting around waiting for my turn. sit here and there and even my frens say i look tired and depress when they look at me at the opposite side of the court haha!!!!
anyway this attachment something bad happened. just walking can also fall down haha. now got bruise on my knee. anyway was coz i felt the floor was slippery lor than lost my blance and fall. lucky brake with my hand and i move my weight to my side or else my face bye bye liao. the fall was not the bad thing but rather now some the the SN reaction to the incident. some of them just bloody hell keep blaming it was my fault, its my shoe problem but my shoe i just bought it and i swear that it was coz i felt the floor was slippery thus i fell thought they all say the floor is dry. dame piss off lor. than the nurse who was beside me had to write a report than in it say query to shoewear i even more piss off. already say not my shoe and she so bloody insisting it was my shoe and say in a round bout manner that its my fault and all those shit lah. And than i say i'm perfectly normal as in i haf no giddiness and stuff before the incident than she rebutted me back that no one is normal. Yeah rite she is the abnormal one lor. i toking normal in health and stuff she say i not normal. piss~~~~~~~ and another SN Ro_ _ _ he that fatso, king kong, bloody shit idiot who only noe how to open his mouth and not even leave a hand to do anything still dare to say me that wat heaven giving me a sign that i too fat thats why i fall. if i not on attachment i surely rebutt him back that he so much fatter than me and only know how to tok and somemore so dirty ( and still can be a nurse leh s dirty looking nurse) and somemore dun even know how to think bout the patient. ask me to go dress the wound the patient stratch broken and he told me to just dress it with gauze. i told him i wanna clean it with normal saline he told me no need. Anyway i dun care him i still went ahead to wat i think is rite and even my frens think is rite. how can be so dirty and lazy man!!!! he should be fired. he is really a huge lazy fatass vessel that makes alot of noise.
Now for happy thing hehe!!! i was ask by the sister of the ward if i'm interested to be bonded haha coz one of the SN praise me. but i turn it down coz i got other plans and my mum in the beginning also told me that she can still see me through so i no need to get bonded just for the money. Anyway she also know i wanna do other things. in my heart i was like laughing coz its so ironic. my lecutrer and the big fat kind kong thinks poorly of me coz knowledge wise i not very good and that king kong everytime see us its the time we are free so he say we are like professional models walking around not doing anything. my frens and i were like we busy what were you doing??? toking away and causing noise pollution. Still dare say us!!!! DIE!!!!! and hor somemore he is a two double headed snake. in front of my lecturer say nice things behide her say bad things. wat an asshole man!!!! What the thing is that SN that praise me gave me chance to learn and teach me patiently thats why i more hardworking. If chance not given and no one willing to teach its really hard to go get objectives met lor. we are tokking bout human lives lor so cannot anyhow play play if dunno.
Anyway made new frens actually its the yr 1 lah hehe. nice bunch of kiddos. enjoy working with them and gossiping haha esp with one of them coz we everytime same team and we take the same route home so we much closer haha!!! something else happen too but its for me to know only haha!!! anyway hope that next time if haf to go back to the same ward hope those assholes not there liao. only the nice SN and AN and HCA are there.
one week of holiday before my attachment at NUH. one week of resting for me. and after NUH attachment 3 weeks of holiday YIPPIE!!!!!!!!!!
forgot the most impt thing. i pass my exams. yupyup the usual Bs and Cs and no Ds at all. lucky me. and still keeping to the target i set for myself- GPA to be maintained at least at 2.5 and above.
anyway this attachment something bad happened. just walking can also fall down haha. now got bruise on my knee. anyway was coz i felt the floor was slippery lor than lost my blance and fall. lucky brake with my hand and i move my weight to my side or else my face bye bye liao. the fall was not the bad thing but rather now some the the SN reaction to the incident. some of them just bloody hell keep blaming it was my fault, its my shoe problem but my shoe i just bought it and i swear that it was coz i felt the floor was slippery thus i fell thought they all say the floor is dry. dame piss off lor. than the nurse who was beside me had to write a report than in it say query to shoewear i even more piss off. already say not my shoe and she so bloody insisting it was my shoe and say in a round bout manner that its my fault and all those shit lah. And than i say i'm perfectly normal as in i haf no giddiness and stuff before the incident than she rebutted me back that no one is normal. Yeah rite she is the abnormal one lor. i toking normal in health and stuff she say i not normal. piss~~~~~~~ and another SN Ro_ _ _ he that fatso, king kong, bloody shit idiot who only noe how to open his mouth and not even leave a hand to do anything still dare to say me that wat heaven giving me a sign that i too fat thats why i fall. if i not on attachment i surely rebutt him back that he so much fatter than me and only know how to tok and somemore so dirty ( and still can be a nurse leh s dirty looking nurse) and somemore dun even know how to think bout the patient. ask me to go dress the wound the patient stratch broken and he told me to just dress it with gauze. i told him i wanna clean it with normal saline he told me no need. Anyway i dun care him i still went ahead to wat i think is rite and even my frens think is rite. how can be so dirty and lazy man!!!! he should be fired. he is really a huge lazy fatass vessel that makes alot of noise.
Now for happy thing hehe!!! i was ask by the sister of the ward if i'm interested to be bonded haha coz one of the SN praise me. but i turn it down coz i got other plans and my mum in the beginning also told me that she can still see me through so i no need to get bonded just for the money. Anyway she also know i wanna do other things. in my heart i was like laughing coz its so ironic. my lecutrer and the big fat kind kong thinks poorly of me coz knowledge wise i not very good and that king kong everytime see us its the time we are free so he say we are like professional models walking around not doing anything. my frens and i were like we busy what were you doing??? toking away and causing noise pollution. Still dare say us!!!! DIE!!!!! and hor somemore he is a two double headed snake. in front of my lecturer say nice things behide her say bad things. wat an asshole man!!!! What the thing is that SN that praise me gave me chance to learn and teach me patiently thats why i more hardworking. If chance not given and no one willing to teach its really hard to go get objectives met lor. we are tokking bout human lives lor so cannot anyhow play play if dunno.
Anyway made new frens actually its the yr 1 lah hehe. nice bunch of kiddos. enjoy working with them and gossiping haha esp with one of them coz we everytime same team and we take the same route home so we much closer haha!!! something else happen too but its for me to know only haha!!! anyway hope that next time if haf to go back to the same ward hope those assholes not there liao. only the nice SN and AN and HCA are there.
one week of holiday before my attachment at NUH. one week of resting for me. and after NUH attachment 3 weeks of holiday YIPPIE!!!!!!!!!!
forgot the most impt thing. i pass my exams. yupyup the usual Bs and Cs and no Ds at all. lucky me. and still keeping to the target i set for myself- GPA to be maintained at least at 2.5 and above.
Saturday, September 02, 2006
chapter closed
ONe week attachment over and 4 more weeks to go. Went back to the same ward as my first attachment. New faces and old faces seen. At least my enjoying myself there again. The best thing is that the doctors now are much better and friendlier to approach as compared to the past.
Wrote one long entry last week but i took it out coz after thinking bout it it was like no point of posting such things up already. If being friends for so long but there is no mutual understanding in this relationship than no point already. If being percieved as dun care bout a person is just all bout this kind of things than i guess the relationship was not there at all. If everything is only an excuse just because of ' its all bout me who is important' thinking than so be it bah. Excuses are only finding a reason to get out of something. but if really got something and its still percieved as excuses than let it be bah. Too tired of such games already. Lessons learned, true colours seen all these things said are rather true. It has only show how much each and everyone of us and grown and learn how to see things differently. Guess some has grown up and some just stayed on. Guess wat each of us has gone through these few yrs that each of us none knew bout it is starting to show too bah. Classic reasons given bout how other ppl care makes me wanna laugh. How feelings are hurt, hurt me too but got out of it fast, realizing how strong relationships are make me feel how naive i was. Guess this is also all part of growing up.
~~~~Chapter officially close~~~~~
Going to enjoy my attachment at AH this time round and learn more stuff to make sure i'm more competent than yr 1.
Wrote one long entry last week but i took it out coz after thinking bout it it was like no point of posting such things up already. If being friends for so long but there is no mutual understanding in this relationship than no point already. If being percieved as dun care bout a person is just all bout this kind of things than i guess the relationship was not there at all. If everything is only an excuse just because of ' its all bout me who is important' thinking than so be it bah. Excuses are only finding a reason to get out of something. but if really got something and its still percieved as excuses than let it be bah. Too tired of such games already. Lessons learned, true colours seen all these things said are rather true. It has only show how much each and everyone of us and grown and learn how to see things differently. Guess some has grown up and some just stayed on. Guess wat each of us has gone through these few yrs that each of us none knew bout it is starting to show too bah. Classic reasons given bout how other ppl care makes me wanna laugh. How feelings are hurt, hurt me too but got out of it fast, realizing how strong relationships are make me feel how naive i was. Guess this is also all part of growing up.
~~~~Chapter officially close~~~~~
Going to enjoy my attachment at AH this time round and learn more stuff to make sure i'm more competent than yr 1.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
fireworks
Yest went out to see the fireworks and buy sher present. Anyway sher present is zq choose one and design is joson choose one and i pay for it first again haha anyway hope sher will like it lah!! Well anyway below are some pics taken yest. if want to see more than go to joson or zq blog to see bah. i only post up those that they never post up one lah. Anyway yest was a bad day to take pics for me haha!! bad hair day and coz use a new facial wash than not suitable got breakouts Haiz.....!! I think i really need to go get a new haircut to change style liao sad sad:(
presenting bengi new cut haha
just haf to post tis one up though
zq and joson all got post it up
too coz too cute liao hehe
nite view of the esplanade
backview of you should know who
if u notice hor the pic look fake.
its as if we take a pic the
photoshop it to put our face
there haha . go take a look at the
other photos too at their blogs
the fireworks pic. we din get a
gd view of it lah but at least now
we noe where it would be than
next yr can go again haha!!! at
least now got experience.
Okay i'm suppose to post some stuff up as said in my previous post but next time bah coz can't be bother with it at the moment haha!!!! thats bout it bah dunno wat to write liao!!!
presenting bengi new cut haha
just haf to post tis one up though
zq and joson all got post it up
too coz too cute liao hehe
nite view of the esplanade
backview of you should know who
if u notice hor the pic look fake.
its as if we take a pic the
photoshop it to put our face
there haha . go take a look at the
other photos too at their blogs
the fireworks pic. we din get a
gd view of it lah but at least now
we noe where it would be than
next yr can go again haha!!! at
least now got experience.
Okay i'm suppose to post some stuff up as said in my previous post but next time bah coz can't be bother with it at the moment haha!!!! thats bout it bah dunno wat to write liao!!!
Saturday, August 05, 2006
SB final
Just finish watching Superband final and ............................ MiLuBing won haha Yeah!!!! This might be weird but even before i started watching the show i was like slping away than i dreamt that MiLuBing won haha!!!!!!! and after watching to the end of the show they really did haha!!! Funny hor haha!!!!!!!!!!
Today really slp alot guess i wun be slping later already. Last nite slept from 3.30am to 1pm than slp again from 5pm to 8pm. Guess i am really tired or mayb just wanna slp haha!!!!! Anyway haf to start getting in the mood of studying or else exam sure die liao haha!!!
Anyway one thing that i'm recently very happy is that i've found a voice that i really like or can say love it to bits but the sad thing i dunno who that singer is haha. Its some anime song singer so dun noe if he got cut album anot. Anyway noe also no use coz i dun even know the name haha!!!! anyway everytime listen to him sing can really feel very happy and somehow it touches my heart haha!!! I guess its his singing technique that i like bah and that voice. Haiz never really seem to be able to find a voice that i really like althought i like many other singers but the problem is that is the songs that made them wanna let me listen to them. Ok of course must be gd than i wanna listen no matter how gd the song is haha!!!!
than this I dunno singer haha its his voice that capture me and not the song. watever genre he sing its like heaven haha to me lah!!!!!!! Ohya anime songs really got alot man!!! and it seems they haf really good songs haha it got chance do hear them out!!!!!! its really gd for most of them.
Recently those feelings are coming back again and even worst haiz.... hate it when it happens. GOT to haf more self control in emotions again so tiring!!!!!!!!
next post if posible i might haf something gd or even funny coming out so watch out for the next post. will do it if i haf the time or too sianz from studying haha!!!!!! thats all take care ppl and bengi too in NS!!!!!!!!
Today really slp alot guess i wun be slping later already. Last nite slept from 3.30am to 1pm than slp again from 5pm to 8pm. Guess i am really tired or mayb just wanna slp haha!!!!! Anyway haf to start getting in the mood of studying or else exam sure die liao haha!!!
Anyway one thing that i'm recently very happy is that i've found a voice that i really like or can say love it to bits but the sad thing i dunno who that singer is haha. Its some anime song singer so dun noe if he got cut album anot. Anyway noe also no use coz i dun even know the name haha!!!! anyway everytime listen to him sing can really feel very happy and somehow it touches my heart haha!!! I guess its his singing technique that i like bah and that voice. Haiz never really seem to be able to find a voice that i really like althought i like many other singers but the problem is that is the songs that made them wanna let me listen to them. Ok of course must be gd than i wanna listen no matter how gd the song is haha!!!!
than this I dunno singer haha its his voice that capture me and not the song. watever genre he sing its like heaven haha to me lah!!!!!!! Ohya anime songs really got alot man!!! and it seems they haf really good songs haha it got chance do hear them out!!!!!! its really gd for most of them.
Recently those feelings are coming back again and even worst haiz.... hate it when it happens. GOT to haf more self control in emotions again so tiring!!!!!!!!
next post if posible i might haf something gd or even funny coming out so watch out for the next post. will do it if i haf the time or too sianz from studying haha!!!!!! thats all take care ppl and bengi too in NS!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
lakehouse
Yesterday after nite klasses went to watch lakehouse haha!!!! Reason why???? coz today no sch and hell am i up early slping only 3hrs!!! Anyway soon will be going back to slp. Last nite in the cinema all those ppl that came in are all couples well except for 4 guys that came in together. Mayb they gay couples wahaha!!!!!!!! 4 Mah so got 2 couples in total haha!!!! Anyway there only me the lonely soul wahaha!!!!!! well nothing much to say lah only wanted to say this haha!!! going crazy liao coz of research ICA haha!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, July 29, 2006
zq bdae
HAHA today is ZQ bdae so we meet in BP and treat zq lunch. Sry it was such a simple affair but hope u like the present and lunch. hehe!!! Well let the pics do the tokking bah coz dun feel like saying anything for now!!! coz zq wanna kill me for the pics ( only if you haf seen the whole series. i can even make it into a story haha but sadly no time for it mayb next time!!! haha) I'm so DEAD!!!
Birthday Gal!!
The Cake ( sry it was too
sweet din expect it to be
that sweet haha)
Sher and ZQ acting all cute again
Zq and Joson ( hehe)
Well bengi not around so joson
haf to do the guys job wahaha!!!
Sher share of cake. That
greedy gal wahah!! in the
end cannot finish somemore
wahaha!!!
See we all eating the cake
using the chopsticks Innovative
hor haha!!!
Lastly a ugly pic of sher haha!!
within a month we took so
many of this kind of pic of sher
haha!!
Anyway today i had fun!!! i seem to be happier at other ppls bdae than my own one wahaha!!!
Anyway this few days having this mix feelings all over again. haiz DIE liao lah. Soon might not be able to hold it any longer and i hate to even think wat would happen. Everything might be lost and gone and memories and hopes all gone!!!!!!!!! haiz...............
Birthday Gal!!
The Cake ( sry it was too
sweet din expect it to be
that sweet haha)
Sher and ZQ acting all cute again
Zq and Joson ( hehe)
Well bengi not around so joson
haf to do the guys job wahaha!!!
Sher share of cake. That
greedy gal wahah!! in the
end cannot finish somemore
wahaha!!!
See we all eating the cake
using the chopsticks Innovative
hor haha!!!
Lastly a ugly pic of sher haha!!
within a month we took so
many of this kind of pic of sher
haha!!
Anyway today i had fun!!! i seem to be happier at other ppls bdae than my own one wahaha!!!
Anyway this few days having this mix feelings all over again. haiz DIE liao lah. Soon might not be able to hold it any longer and i hate to even think wat would happen. Everything might be lost and gone and memories and hopes all gone!!!!!!!!! haiz...............
Saturday, July 15, 2006
2nd wk attachment
well 2nd week of attachment and one week in IMH already. Wah time pass fast man haha!!! anyway though many say the attachment in IMH will be fun and stuff to me was still ok well got pros and cons but overall its not bad. the only problem is that i going abit mentally unstable also haha in a gd way!!!! No mahjong there to play coz previous students in the end got addicted to it and they start to play among themselves so we now no more tiles to polish haha!!! So now haf to come up with stuff to play with them and interact with them. As tokking is not something i like to do so everytime must crack brains to see play wat games is suitable haha!!!
Today juz got my mp3 my uncle help me to buy. finally haha!!! this one can watch videos on it one though its small but at least can watch videos but only can watch those eng and chi shows coz if watch other language i cannot read the subtitles coz too small liao haha!!! Anyway now got entertainment liao during my long journeys to work or to sch haha so happy!!! but there goes my coming VTP allowances liao haha!!!
Today juz got my mp3 my uncle help me to buy. finally haha!!! this one can watch videos on it one though its small but at least can watch videos but only can watch those eng and chi shows coz if watch other language i cannot read the subtitles coz too small liao haha!!! Anyway now got entertainment liao during my long journeys to work or to sch haha so happy!!! but there goes my coming VTP allowances liao haha!!!
Friday, July 07, 2006
attachment at kkh
ENd of First Week Attachment
JUst ended my one week attachment in KKH and nOw in School wasiting for the Fan Wei Qi concert to start. Rather tired now haiz.. hope i wun slp during the concert haha!! Next week even worst coz got to travel ALL THE WAY TO IMH WHICH IS AT BUNGKOK!!!!!!!! haf to wake up early travel far far.
Anyway in KKH the attachment not bad coz get to stay in the nursery on alternate days. haha so cute the BBs most of them just been delivered and so small. Okay well one or two are huge and heavy. carry til hand tired!!! Anyway kinda enjoy my days there. Ony regret is that KKH dun allow students to see the deliver process. haiz.. ppl at other hospitals got to see it but we at KKH dun so sad and UNFAIR!!! I ALSO WANNA SEE!!!!! Ok most importantly beside got cute BBs to see and feed and play with haha!! there also got one cute doctor wahaha!!! Well in a female working area must at least haf guys to see rite or else bloody boring haha!!!! Ohya and also dun haf to do dirty work if u know wat i mean haha besides the BBs one lah but its not as bad as adults one.
Okay to sign off............. the most funny incident that happen is that i was pee on when changing one of the BB. Lucky is only on my uniform and no colour one or else my uniform can say bye bye liao. And guess wat my that fren who laugh so loud and went to tell my other klassmates bout this incident was also being pee on by the same BB. Well wat can i say the BB just love the both of us wahaha!!!!!!!!!!
JUst ended my one week attachment in KKH and nOw in School wasiting for the Fan Wei Qi concert to start. Rather tired now haiz.. hope i wun slp during the concert haha!! Next week even worst coz got to travel ALL THE WAY TO IMH WHICH IS AT BUNGKOK!!!!!!!! haf to wake up early travel far far.
Anyway in KKH the attachment not bad coz get to stay in the nursery on alternate days. haha so cute the BBs most of them just been delivered and so small. Okay well one or two are huge and heavy. carry til hand tired!!! Anyway kinda enjoy my days there. Ony regret is that KKH dun allow students to see the deliver process. haiz.. ppl at other hospitals got to see it but we at KKH dun so sad and UNFAIR!!! I ALSO WANNA SEE!!!!! Ok most importantly beside got cute BBs to see and feed and play with haha!! there also got one cute doctor wahaha!!! Well in a female working area must at least haf guys to see rite or else bloody boring haha!!!! Ohya and also dun haf to do dirty work if u know wat i mean haha besides the BBs one lah but its not as bad as adults one.
Okay to sign off............. the most funny incident that happen is that i was pee on when changing one of the BB. Lucky is only on my uniform and no colour one or else my uniform can say bye bye liao. And guess wat my that fren who laugh so loud and went to tell my other klassmates bout this incident was also being pee on by the same BB. Well wat can i say the BB just love the both of us wahaha!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
back pain
Back Pain
Since sunday there has been an aching feeling at the lower end of my back. Since than even bend abit also will feel the ach and pain. Feel like an old lady man!!!! Now everytime haf to sit straight but sometime the pain will still be there. Its not really pain just aching but it just makes me feel like crying. Haiz this year i've been sick for so many times haiz..... Anyway tomolo going to see doctor just to make sure its just muscle problem and not other serious illness like kidney preoblem coz alot of serious illness all start with having preoblem with the back!!!!!!
Since sunday there has been an aching feeling at the lower end of my back. Since than even bend abit also will feel the ach and pain. Feel like an old lady man!!!! Now everytime haf to sit straight but sometime the pain will still be there. Its not really pain just aching but it just makes me feel like crying. Haiz this year i've been sick for so many times haiz..... Anyway tomolo going to see doctor just to make sure its just muscle problem and not other serious illness like kidney preoblem coz alot of serious illness all start with having preoblem with the back!!!!!!
Friday, June 23, 2006
tired
Tired...........
well kinda tired from studying so down here blogging. Actually also cannot say tired juz so sianz from studying but i aben even been really studying for the past 4 days. Was sick since Sunday and the medicine i got from the doctor only puts me to slp. Well since i take the medicine at 3pm,11pm and 7am so everytime i take i will slp for about 4-6hrs so how much time am i really awake?? 3pm slot i would slp from 5pm to 8pm than 11pm slot it would be 12am -4am than back to slp again till 7am and fall back to slp at 8am to 1-2pm in the afternoon and back to slp again. i guess i'm only awake to watch the 8pm and 9pm show on SCV and to bathe in the afternoon. First time in my life i'm slping so much though i like to slp haha!!!!!!
With all those slp haben been studying much at all. Only used those time i am awake to do a little exercises on those topic and i start to doze off to lala land already haha!!
Anyway was kinda piss off since yesterday but after letting it out to that poor person who wasn't really at fault. that person was just there and i was already kinda piss off so everything also just blame together haha!!! Anyway sorry lah but really bloody angry liao. so many times so very sick of it already. Me not that nice a person. Got limit when it comes to tolerating this kind of things!!!!!! Other rubbish can still control but this kind of things no way!!!!!!!!!
Anyway stop taking the medicine liao so now so wide awake haha. back to my sleepless nites again. This is also something i am getting piss off. Everyone in the nite slping i down here no matter wat i do i still canot slp. I WANT TO SLP in the nite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Guess better go back to my books. ONly got 2 chapters of bio to study but hell lot of stuff to remb and understand and i haben even touch my research module yet. Well next week will be a rush week. 3 days to study 8 chapters!!! b4 the test on friday. Well typical of me to crash study when it comes to tests. Seem to do better with all those stress that tells me that i need to quickly study.
well kinda tired from studying so down here blogging. Actually also cannot say tired juz so sianz from studying but i aben even been really studying for the past 4 days. Was sick since Sunday and the medicine i got from the doctor only puts me to slp. Well since i take the medicine at 3pm,11pm and 7am so everytime i take i will slp for about 4-6hrs so how much time am i really awake?? 3pm slot i would slp from 5pm to 8pm than 11pm slot it would be 12am -4am than back to slp again till 7am and fall back to slp at 8am to 1-2pm in the afternoon and back to slp again. i guess i'm only awake to watch the 8pm and 9pm show on SCV and to bathe in the afternoon. First time in my life i'm slping so much though i like to slp haha!!!!!!
With all those slp haben been studying much at all. Only used those time i am awake to do a little exercises on those topic and i start to doze off to lala land already haha!!
Anyway was kinda piss off since yesterday but after letting it out to that poor person who wasn't really at fault. that person was just there and i was already kinda piss off so everything also just blame together haha!!! Anyway sorry lah but really bloody angry liao. so many times so very sick of it already. Me not that nice a person. Got limit when it comes to tolerating this kind of things!!!!!! Other rubbish can still control but this kind of things no way!!!!!!!!!
Anyway stop taking the medicine liao so now so wide awake haha. back to my sleepless nites again. This is also something i am getting piss off. Everyone in the nite slping i down here no matter wat i do i still canot slp. I WANT TO SLP in the nite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Guess better go back to my books. ONly got 2 chapters of bio to study but hell lot of stuff to remb and understand and i haben even touch my research module yet. Well next week will be a rush week. 3 days to study 8 chapters!!! b4 the test on friday. Well typical of me to crash study when it comes to tests. Seem to do better with all those stress that tells me that i need to quickly study.
Friday, June 16, 2006
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Saturday, June 03, 2006
Tired...
Tired...
Recently been feeling very weak. I'm always feeling slping. Guess all the lates nites is draining my body already. just yesterday i was like slping and slping and slping. Before sch i only had 2 hrs of slp than during my breaks ( had many breaks yesterday) i was slping. At home while watching tv i also fell slp for bout 15 mins. than in bed while surfing the net i also fell aslp at bout 10.30pm. Anyway woke up at 11pm to off my lappy to make more room for slping haha!!! slp and slp till this morning 9am. i think i can really slp. Worst of all bout 12.45 i slp again till 2.45pm. this is crazy. Let me calculate arh........................ 16 or so hrs of slp starting from yest 6am to 3pm today. that is like half a day gone already haha!!!!!!!!. actaully half a day of slp is nothing coz i always slp that much during holidays but the problem is slping abit here and abit there is even more tiring. Coz nothing beats having a full gd rest with no disturbance.
And my throat, after since that day i was sick, my throat seems to be always on the want to have a sore throat feeling. I think that time the medicine i took might be having some side effect on me or wat coz now even if i slap my face slightly harder than usual painness ( if there's such word) i can endure, the feeling is numb. Sometimes i think coz i learn too much how the body works and stuff i start to think too much that there is something wrong in my body system. well guess that why ppl always say its the best that you dunno too much esp for ppl like me who think too much at times.........
On the happy side..... i pass my clinical skills Coz i wore my lucky shirt haha!!!!! during the procedure there was some mishaps but lucky the lecturer was not so strict coz actually also not really my fault wat. the syringe they provide was not of the rite size so wat can i do leh!!!! anyway theory was also not too bad. can ans most of the mcq question and saq was not too bad esp the 8 marks question coz i gave them ans worth more the 8 marks haha!!!!! glad i read up notes from my CMS or else sure die on this question. another thing is that my whole klass pass the clinical. this is like gd news coz last yr there is always failures and this time round we all work hard to pass by going for our extra practise session we book and the sch provided during the test period. Best of all, most of us had good testers. though some were unlucky to get those super strict one but they also pass. Mayb not with high marks but most imptly is pass. clinical is bloody hard to pass if ur unlucky coz some testers got attitude problem or so insisted u haf to do their way but but..... every lecturer haf their own way of teaching so its hard on us. therefore beside hafing the skills, luck is also super duper impt.
Recently been feeling very weak. I'm always feeling slping. Guess all the lates nites is draining my body already. just yesterday i was like slping and slping and slping. Before sch i only had 2 hrs of slp than during my breaks ( had many breaks yesterday) i was slping. At home while watching tv i also fell slp for bout 15 mins. than in bed while surfing the net i also fell aslp at bout 10.30pm. Anyway woke up at 11pm to off my lappy to make more room for slping haha!!! slp and slp till this morning 9am. i think i can really slp. Worst of all bout 12.45 i slp again till 2.45pm. this is crazy. Let me calculate arh........................ 16 or so hrs of slp starting from yest 6am to 3pm today. that is like half a day gone already haha!!!!!!!!. actaully half a day of slp is nothing coz i always slp that much during holidays but the problem is slping abit here and abit there is even more tiring. Coz nothing beats having a full gd rest with no disturbance.
And my throat, after since that day i was sick, my throat seems to be always on the want to have a sore throat feeling. I think that time the medicine i took might be having some side effect on me or wat coz now even if i slap my face slightly harder than usual painness ( if there's such word) i can endure, the feeling is numb. Sometimes i think coz i learn too much how the body works and stuff i start to think too much that there is something wrong in my body system. well guess that why ppl always say its the best that you dunno too much esp for ppl like me who think too much at times.........
On the happy side..... i pass my clinical skills Coz i wore my lucky shirt haha!!!!! during the procedure there was some mishaps but lucky the lecturer was not so strict coz actually also not really my fault wat. the syringe they provide was not of the rite size so wat can i do leh!!!! anyway theory was also not too bad. can ans most of the mcq question and saq was not too bad esp the 8 marks question coz i gave them ans worth more the 8 marks haha!!!!! glad i read up notes from my CMS or else sure die on this question. another thing is that my whole klass pass the clinical. this is like gd news coz last yr there is always failures and this time round we all work hard to pass by going for our extra practise session we book and the sch provided during the test period. Best of all, most of us had good testers. though some were unlucky to get those super strict one but they also pass. Mayb not with high marks but most imptly is pass. clinical is bloody hard to pass if ur unlucky coz some testers got attitude problem or so insisted u haf to do their way but but..... every lecturer haf their own way of teaching so its hard on us. therefore beside hafing the skills, luck is also super duper impt.
Sunday, May 28, 2006
update
Next week will be the start of my clincal practical and theory test. well hope that nothing goes wrong tml for my practical and pray i get a nice lecturer to test me on my skills. Kinda feeling the stress already. Having to fail once before make me feel nervous everytime there is a test on clinical skills.
Oh well nothing much happen this week at all. still the same old things happening. Boring lectures, me slping through it haha. This sem i rather prefer tutorials coz they are more interesting and the lecturers are more fun and interesting though i dunreally like the module on mental coz its always bout self concept and bah bah bah. We always haf to tok bout our self or say our strength and weakness. feel its rather stupid. the best thing is that stupid gal bullshit so much that i am this and that kind of person and blah blah blah. haha actaully wanted to tell her that i only treat her like that coz she started it first haha but after that i in. Well anyway if ppl wanna go believe her than its my fortune that they are not my frens haha coz knowing someone is bout going to interact and feel it for urself wat kind a person one is haha. And most imptly is that when you are having an issue wif someone, ur comment wil always be biased. so watever haha.
Now i remb something interesting happen this week. As usual i was slping in the mrt while on my way to sch. Than while the train was about to reach YCK i open my eyes and it was like OMG there is this gal standing in front of me wearing so little at her top and she was about to be expose on the top. K coz she is short so when i'm just sitting up than its like just infront of me wahaha. early morning see such things. She wanna wear so little than she should go stand in front of a guy and not infront of me. slp hafway than open eyes first thing see such things haha!!!!!!
Anyway to zq sry arh i can't help you with ur presentation stuff coz i really haf no idea wat it is all bout. all i could do was to help you rephrase ur sentance and check the grammar thingie. Anyway work hard for ur attachment!!!!!!!!
Oh well nothing much happen this week at all. still the same old things happening. Boring lectures, me slping through it haha. This sem i rather prefer tutorials coz they are more interesting and the lecturers are more fun and interesting though i dunreally like the module on mental coz its always bout self concept and bah bah bah. We always haf to tok bout our self or say our strength and weakness. feel its rather stupid. the best thing is that stupid gal bullshit so much that i am this and that kind of person and blah blah blah. haha actaully wanted to tell her that i only treat her like that coz she started it first haha but after that i in. Well anyway if ppl wanna go believe her than its my fortune that they are not my frens haha coz knowing someone is bout going to interact and feel it for urself wat kind a person one is haha. And most imptly is that when you are having an issue wif someone, ur comment wil always be biased. so watever haha.
Now i remb something interesting happen this week. As usual i was slping in the mrt while on my way to sch. Than while the train was about to reach YCK i open my eyes and it was like OMG there is this gal standing in front of me wearing so little at her top and she was about to be expose on the top. K coz she is short so when i'm just sitting up than its like just infront of me wahaha. early morning see such things. She wanna wear so little than she should go stand in front of a guy and not infront of me. slp hafway than open eyes first thing see such things haha!!!!!!
Anyway to zq sry arh i can't help you with ur presentation stuff coz i really haf no idea wat it is all bout. all i could do was to help you rephrase ur sentance and check the grammar thingie. Anyway work hard for ur attachment!!!!!!!!
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Weird Dream
Weird Dream
Had a weird dream last nite haha!!! It gave me a funny yet sweet feeling and it felt weird at the same time haha!!!!! sounds funny anyway. This is something that will never ever happen in real life mayb thats why in my dream i ran away from it. Am i really running away from this problem that is really really deep in my heart that i'm keeping it away????? 'pondering'........ Well anyway its a memory to be kept in me for now wahaha!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday i realize that i'm a person who cannot make goals in life coz i think 99% it will be a failure haha so i guess i would stop thinking that i would want a GPA of 3 and above and just do my best haha!!!!!!! coz i feel that i'm lazier that last sem which is like bad news coz ;ast sem i was lazier than the previous one haha!!!! though i made an improvment to like do all my tutorials during the wkends and a little studying and i do mean little haha coz i'm always distracted by the lappy ( my all time distraction esp during exam peroids) so guess no more goals to meet already but just do my best. Actually hor i did noe that i'm one that cannot make goals coz i never seem to meet the goals haha but why do i actually still bother wahaha!!!!!! weird!!!!!!
okay thats bout it nothing much to update actually coz i'm always in sch or watching tv or slping already so is like no life at the moment wahaha!!!!!!!!
ohya forget to add that i've been watching naruto on youtube. so shoick all those episodes that i din catch wahaha!!!!! in 2 nites i watch episodes 160 to 185. now i'm waiting for 186 to be airred in japan and be uploaded in youtube wahaha!!!!! Yeah tonite got ai qing mo fa shi!!!!!!!!! cannot wait for it haha !!!!!!!!!! See how to study leh when there is so many nice shows going on wahaha!!!!!! well i will find some time one. Guess this is than me!!! always rushing only when exams is approaching haha!!!!!! last mintue me and somemore this time round i'm in charge of one ICA in week 8 and week 7 i got theory and practical test DIE!! and its wk 6 already haha!!!
Had a weird dream last nite haha!!! It gave me a funny yet sweet feeling and it felt weird at the same time haha!!!!! sounds funny anyway. This is something that will never ever happen in real life mayb thats why in my dream i ran away from it. Am i really running away from this problem that is really really deep in my heart that i'm keeping it away????? 'pondering'........ Well anyway its a memory to be kept in me for now wahaha!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday i realize that i'm a person who cannot make goals in life coz i think 99% it will be a failure haha so i guess i would stop thinking that i would want a GPA of 3 and above and just do my best haha!!!!!!! coz i feel that i'm lazier that last sem which is like bad news coz ;ast sem i was lazier than the previous one haha!!!! though i made an improvment to like do all my tutorials during the wkends and a little studying and i do mean little haha coz i'm always distracted by the lappy ( my all time distraction esp during exam peroids) so guess no more goals to meet already but just do my best. Actually hor i did noe that i'm one that cannot make goals coz i never seem to meet the goals haha but why do i actually still bother wahaha!!!!!! weird!!!!!!
okay thats bout it nothing much to update actually coz i'm always in sch or watching tv or slping already so is like no life at the moment wahaha!!!!!!!!
ohya forget to add that i've been watching naruto on youtube. so shoick all those episodes that i din catch wahaha!!!!! in 2 nites i watch episodes 160 to 185. now i'm waiting for 186 to be airred in japan and be uploaded in youtube wahaha!!!!! Yeah tonite got ai qing mo fa shi!!!!!!!!! cannot wait for it haha !!!!!!!!!! See how to study leh when there is so many nice shows going on wahaha!!!!!! well i will find some time one. Guess this is than me!!! always rushing only when exams is approaching haha!!!!!! last mintue me and somemore this time round i'm in charge of one ICA in week 8 and week 7 i got theory and practical test DIE!! and its wk 6 already haha!!!
Friday, May 12, 2006
sick sick
Sick Sick
Haiz this morning wake up than felt feverish. Check temp than it was 37.8. WOW i long time never had fever till 37.8. the most is like 37.5-6. Anyway when to my mum and told her i wanna see doctor. now schooling and with so many ICAS to go cannot be sick to miss klass but how ironic coz i've been skipping bio lectures. that part time lecture we got for this coming 3 weeks sux!!! Anyway at the doctor my temp went up to 37.9. HAHA!!!!! surprisingly i dun feel that uncomfortable to the extend to match my high fever. ANyway it was just a common cold. its flu and decongestion. stomach flu i think. haha !!! i just took my medicine so now cannot think rite already. feeling very floaty if u now wat i mean haha
Anyway Sry to ZQ coz i was suppose to meet her today to go out but haf to cancel it. Din expect myself to be sick in just one nite haha!!!!! though i was having sore throat the nite b4. Anyway will be going out tomolo instead. i should be feeling fine enough to go out bah. so must slp early liao or else tomolo haf to cancel again and i dun want coz i got no other time to get things done liao haha!!!!!!!! Will be busy studying for tests liao. going to slp now byebye
Haiz this morning wake up than felt feverish. Check temp than it was 37.8. WOW i long time never had fever till 37.8. the most is like 37.5-6. Anyway when to my mum and told her i wanna see doctor. now schooling and with so many ICAS to go cannot be sick to miss klass but how ironic coz i've been skipping bio lectures. that part time lecture we got for this coming 3 weeks sux!!! Anyway at the doctor my temp went up to 37.9. HAHA!!!!! surprisingly i dun feel that uncomfortable to the extend to match my high fever. ANyway it was just a common cold. its flu and decongestion. stomach flu i think. haha !!! i just took my medicine so now cannot think rite already. feeling very floaty if u now wat i mean haha
Anyway Sry to ZQ coz i was suppose to meet her today to go out but haf to cancel it. Din expect myself to be sick in just one nite haha!!!!! though i was having sore throat the nite b4. Anyway will be going out tomolo instead. i should be feeling fine enough to go out bah. so must slp early liao or else tomolo haf to cancel again and i dun want coz i got no other time to get things done liao haha!!!!!!!! Will be busy studying for tests liao. going to slp now byebye
Thursday, May 11, 2006
can't slp
Can't Sleep
Damn IT!!!!!!!! its almost 2am but i still so wide awake. Guess wat i haf to wake up at 6am somemore. Guess i would be slping in lectures again haha!!!!!!!! haiz....... This whole week feeling so sianz and i think i hafing a drastic mood swing problem liao or i guess its actually i facing a problem that i dunno how to tell that person wahaha!!!!!! I guess i need a change of environment already or else i might just go mad!!!!!! AND I REALLY MEAN MAD!!!!!!!! Lucky yesterday zq saw mi during lunch and came over to tok or else i think i might haf gone mad rite after lunch break haha!!!!!! sound so serious but i think it is bah coz going crazy is serious haha!!!!!! I think i sound crazy too !!!!!!! CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY!!!!!!!!! i think i really going crazy!!!! i guess trying to protect myself too much and by having so many secrets is a bad thing afterall!!!!!!! its like cannot say this say that and its so troublesome hafing to think so much b4 you open ur mouth!!!!!!!! haiz really sianz lah so thats why we are having a update rite now to pour out all my problems haha!!!!!!!!! SIANZ SIANZ SIANZ the most sianz is that i can't contactthe person in charge of my VTP allowance. how can they shortchange me!!!!!! I work hard during VTP so cannot gif me stupid reasons to shortchange me i will fight back for it wahaha!!!!!!!!! Another sianz thing is that haiz this month i seem to be spending too much liao haha and i got some stuff i wanna buy too haha!!!!!!!!! and so many ppl BDAE!!!!!! mayb i should not bother bout their bdae haha afterall they din bother with mine !!!!!!!!! haha sound so xiao qi but who cares!!!!!!!! OK something interesting yest happen which is zq told me that her fren was so sad for one whole day coz i online scold her biased, shallowminded and ask her not to bullshit haha ( go read zq msn blog on her nafa. i made a comment.) Anyway it was so funny!!!!!!! Well i find it funny!!!!!!! OKay that was the joke of the day !!!!!!!!! Recently i began to really like 183 club haha think must be coz of their song in Ai Qing Mo FA SHi its damn nice lor!!!!! its super nice wahaha!!!! love it !!!!!!!! anyway the show is bloody nice too lor haha!!!!!! every week can;t wait for sunday so can dl the show!!!!!!!!!! and ming dao so handsome and shao wei too in that show haha!!! so cool looking !!!!!!!!!! i think i going to find their poster and take done the wilber and shang wei poster that is on my wall now haha!!!!!!! But i still like he junxiang best !!!!!!!!! Anyway hope taiwan would show more gd shows like devil beside you and ai qing mo fa shi. really nice lor and i totally love it!!!!!!! i think i crazy liao coz never leave paragraph haha!!!!! who cares!!!!!! crazy ppl do crazy things!!!!!!!!! haiz next week need to really start practising my clinicla skills already coz week 7 got skill and theory test. Second yr really very hard lor actaully is like i dun get wat is going on in klass or mayb coz most of the time i'm slping haha but the lecturers are really boring. i haf already gone to the extend of listening to the ragio and slp and listening to the lecture tok all at the same time haha!!!!!!!!! doing 3 things at the same time haha!!!!!! i must be crazy!!!!!!! i guess this entry must be long enough liao haha just the whole week haha !!!!!!!!! or mayb till i'm feeling sianz or cannot slp or crazy again than wil update to crap all day long again!!!!! till then!!!!!!! and i still can't slp!!!!
Damn IT!!!!!!!! its almost 2am but i still so wide awake. Guess wat i haf to wake up at 6am somemore. Guess i would be slping in lectures again haha!!!!!!!! haiz....... This whole week feeling so sianz and i think i hafing a drastic mood swing problem liao or i guess its actually i facing a problem that i dunno how to tell that person wahaha!!!!!! I guess i need a change of environment already or else i might just go mad!!!!!! AND I REALLY MEAN MAD!!!!!!!! Lucky yesterday zq saw mi during lunch and came over to tok or else i think i might haf gone mad rite after lunch break haha!!!!!! sound so serious but i think it is bah coz going crazy is serious haha!!!!!! I think i sound crazy too !!!!!!! CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY!!!!!!!!! i think i really going crazy!!!! i guess trying to protect myself too much and by having so many secrets is a bad thing afterall!!!!!!! its like cannot say this say that and its so troublesome hafing to think so much b4 you open ur mouth!!!!!!!! haiz really sianz lah so thats why we are having a update rite now to pour out all my problems haha!!!!!!!!! SIANZ SIANZ SIANZ the most sianz is that i can't contactthe person in charge of my VTP allowance. how can they shortchange me!!!!!! I work hard during VTP so cannot gif me stupid reasons to shortchange me i will fight back for it wahaha!!!!!!!!! Another sianz thing is that haiz this month i seem to be spending too much liao haha and i got some stuff i wanna buy too haha!!!!!!!!! and so many ppl BDAE!!!!!! mayb i should not bother bout their bdae haha afterall they din bother with mine !!!!!!!!! haha sound so xiao qi but who cares!!!!!!!! OK something interesting yest happen which is zq told me that her fren was so sad for one whole day coz i online scold her biased, shallowminded and ask her not to bullshit haha ( go read zq msn blog on her nafa. i made a comment.) Anyway it was so funny!!!!!!! Well i find it funny!!!!!!! OKay that was the joke of the day !!!!!!!!! Recently i began to really like 183 club haha think must be coz of their song in Ai Qing Mo FA SHi its damn nice lor!!!!! its super nice wahaha!!!! love it !!!!!!!! anyway the show is bloody nice too lor haha!!!!!! every week can;t wait for sunday so can dl the show!!!!!!!!!! and ming dao so handsome and shao wei too in that show haha!!! so cool looking !!!!!!!!!! i think i going to find their poster and take done the wilber and shang wei poster that is on my wall now haha!!!!!!! But i still like he junxiang best !!!!!!!!! Anyway hope taiwan would show more gd shows like devil beside you and ai qing mo fa shi. really nice lor and i totally love it!!!!!!! i think i crazy liao coz never leave paragraph haha!!!!! who cares!!!!!! crazy ppl do crazy things!!!!!!!!! haiz next week need to really start practising my clinicla skills already coz week 7 got skill and theory test. Second yr really very hard lor actaully is like i dun get wat is going on in klass or mayb coz most of the time i'm slping haha but the lecturers are really boring. i haf already gone to the extend of listening to the ragio and slp and listening to the lecture tok all at the same time haha!!!!!!!!! doing 3 things at the same time haha!!!!!! i must be crazy!!!!!!! i guess this entry must be long enough liao haha just the whole week haha !!!!!!!!! or mayb till i'm feeling sianz or cannot slp or crazy again than wil update to crap all day long again!!!!! till then!!!!!!! and i still can't slp!!!!
Sunday, May 07, 2006
wanna write something
Just feel like writing something.......
Suddenly just feel like writing something but wat should i write about...... ponder.......
.....still pondering......... Well nothing actually haha!!!! Just a moment ago i was just reading some ppl's blog coz got nothing better to do haha!!!! kinda sick of seeing my books and all those craps written on it haha!!!!!!!!! than suddenly the scene of Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi that Ming Dao say the xie ying of cherry is cherish. haha suddenly just haf this weird feeling in me!!!! Just feeling funny!!!! Must all those songs that i've been addicted to recently haha!!!!!!
LIfe is just so weird and funny at times...... there are like many up and downs but some ppl are just so fortunate to be free of the 'downs' while most are unlucky!!!! Sometimes i wonder why do those ppl who dun deserve any happiness at all are having it all but those who deserve it are not having any!!!!!!!! troubles and worries seem to also be around those who deserve happiness. Is this a obstacle that they haf to go through to find real happiness till death or its all just a joke. Is it true tat only 'evil' ppl gets the best of stuff and evil do truimph over good????
This is something i always wonder...... Everything around me seems to prove that this is true. I dun ever seem to see good truimph over evil. Is there really such a thing or is just human beings trying to make themself feel gd.
Suddenly something just strike me...... Recently i'm starting to feel that i do not know who i really am already. I'm like starting not to know wat kind of person am i anymore. I dun really like to tok already. even online. I use to have alot of stuff to tok about in the past but not anymore. Even to you guys i also dun tok much already and even more so to ppl that i only know for 1yr or so. Guess these few yrs i've been keeping too much to myself that made me not want to tok anymore. I just can't open up at all. Seeing ppl around me all opening up having that kind of relax feeling is also wat i want but i just can't be that!!!!! Is there something wrong with me???? or mayb i'm just not that kind but than why do i feel that it is wat i want???? The worst part is that i use to just shout at ppl that piss me off immedietely but now it seems that i just can't seem to do that anymore??? And boy trust me its damn frustrating when u wanna say it but u can't say it out. Is there something wrong with me???????? ANSWERS I NEED ANSWERS!!!!!!! haiz feeling so sad..... Who am i ????? Wat is the real me?????? Living in this pretenious world had made me lost my idenity already.
Mayb This is the time to look for ME!!!!!!!! Its should be somewhere out there i guess!!!!!!!
Suddenly just feel like writing something but wat should i write about...... ponder.......
.....still pondering......... Well nothing actually haha!!!! Just a moment ago i was just reading some ppl's blog coz got nothing better to do haha!!!! kinda sick of seeing my books and all those craps written on it haha!!!!!!!!! than suddenly the scene of Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi that Ming Dao say the xie ying of cherry is cherish. haha suddenly just haf this weird feeling in me!!!! Just feeling funny!!!! Must all those songs that i've been addicted to recently haha!!!!!!
LIfe is just so weird and funny at times...... there are like many up and downs but some ppl are just so fortunate to be free of the 'downs' while most are unlucky!!!! Sometimes i wonder why do those ppl who dun deserve any happiness at all are having it all but those who deserve it are not having any!!!!!!!! troubles and worries seem to also be around those who deserve happiness. Is this a obstacle that they haf to go through to find real happiness till death or its all just a joke. Is it true tat only 'evil' ppl gets the best of stuff and evil do truimph over good????
This is something i always wonder...... Everything around me seems to prove that this is true. I dun ever seem to see good truimph over evil. Is there really such a thing or is just human beings trying to make themself feel gd.
Suddenly something just strike me...... Recently i'm starting to feel that i do not know who i really am already. I'm like starting not to know wat kind of person am i anymore. I dun really like to tok already. even online. I use to have alot of stuff to tok about in the past but not anymore. Even to you guys i also dun tok much already and even more so to ppl that i only know for 1yr or so. Guess these few yrs i've been keeping too much to myself that made me not want to tok anymore. I just can't open up at all. Seeing ppl around me all opening up having that kind of relax feeling is also wat i want but i just can't be that!!!!! Is there something wrong with me???? or mayb i'm just not that kind but than why do i feel that it is wat i want???? The worst part is that i use to just shout at ppl that piss me off immedietely but now it seems that i just can't seem to do that anymore??? And boy trust me its damn frustrating when u wanna say it but u can't say it out. Is there something wrong with me???????? ANSWERS I NEED ANSWERS!!!!!!! haiz feeling so sad..... Who am i ????? Wat is the real me?????? Living in this pretenious world had made me lost my idenity already.
Mayb This is the time to look for ME!!!!!!!! Its should be somewhere out there i guess!!!!!!!
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